The Burning Mind

Chapter 1

Chapter 2

Chapter 3

Chapter 4

Chapter 5

Chapter 6

Chapter 7

Chapter 8

Chapter 9

Chapter 10

Chapter 11

Chapter 12

Chapter 13

Chapter 14

Chapter 15

Chapter 16

Chapter 17

Chapter 18

Chapter 19

Chapter 20

Chapter 21

Chapter 22

Chapter 23

Chapter 24

Chapter 25

Chapter 26

Chapter 27

Chapter 28

Chapter 29

Chapter 30

Chapter 31

Chapter 32

Chapter 33

Chapter 34

Chapter 35

Chapter 36

Chapter 37

Chapter 38

Chapter 39

Chapter 40

Chapter 41

Chapter 42

Chapter 43

Chapter 44

Chapter 45

Chapter 46

Chapter 47

Chapter 48

Chapter 49

Chapter 50

Chapter 51

Chapter 52

Chapter 53

Chapter 54

Chapter 55

Chapter 56

Chapter 57

Chapter 58

Chapter 59

Chapter 60

Chapter 61

Chapter 62

Chapter 63

Chapter 64

Acknowledgments

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1

When it started, Harper Flynn had a fifth of vodka in her hand, six shot glasses lined up on the bar in front of her, and a stinging cut on her arm from a broken beer bottle. Music rained through the refurbished warehouse, a sheet of noise. Harper poured the martini into a chilled glass. Down the crowded bar, a banker waved his empty highball glass and a twenty. She nodded. Macallan, neat, with a Stella back – she’d get to him. She’d get to them all. Eleven P.M. and she was halfway through her shift.

She slid the martini glass toward the man in the suit. ‘Fourteen-fifty.’

He frowned and shouted over the band. ‘For an ounce of vodka and an olive?’

She smiled. ‘For turning you into James Bond.’ And for not spitting in it.

The dance floor was a swerving mass of spangled people. On the walls, flat screens projected glossy music videos. In booths and at tables along the balcony, cooler customers leaned back, holding court over bottles of Bollinger. The stage lights skewed the space between white glare and murky corners. The warehouse windows were milky with moonlight, pierced by occasional Los Angeles headlights.

The suit stroked the stem of the martini glass. ‘I’ll pay four bucks.’

‘Fourteen-fifty,’ Harper said, still smiling, but both hands on the bar now.

She wore a black cotton blouse, sleeves rolled to the elbows, and black jeans he couldn’t see, because he was too busy trying to Jedi mind-trick her buttons open. Next to him, a woman leaned back, laughing, hand to her chest.

From the crowd, Drew appeared behind the suit. Eyes on Harper, shoulders square, as though he was lining up to head-butt the man.

Drew leaned toward the guy’s ear. ‘How’s your drink?’

The man looked up at him, several inches. Noticed the black shirt, the chilly eyes, the cornerback’s body.

Harper said, ‘His drink’s about to be paid for.’

Maybe half a second the guy held on, wanting to yank her chain again. Then he slapped fifteen bucks on the bar and skulked off.

Drew smiled. ‘He thought I was your boss.’

That smile was wicked, and overtly pleased.

‘Never,’ she said. ‘Not even when we play dress-up later on.’

He didn’t work there. He only worked his way under her skin, into her thoughts, her days, her nights. Now he was laughing. She nodded at the far end of the bar and walked down. He followed.

He slid her employee swipe card into her hand. ‘Thanks.’

She clipped the card to her belt, quietly, her back turned to the club’s CCTV camera. ‘What’s it like outside?’

‘Zoo. Line around the block, security’s wanding guys and carding teenage girls.’

‘But they’re still letting people in?’

He raised his eyebrows. The walls seemed to bulge under the press of the crowd. Fire limit was twelve hundred. That many seemed to be clamoring for drinks.

Harper said, ‘Your sister’s not out there, is she?’

He laughed. ‘Piper might be able to fake her way past security, but she knows you’re working. You’re scarier than any bouncer.’

‘That’s my motto. Now buy a drink. And tip me big.’

Drew had borrowed her swipe card so he could avoid the hassle of security at the front entrance when he came back in. He eyed the bottles arrayed behind her.

She added, ‘And no, you may not challenge me to mix the worst drink possible. I will not serve you an Antifreeze. Or a Brain Tumor.’

‘An Old-Fashioned,’ he said.

She wiped her hands on her apron. ‘Bourbon or rye?’

‘What’s the most old-fashioned?’

She set a glass on the bar. ‘You stir it for eighteen minutes to muddle the drink.’ She dropped in a sugar cube, added Angostura bitters and water, and stirred with a spoon. ‘That’s how Al Capone demanded it.’

She filled the glass with Wild Turkey, shoveled in ice cubes, and nudged the glass at him.

The band hit a final chord. Definitely Arson was the hot ticket that had drawn this whooping crowd to the Valley on a Saturday night. In a booth near the stage, a glass broke. A woman squealed. An ice bucket tipped over.

One of the other bartenders, Sanita, said, ‘High roller. Vegas millionaire, I heard.’

Harper glanced at the booth. Everything seemed brilliant and shadowed.

Across the dance floor, at the main entrance, a man came up the stairs. He stopped in the doorway. Hands at his sides, jacket open. For a second, he struck Harper as a gunslinger, readying himself to draw, waiting for an opponent to rise up from the swirl in front of him. A woman came in the door beside him, a blonde, same urgency, same eyes.

The band launched into a new song. Down the bar, a man whistled and shouted, ‘Cuervo.’

At the door, the harsh-eyed man and woman surveyed the room in slow tandem, like twin Terminators. Drew leaned on the bar, rattling the ice in his glass. Harper took the Cuervo Gold from the shelf.

The first sound was a muffled pop. The man and woman with the gunslinger eyes turned toward the high roller’s booth. Harper’s skin prickled.

A second report hammered beneath the drumbeat. It was unmistakable, a noise she knew from the firing range and a thousand TV shows, a sound it seemed she had been expecting all her life: gunfire.

2

Aiden Garrison turned at the noise. ‘Shots fired.’

From the doorway, he scanned the club. With its heaving swirl of dancers and the thunder of the band, it might as well have been a riot. Beside him, Erika Sorenstam drew her weapon. The stage lights flashed against her blond hair and the badge hooked on her belt.

‘Where?’ she said.

People continued dancing, arms upraised. It was a jungle, swaying as though under the force of the beat, and he couldn’t see the snakes.

Across the club, the man in the booth by the stage – heavyset, young, and sweating into his two-thousand-dollar suit – pointed at the crowd. Arliss Bale, Vegas hotshot, known meth wholesaler. His bodyguards rose and stormed into the crowd.

‘They’re going for Bale.’ Garrison shouldered his way onto the dance floor. His weapon was already in his hands.

Beneath the crash of cymbals, a third shot reached his ears. So did the first scream.

The scream barely cut through the blare of the singer and guitars. Harper’s palms went clammy. Drew turned toward the sound.

In the booth by the stage, bodyguards lunged to their feet. They dragged Mr High Roller from his seat. Another shot echoed.

Harper shouted, ‘Gunshots. Everybody get down.’

The band kept playing. The crowd kept dancing. Then screams came like a rock slide, pebbles at first, rolling, escalating, until noise and fear cut through the center of the floor, an avalanche. The music dribbled to a stop.

‘Go,’ Harper shouted. ‘Get out. Now.’

Without music, the screams took over. The customers at the bar scattered. People spilled out in all directions, frantic, eyes round. The booth near the stage had emptied, bodyguards rushing into the crowd, Mr Big on his knees, reaching into his suit jacket for a weapon or his valet parking ticket, something to transport him out of there.

On the dance floor, a woman tripped and fell. Three feet from Harper, Sanita swiped her card to lock the register. She was punching the screen when the shot hit her in the chest.

She keeled back against the bottles behind her and dropped.

‘Sanita,’ Harper cried.

Drew leaned across the bar and grabbed Harper’s hand. ‘This way.’

Harper resisted. ‘Sanita’s hurt.’

Sanita sat, legs splayed, hand pressed to her chest. She stared astonished at the blood seeping between her fingers.

Two people dived across the bar and rolled to the floor, taking cover. Drew pulled on Harper’s arm. Behind him, a man huffed as if he’d been hit with a sledgehammer. Blood erupted from his shoulder.

People were stampeding, hands out, some looking back. For a moment, the dance floor cleared and gave Harper a clean view of the room.

A man in a hoodie, wearing gloves and a gas mask, was advancing toward the high roller’s bodyguards, arm extended, firing a pistol. He seemed unhurried.

Drew tightened his grip on her arm. ‘Come on.’

The gunshot took him high in the back and knocked him against the bar.

Aiden Garrison and Erika Sorenstam forged through the crowd, shoving against the tide. Garrison held his weapon with both hands. The lights flipped blue, strobing, women in iridescent dresses racing past. One shied and screamed at the sight of his gun.

‘Sheriff’s department. Move,’ he said.

Sorenstam’s face was washed blue beneath the lights. She spoke into her shoulder-mounted radio. ‘Shots fired at Xenon.’

She held her weapon aimed at the hardwood floor. The strobes flashed in her eyes. Garrison continued to scan the room.

Two bodyguards from the booth headed into the melee – suits, glass stares, earpieces, shoving people aside.

One of them went down in the crowd as though he’d been nailed by a shark. Garrison eyed the trajectory the shot had taken. He saw the fleeting profile of a man in a hoodie, wearing a mask. And behind that man, another. Heading toward the bar. Guns in their hands.

Garrison plunged after them. ‘Sorenstam.’

She didn’t respond. Alarm jacked through him. He fought against the stampede and passed a man who’d been shot. The man lay facedown, motionless, getting kicked like a rugby ball. Garrison knelt briefly, trying to form a barrier. He put two fingers to the man’s neck. No pulse.

He stood. Between fleeing people, two gray hoodies wove their way across the floor, a counterflow, methodical. Another gunshot boomed out. He turned. Who had fired? Where was Erika?

A woman bumped into him, hands out. Beyond her was a shooter, dark hoodie, face covered by a gas mask. The shooter raised a silver pistol. The hoodie rode up his back. Chones hanging out over sagging jeans. Pale white rind of skin visible around his waist. He stalked toward the bar.

Where a young guy in a black shirt had been hit and lay splayed across the counter. And Garrison saw the young bartender.

‘Drew,’ Harper said.

She could barely hear herself. Her field of vision had collapsed into a bright shriek. Drew lay crashed across the bar, gasping. His fingers clawed the wood. Blood spread from the exit wound in his chest. Behind him came the reflected flash of silver, from the handgun pointing directly at him.

Dark figures moved against the turbulent flow of the crowd. Shadows, golems, men in masks. One turned her way. The plastic eyeholes of his gas mask glittered under the stage strobes.

Drew tried to straighten, but slid backward toward the floor.

Harper grabbed his wrist. ‘No.’

He looked at her, distantly, seemingly surprised by pain.

A bullet shattered the mirror behind her. Harper flinched. Glass waterfalled to the floor. Sanita cried out and curled into a ball. The man in the gas mask was closer.

Drew slipped another inch. Harper’s system flooded with adrenaline. Hanging tight to his wrist, she scrambled onto the bar and across.

Sanita cried, ‘Harper – no.’

Harper jumped down on the far side of the bar. Drew slid to the floor.

She dropped to his side, heart thundering. ‘Come on.’

He swiped a hand in her direction. ‘Can’t breathe.’

‘Hold on.’ She worked her arms around him and labored to her feet.

Cover, she needed cover. The main door was a hundred fifty feet across the dance floor. The staff entrance – the door Drew had used earlier – was closer. She turned toward it. A shooter stood in front of it, aiming at the high roller’s booth. Dammit. Groaning with effort, she turned again and hauled Drew toward the end of the bar. She had to get behind it. His heels dragged on the wood. His shirt gleamed wetly.

Hundreds of people were still trying to get out of the club. The shooter turned in her direction. The eyeholes of his gas mask looked black and void. Harper’s skin, her bones, the air around her, felt electric.

She lugged Drew backward, arms aching. He didn’t rise, didn’t help her, sank lower in her arms. ‘Westerman, come on, man. Come on.’

The man in the gas mask reached inside his sweatshirt. When he pulled his hand out again, Harper stumbled.

He held the worst drink ever invented. The Molotov cocktail.

He jammed his pistol into the waistband of his sagging jeans, took out a lighter, and lit the rag in the bottle. Hell, Harper thought. Oh, hell. Chaotic flames illuminated a crawling black tattoo on his hand and reflected in the eyeholes of his mask.

Then, deep in the crowd behind him, another figure became visible: the man with the Terminator stare. He raised a gun. He was shouting. Maybe Don’t move. Maybe Freeze.

Gas Mask turned his head sharply. Turning back, he pitched the bottle against the wall above the bar. It burst with a clattering chime. Gasoline bloomed into flame like a sightless orange eye.

Harper staggered. ‘Jesus.’

Liquid flames spilled and flared. Gas Mask tipped his head up as they climbed the wall. Insect-quick, he lobbed something else into the fire, ducked, and disappeared back into the crowd.

Smoke boiled onto the ceiling and curled over on itself. Sanita crawled from behind the bar, aided by another bartender.

Harper called to them. ‘The door – gotta get out.’

With a percussive crack, the bar exploded. Red-white flames starburst and shrapnel flew. Harper cringed against Drew, gasping. She inhaled caustic smoke. Choking at the smell and taste and fearful heat of it, she coughed and inhaled even more.

Lock it down. Basic training came back to her. Hold your shit together, and get out.

The fire inflated. It boiled up the walls, engulfed the bar, and streaked along the floor. The smoke alarm tripped, a solid high-pitched shriek. Drew hung heavy in her shaking arms. She looked over her shoulder. The main door was one hundred twenty feet away. Beyond it, the stairs were jammed. A cry lodged in her throat. The stairs were packed so solid with people that none of them could move. They were yelling, writhing like worms.

The CO₂ fire suppression system activated. But across the club, a man smashed a window with a chair. Oxygen gushed in. The flames welled and roared across the ceiling. The heat swelled appallingly.

A fleeing woman tripped into Drew. He blinked but didn’t move. Harper checked the other direction, the staff door at the back of the club. Black smoke nearly obscured it. Dozens of people were trying to shove through it. But gliding her way were three hooded figures. Amid the panic, they appeared impervious. The blaze seemed to burn from within their gas masks. Smoke enveloped them, then cleared around the one in the center. Under the light of the flames, the crawly black tattoo seemed to writhe. The silver pistol in his hand swept slowly across the room, gradually closing in on her and Drew.

Garrison tracked the shooters through rushing people and flashes of white flame and lowering black smoke. Hoods, masks, strutting across the dance floor. One raised his gun and aimed at the young brunette bartender. The pistol straight out, shoulder hunching, almost a parody of a gangsta pose, sweatshirt riding up, stalking across the floor, ignoring the fire he’d started.

Garrison barged toward him, coughing, trying to get a clear shot through the crowd and smoke. The shooters progressed in a straight line across the club, maybe sweeping the room for their original targets. They neared the wounded young man and the bartender, a slight woman who was straining to drag him to safety. Her hair was falling in front of her face. Her eyes were huge and desperate, but not craven – they glinted with firelight. She meant to save the young man even as the shooters and the fire bore down on her.

Garrison took aim. ‘Sheriff’s department. Drop your weapons,’ he yelled.

The shooter didn’t respond. Garrison kept advancing. The gunman had a clear shot. He himself didn’t. The smoke billowed, obscuring all three shooters. Then, with a gust, it cleared. Garrison had an unobstructed field of fire. He squeezed the trigger. One of the gunmen went down. Garrison held his breath and swept his weapon right, and a second shooter was spinning in his direction, gun coming up. Garrison fired again.

Then, with a loud crack and a slithering shift in the floor, the world ended.

The wall of heat seemed to radiate through Harper. The fire bellowed, yellow, sliding around the room. Sparks and glass and the floor creaking. She turned frantically toward the staff exit. The smoke had lowered almost to the floor. Scurrying feet ran through the door, to the back hall, and it snapped shut.

She wrestled Drew toward the exit, groaning. The floor shifted beneath her. In front of the flaming bar, two shooters were down. From out of the smoke emerged the man with a gun and a badge.

She kept moving, even as the noise in the room turned to apocalypse, even as she knew the door was close, but too far. The cop was coming for her.

The floor opened up beneath him. With a flare of sparks and tearing wood, it collapsed. The wall came down with it. The club, the shooters, the night, her life, all disappeared into it. For a second, she caught the cop’s eye, until smoke and flame and the falling floor swallowed him. She felt Drew slipping and thought: I’m only a minute behind you into death.

3

A hawk drifted overhead, poised, dipping on flared wings. The sycamores rustled in the morning breeze. Down the hill, the Pacific sparkled with firework brilliance. Richard Westerman read from prepared notes.

‘My son loved the outdoors. He loved this park.’

Though Westerman spoke up, his voice was buttoned down. ‘So today, in his honor, we dedicate the Drew Westerman Memorial Grove.’

Harper stood at the back of the gathering. Twelve months, almost. Three hundred sixty-two days Drew had been gone. Three hundred fifty-six since he’d been put in the ground. The hawk rose on a brush of air.

‘We hope that everybody who comes here and walks in the shade of these trees will find’ … Westerman looked up from his notes. ‘Find some …’

Harper steepled her fingers against her lips.

Drew’s mother, Sandra, stepped up and took her husband’s hand. ‘Our family hopes that everyone who comes here will take heart from this beautiful view, the sky, the ocean my son loved so much. Thank you.’

Applause pattered. The trees seemed to join in, leaves trembling. Richard and Sandra Westerman leaned against each other. Nearby, Drew’s sister, Piper, blinked against the sunlight.

The crowd shuffled toward them, a ragtag receiving line of neighbors, family, Drew’s friends from the software firm, and his father’s colleagues from the bank. Harper recognized a few people who had been at Xenon that night – fellow survivors. A photographer skirted the gathering, camera to his eye, shooting. Down the hill, the Malibu coastline shimmered in the salt air.

Yeah, this was the spot. Drew had relished sunny days and a good surf report. And the trees, with their roots digging into the ground, gnarling and strengthening, viscerally reinforced the truth that Drew had gone down and was buried.

He had gone down with the collapse of the floor and left Harper hanging on the edge of nails and splintered wood, screaming. That night, she was ten inches on the right side of living. Drew was on the wrong side.

Harper had recovered from the smoke inhalation and lacerations and the burns caused by flaming debris. She had largely stopped hurting. She was still trying to stop asking why. That question was a trigger. It sucked her into a recurrent loop, where memory became a kind of recidivism.

Worse, asking why seemed to get her nowhere.

The hawk rode the air above her, wings tipping back and forth, hovering as if tethered with a kite string.

Across the lawn, people huddled around the Westermans. Richard and Sandra stood hip to hip, hands locked. Piper stood apart, awkwardly greeting people. She looked like she needed a teammate. Harper walked over.

A woman in a salmon-tinted suit was smiling painfully at the teenager. ‘A lovely memorial. Your brother’s certainly smiling down on you today.’

Piper brushed her hair behind an ear. ‘Glad it’s sunny. Better view for him.’

The woman’s smile weakened. She glanced at Harper, maybe seeking assurance that Piper wasn’t toying with her.

She did a double take. ‘You’re …’

‘Harper Flynn.’

The woman had crow’s eyes, flat and searching. ‘You’re the girlfriend.’

She touched her pearls and glanced at Piper. Volumes in that glance. Poor kid.

Piper’s eyes flashed. Often the girl hid her gaze behind a downturned chin and sandy hair that formed a parenthesis in front of her face. But when she stared, it was frank, a paint-stripping glare.

She grabbed Harper’s hand. ‘We’re going to get the Ouija board and find out if my brother has a view of traffic on the freeway home. Excuse us.’

She turned toward the grove of sycamores, but the woman stepped in front of Harper.

‘You’re the one he saved,’ she said.

Piper’s mouth tightened. ‘She’ll spell out thank you on the Ouija board.’

‘I’d hope so. My God. To have somebody give his life for you.’ The woman tilted her head as though examining a specimen, trying to see Harper slantwise. ‘I hope you live in a way that’s worthy of what Drew did for you.’

The sun felt jaundiced and overbright. Harper said, ‘I’m working on it.’

Piper pulled Harper into the trees. Under her breath she said, ‘What a special brand of bullshit people shovel at a gig like this.’

‘I’m used to it,’ Harper said.

‘I can’t take it. Before you walked up, she told me, “God needed an angel, so he called Drew home.” ’

As if a fourteen-billion-year-old god needed to call Drew home that night, via blood loss and blunt force trauma, instead of letting him live out his life. ‘God didn’t do this.’

‘No shit.’

Piper stopped beneath a tree and slumped back against the trunk. ‘I’m the girl whose brother died. That’s plenty to wear every day. You’re the one he died for. How’s that feel?’

Feel? Grief wasn’t a feeling. It was a thing that visited. It was a weight, a lead wall, and it pressed on her lungs and settled a shadow across her mind, until the only way she could inhale was through a gasp of anger. Fleetingly, she saw a barricade of fire, smelled the phantom reek of smoke.

How did it feel? Impossible to live up to. Because it was a myth.

In her statement to the sheriff’s department, which she wrote from the hospital, Harper had drawn a diagram and explained where she and Drew were standing. He grabbed my hand across the bar and said, ‘Come on.’ Then the round hit him in the back.

To his parents, those terse words became the testament of Drew’s heroism. Drew had tried to lead Harper to safety. Shielding her, he had blocked the gunfire with his own body and sacrificed himself.

‘I take it as a mark of respect for Drew,’ she said.

‘You’re trying to earn it, aren’t you?’ Piper said.

‘Maybe.’

Piper’s hair fell in front of her face. Her razor stare was beneath. ‘You’re going to graduate and get a job with Homeland Security or Protect-Your-Shit Incorporated, and keep watch over everybody in the country, aren’t you?’

‘To start.’

Definitely. Pointlessly. She could scrub her life so clean that it gleamed like the alabaster statue of a saint. To Drew’s parents, nothing she did could outshine their son’s martyrdom.

With Xenon out of business, she had scrabbled a job as a barista to make ends meet while she finished her degree at UCLA. But she could do nothing about the rest of it – the why and what the hell? She’d learned way back: You can’t control what other people do or how they see you. You can only control your own reactions. Life owed you nothing. Life came upon you. You built what you could.

But she was struggling to do that, because the investigation by the Los Angeles Sheriff’s Department, and the L. A. Fire Department, and the BATF had concluded that Xenon was attacked by two gunmen: hired enforcers, settling a score between criminals over a deal gone bad. The dead men were local lowlifes, convenience store robbers, assholes in crime. Both were killed at Xenon. One was shot dead. The other died when the floor caved in.

Two shooters, not three.

The report noted unverified reports from several survivors who claimed to have seen more than two gunmen. It noted that a civilian witness asserted she had counted three hooded men in gas masks, one of whom brandished a silver pistol. But it found insufficient corroboration to validate her claim. In other words: The authorities thought that in the mayhem, overcome by terror, Harper had imagined a bogeyman.

All dead. So said the police. Harper heard that as a taunt.

She had spent four years in the Navy doing a job that boiled down to threat analysis. Before that, she had survived her teens by knowing how to recognize and avoid danger. Yet nobody believed what she’d seen the night when danger became immediate and personal. Her eyewitness testimony had been relegated to a footnote. That was what nearly made her bleed bile. Her experience had been reduced to an asterisk.

‘Don’t worry about me. Your snark’s at championship level. Doing okay?’

For a second, Harper thought Piper might, finally, cry. But she forced a smile. ‘Ready for this day to be done.’

Harper put an arm around her shoulder. Overhead, the hawk took a last lazy turn over the trees. With a burst of wings, it swooped down the hill toward the water.

Harper missed the sixteen-year-old that Piper had been before Drew’s death: impish, precocious, sunny; smart-alecky with the older brother she had idolized. The slicing stare, the sarcasm, were new, her emotional Kevlar.

‘Ready to face the crowd again?’ Harper said.

‘If you’ll block for me,’ Piper said.

Arm around Piper’s shoulder, Harper headed back toward the gathering. Across the park, moms were pushing kids on the swings. On the lawn, two young men tossed a Frisbee. A brindled dog watched them, panting. In the grove, the leaves trilled in the breeze. Light and shade scurried across the ground.

Then a deeper shadow seemed to move.

A man stood in the shadows among the trees. Harper saw him in silhouette, backlit by the morning sun. He was thin, in a loose jacket and baseball cap. Shoulders ratcheted up, hands in his pockets. He slid from behind one tree and along the ground, his stride seeming to snap as he kicked up leaves. His head was turned in the direction of the Westermans and the people gathered around them.

Piper said, ‘What?’

Harper stopped. So did the man, shadow across his face, dappled sunlight falling on his shoulders.

‘Harper?’ Piper said.

Though she couldn’t see his eyes, Harper could feel him staring at her. She tightened her grip on Piper’s shoulder. The man held still, watching.

‘What’s the matter?’ Piper raised a hand to point. ‘Who’s that?’

Harper pushed the girl’s hand down. ‘Go to your mom and dad.’

Hesitantly, Piper headed for her parents. Harper turned to the grove of trees.

The man was gone.

Her palms were sweating. A pinging seemed to emanate from the center of her head, sonar, seeking a return. The shadows gave nothing back.

Clenching her fists, she walked back into the grove. Leaves crunched beneath her feet. Checking her peripheral vision for motion, she headed deep into the trees, to the spot where the man had been standing. On the ground, in trampled grass, were three discarded cigarette butts.

Her mouth felt dry. She scanned the grove and the park beyond, but the man had vanished. Skin prickling, she crouched and examined the cigarette butts. One was still smoldering.

He’d been standing there long enough to smoke three Marlboros. Watching the memorial service. Feeling half crazed, half foolish, she got an Altoids tin from her purse. She dumped out the mints. Crushing the hot end of the smoldering butt with her heel, she scooped all three into a tissue, dropped them into the tin, and almost furtively stuck it in her purse. It was evidence.

She hurried back to the Westermans. Richard, speaking to a well-wisher, lifted his chin. Sandra’s face was sanded smooth, maybe walled up behind the mortar of Xanax.

Piper said, ‘Scare away the ghosts?’

Her mother looked at her sharply. ‘Inappropriate.’

Harper seemed to see the day through a scrim of yellow light. For a second, she held her tongue.

Then she looked at Piper. She turned to Sandra. ‘I think it would be a good time to go.’

‘Really?’ Sandra said.

‘Somebody was in the grove, spying on the ceremony.’

‘Spying,’ Sandra said.

‘Yes. I think –’

‘Of course you do.’ Sandra’s face paled. Red patches glowed on her cheeks. ‘And you’re right. It’s a good time for you to go.’

‘Mom,’ Piper said.

Sandra raised a hand to silence her daughter. To Harper she said, ‘Really. We don’t need this foolishness.’

‘Mom. Some guy was watching from the trees. I saw him.’

Sandra stared at Harper. ‘ “Some guy.” No, you think it was him. Again.’

‘Mom, chill,’ Piper said.

But Sandra was winding up. ‘You think it was this elusive third shooter. The non-existent killer. For Christ’s sake.’

Harper said, ‘I’m concerned that a man surreptitiously observed the dedication, then took off when he was spotted.’

‘This is not the time to indulge your sad fantasy. For the love of God, this is supposed to be about Drew. Don’t make it about you.’

‘Sandra, please, believe me –’

‘Believe you? That’s what you’re asking?’ Sandra spread her hands. ‘How? You insist that you see somebody who doesn’t exist. Who can trust you?’

Taking Piper’s hand, Sandra strode away across the lawn, leaving Harper to bear the glares of the crowd. The scrim of yellow light brightened painfully. Harper clenched her jaw and walked to her Mini Cooper. She climbed in and slammed the door.

Ghosts. Piper might be right. She started the engine and pulled out. In the rearview mirror, she watched the trees.

4

Harper drove down the hill out of the park, trying to quiet the pounding in her head.

Little forensic evidence had survived the fire. The flames destroyed fingerprints, blood evidence, and the building’s CCTV cameras. Cartridge casings were recovered, sifted by crime scene techs with shaker trays, like archaeologists winnowing a dig for artifacts. The brass was largely melted. Nine millimeter ammunition, .40 caliber ammo, and magnum loads – at least four weapons were fired during the mayhem. Some witnesses insisted they saw one of the gunmen firing two-fisted. Others reported return fire from the target’s bodyguards. Everybody agreed that the shooters had been firing at Arliss Bale, high roller, meth mogul, the guy who escaped without a scratch.

That was another reason the Westermans held Harper accountable for their son’s death. Xenon had let a drug dealer through the door and served him champagne. That kind of place. Who would work there? That kind of woman.

The round that hit Drew went through and through. Forensics couldn’t determine which of the deformed bullets they collected from the rubble had hit him. The fire had melted all ballistic markings.

She shifted and accelerated along the road. The coastal mountains rose behind her. Sunlight striped through the trees.

Four weapons at least. The truth, which the authorities refused to believe, was that there were three attackers.

Two gunmen had been killed. The third had slipped out in the chaos. Maybe he ran out the back door. Maybe he yanked off his mask and mixed with the fleeing crowd. But the man with the silver pistol, the one who shot Drew, had escaped.

And now she’d seen a figure in the trees who moved the way the firelit gunman had moved that night. Snapping, sliding, staring without a face.

She had seen him. No doubt.

The Westermans thought she was telling tales. Was she? She’d been raised by the world’s tale-telling champ. Her mother’s stories had reached Guinness Book territory. ‘This guy at the gas station was such an asshole. Yelling at other drivers to move so he could fill up.’ Harper had listened, fearful and wide-eyed, as the story expanded, until Lila was waving her arms, going, ‘He fired at their feet and said, “Drive.” When I told him to stop it, he made me dance a little, too.’

Later, Harper retold that story at a friend’s house, her fingers twisting with worry. Her friend’s mom said, ‘Honey, are you sure? Because there were no police calls about gunfire at the Shell station.’ Her friend’s mom was a police dispatcher.

She had learned whose stories she could trust: nobody named Flynn.

At the bottom of the hill, she stopped behind a truck that was waiting to turn onto the highway. When she saw the driver through the back window, she honked and flashed her lights. A second later, she got out of the Mini and jogged to his pickup.

He lowered the driver’s window. Beard and a trilby. ‘Yeah?’

‘You were photographing the dedication ceremony,’ she said. ‘I need to see your photos.’

He took more convincing but eventually picked up his camera. A minute later, scanning his camera roll, Harper said, ‘Stop.’

On the display was a shot of the Westermans and, behind them, the grove of trees. In the trees, a figure lurked in the shadows. Harper’s heartbeat kicked up.

‘Can you zoom?’ she said.

He tapped the screen. The figure came into crisp definition. Harper put a hand on the frame of the truck to steady herself. The man in the trees was lean and wiry. His face was too indistinct and shadowed to make out, but his hands were visible in the dappled sunlight. His right hand and arm bore a crawly black tattoo.

‘Can you send me that photo?’ Harper said.

The photographer looked at her askance. ‘The Westermans hired me.’

‘So can you?’

‘What’s this about?’

She already had her wallet out. ‘It’s about twenty bucks. Forward me the photo.’

A minute later, the photographer pulled away and Harper paced by the Mini, phone to her ear.

‘Los Angeles County Sheriff’s Department. How may I direct your call?’

‘Detective Erika Sorenstam,’ Harper said.

Sorenstam wasn’t in. Harper asked to be put through to another deputy. Two minutes later, she wished she’d simply hung up.

‘Can you describe the person you saw?’ the deputy asked.

‘Vaguely.’ As soon as she said it, she knew she was going down the wrong path. She’d had enough experience describing suspects to law enforcement agencies before. ‘He was in the shadows.’

‘It was a male?’

‘I couldn’t see the person’s face.’

A pause. ‘Was this person behaving in a threatening manner?’

‘Lurking in the shadows. At a memorial event for one of the victims of the Xenon shoot-out and fire. And when I approached, he disappeared.’

‘Ms Flynn, you were also at the club the night of the attack, I understand?’

‘Yes.’ She waited, and there was a significant pause on the line. The deputy, she feared, was reading some note in the file about her. ‘Please, will you log this in the file and pass the information on to Detective Sorenstam?’

‘Of course, ma’am.’

She ended the call. The sun felt hot. On the highway, two teenagers walked toward the beach, wearing board shorts, sucking on giant drinks.

Dead end. That’s what everybody told her. That’s what everybody called her attempts to clarify the events of the night of the attack. They were close to locking the doors on her and calling her an obsessive who couldn’t accept the truth.

Maybe they were right. She got back in the car and pulled onto the road. She got another mile toward a pale brown lens of smog when her phone rang.

Piper. She pulled over and picked up.

‘You set Mom off but good,’ Piper said.

‘I want you to be careful,’ Harper said.

‘It’s the anniversary coming up. It’s making everybody insane. But I was kidding about seeing ghosts.’

‘It doesn’t have to be ghosts. There are people who get off on tragedy. They can get obsessed. Sometimes they believe they have a connection with people who are bereaved.’

Piper quieted. ‘You think that guy we saw … ?’

‘Your mom thinks I’m hallucinating monsters. But I want you to be careful if people contact you about Drew.’

‘I don’t take candy from strangers.’

‘Seriously, Piper.’ She hated to scare a kid who’d been through hell in the last year. But she was scared herself. ‘Not just gamers or flamers or trolls. In real life, too. Not everybody who expresses sympathy has your interests at heart.’

Piper sighed. ‘You need to take a vacation.’

Harper’s blood pressure had to be sky-high. Himalaya-high. ‘We all do, kid. But for now, I want you to be vigilant.’

‘You sound as determined as that sheriff’s detective,’ Piper said. ‘His report reads like yours. Third shooter. Still out there. Watch out, everybody.’

‘Maybe that’s a good thing.’

‘I love how you want to fight for Drew. But maybe it’s time to take a break.’

‘Keep your eyes open.’ Harper dropped the phone and put the Mini in gear.

But instead of pulling out, she stared at traffic. That sheriff’s detective. She knew the one Piper meant. Sorenstam’s partner.

Santa Barbara was sixty-five miles up the coast. She could be there in just over an hour. She pulled a U-turn and headed north along the highway.

5

The tide was with the Carolina Gail as she drove toward Santa Barbara Harbor. Two pelicans glided above the water’s surface. The sea was alive with rolling sunlight. Aiden Garrison stood at the bow and let the salt spray cool his face.

In the wheelhouse, his brother, Kieran, steered the boat around the breakwater. At the stern, Kieran’s deckhand spoke on the phone to his girlfriend, telling her he’d be home soon. Their hold was full of bonito. Aiden was exhausted, and glad of it.

The flags along the breakwater snapped in the breeze. Beyond them the mountains, crisp and green in the clear air, muscled up to the shore. Aiden inhaled. He ached, head to toe. His hands were sore and callused. This was good. All systems were working. He could walk, and talk, and haul line, and banter with Kieran. Behind the sun-splintered windows of the wheelhouse, his older brother looked weatherworn and wise-eyed and, as always, quietly competent.

The thirty-five-foot Carolina Gail was Kieran’s boat, Kieran’s business, his mortgage payment and groceries and school clothes for the kids. It was Aiden’s life preserver. He had no illusions about that. He was an amateur at the commercial fishing business. Kieran always thanked him for busting his ass to haul the day’s catch. But Aiden knew: This was a stopgap. It was He ain’t heavy, he’s my brother.

They rounded the breakwater. Nearby, Stearns Wharf stuck into the harbor like a long black finger, pilings tarred and swollen with barnacles. Ahead, the ocean calmed to a gentle blue swell. Breakers shrugged onto the beach.

Kieran guided the Carolina Gail past a thicket of masts, reversed the throttles, and eased alongside the dock, where cranes and hoists and refrigerated trucks waited for the commercial fleet to unload.

She was standing on the sidewalk outside Brophy Brothers, watching.

The boat’s bumpers nudged the wood. Aiden grabbed a mooring line. He checked his balance, as he always did now, and jumped onto the dock.

She waited while he tied off on cleats, fore and aft. He didn’t need binocs, or a handshake, or to check her ID. Even two hundred feet away, he recognized her. Even a year away, even though he’d first seen her through gunfire and smoke and panic.

She was slender, almost coltish, in skinny jeans and a white blouse, her near-black hair pulled back in a loose ponytail but fighting free in the breeze. Her hands hung at her sides. Her eyes, glinting in the sun, were patient and watchful.

Kieran cut the engines and leaned out of the wheelhouse. ‘You know her?’

‘Yes.’

‘Really?’

‘Unquestionably.’

Kieran raised an eyebrow. ‘So what are you waiting for?’

‘You sure?’

‘We’re good. Go on.’

Aiden touched the brim of his baseball cap in thanks, knowing that this was another sign his brother didn’t really need him on the boat. When he finally reached the foot of the dock, she extended her hand.

Her skin was cool, her grip solid. ‘Detective Garrison.’

‘Ms Flynn. It’s Aiden.’ The rest was on hold.

‘Can we talk?’ she said.

‘How did you find me?’

‘Don’t you want to know why I’m here?’

‘I know. I just wanted to postpone the inevitable for at least thirty seconds.’

He gestured at the path along the harbor and led her into the afternoon sunshine, trying not to limp.

‘I read the investigative report.’ She sat at the sidewalk table and tapped her fingers on its surface. ‘I read your statement.’

He eased into a chair, holding the table with both hands. ‘I read yours.’

‘As for how I found you, you’re in the phone book. Your next-door neighbor told me you’re working on the Carolina Gail. “Getting your legs back underneath you,” she said.’

‘Bless her talkative self.’

She seemed to pay no attention to his caution with movement, or to the care he took to line up every step like a target. She wasn’t eyeing him like a specimen. But she was eyeing him. He didn’t know what to make of her yet.

Slow breaths. She was a fellow survivor, not a trigger. He smelled the whiff of smoke and burning plastic, but confronted it. It’s not real.

‘Why did you track me down?’ he said.

‘Because you told the investigators there was a third shooter at Xenon and that he got away. You told them exactly what I did. That this guy had a silver semiautomatic. He threw the Molotov cocktail and the magnesium flare. He fired the shot that hit Drew.’ She breathed. ‘You saw him. I read it. I read your statement a hundred times.’

‘I dictated that statement eleven months ago. Why are you here today?’

She pushed her drink aside. Her skin was pale and her features fine, but she wasn’t delicate – a frame of taut cabling seemingly ran beneath the soft white blouse. Her gaze seemed a thousand years old.

‘Today, Drew’s parents dedicated a memorial at Clearview Park. I saw him there.’

‘Him.’

‘The man who doesn’t exist.’

Flames reflected in a gas mask, hood pulled up like the Reaper. Aiden leaned forward. ‘Why do you think it was him?’

She laid her phone on the table and showed him a photo. He was staring at it, nearly hypnotized, when she opened an Altoids tin. Inside were three cigarette butts.

‘Found them where he’d been standing. Maybe they contain DNA,’ she said.

He set that idea aside for the moment. ‘This photo.’

‘The tattoo on his right hand.’

He looked up. ‘I didn’t see that tattoo.’

‘I know. You saw him from the back. I saw him from the front.’ She tapped the photo. ‘That’s him.’

‘And nobody will listen to you.’

‘I hope you will.’

‘I will. But it won’t do any good.’

‘Why not?’

‘Because I’m the guy nobody listens to anymore. Aiden Garrison, head case.’

M. G. Gardiner

THE BURNING MIND

PENGUIN BOOKS

Contents

THE BURNING MIND

THE BEGINNING

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