Black Swan, White Raven

Edited by Ellen Datlow and Terri Windling

For Alan Lee,

a connoisseur of fine fairy tales,

with gratitude for many years of friendship

and creative support.

—TERRI WINDLING

For Jack Heidenry,

who may not remember,

but got me started editing anthologies.

—ELLEN DATLOW

Contents

Introduction

Terri Windling and Ellen Datlow

The Flounder’s Kiss

Michael Cadnum

The Black Fairy’s Curse

Karen Joy Fowler

Snow in Dirt

Michael Blumlein

Riding the Red

Nalo Hopkinson

No Bigger Than My Thumb

Esther M. Friesner

In the Insomniac Night

Joyce Carol Oates

The Little Match Girl

Steve Rasnic Tem

The Trial of Hansel and Gretel

Garry Kilworth

Rapunzel

Anne Bishop

Sparks

Gregory Frost

The Dog Rose

Sten Westgard

The Reverend’s Wife

Midori Snyder

The Orphan the Moth and the Magic

Harvey Jacobs

Three Dwarves and 2000 Maniacs

Don Webb

True Thomas

Bruce Glassco

The True Story

Pat Murphy

Lost and Abandoned

John Crowley

The Breadcrumb Trail

Nina Kiriki Hoffman

On Lickerish Hill

Susanna Clarke

Steadfast

Nancy Kress

Godmother Death

Jane Yolen

Acknowledgments

A Biography of Ellen Datlow

A Biography of Terri Windling

Introduction

Terri Windling and Ellen Datlow

Many scholars over the last century have attempted to define why fairy tales and fantastical myths can be found in the oldest storytelling traditions of virtually every culture around the globe. Some scholars view magical tales as prescientific attempts to explain the workings of the universe; others see in them remnants of pagan religions or tribal initiation rites; still others dissect them for symbolic portrayals of feminist or class history. The most fascinating thing about fairy tales is that there is some truth in all these different views. There are many ways to interpret the old tales, whether as allegory or metaphor, as art or simple entertainment. No single deconstruction of a fairy tale is “correct,” no single version of a tale is the “true” one. The old tales exist in myriad forms, changing and adapting from culture to culture, from generation to generation. Like the wizards who roam through enchanted woods, the tales themselves are shape-shifters: elusive, mysterious, mutable, capable of wearing many different forms. This fact is at the core of their power, and is the source of their longevity. It is also what makes them such useful tools to the modern writer of fantasy fiction.

“A true fairy tale is, to my mind, very like the sonata,” said the nineteenth-century fantasy writer George McDonald. “If two or three men sat down to write each what the sonata meant to him, what approximation to definite idea would result? A fairy tale, a sonata, a gathering storm, a limitless night, each seizes you and sweeps you away.” A century later, J. R. R. Tolkien compared fairy tales to the bones from which a savory broth is extracted. Each storyteller dips his or her ladle into that bubbling cauldron of soup, and then uses it as the base of a dish individually spiced and flavored. The soup has been simmering for centuries—there are no cooks we can credit as the originators of the first fairy tales; there is no single version of each tale we can point to as “definitive.” At best, we can point to the authors of distinctive variations on old, common themes: Charles Perrault’s French “Cinderella” is the “ash girl” tale we know best today; Hans Christian Andersen’s Danish “Little Mermaid” is the best known of the “undine” legends; the Grimm Brothers’ chaste German rendition of “The Sleeping Beauty” is the one found in modern fairy-tale books (as opposed to much older versions in which the slumbering princess is impregnated by a passing prince, and does not awaken until the birth of her twins).

Each of these well-known fairy tales is based upon themes that are universal. The earliest known versions of “Cinderella,” for instance, date back to ancient China; one finds her in the Middle East, in Africa, and even here in North America (in such stories as “The Rough-Faced Girl” told by the Algonquin tribe). While the flavor of each tale might change according to the culture, the times, and the teller, the core of the tale remains the same—because at their core, these are stories that speak of the most basic elements of the human condition: fear, courage, greed, generosity, cruelty, compassion, failure, and triumph. As a result, their themes are as relevant today as they were back in centuries past.

The old tales of the oral tradition have been entwined with written literature since at least the sixteenth century, when Straparola published his magical, bawdy The Delectable Nights in Venice. The literary fairy-tale form includes Basile’s Italian Story of Stories, the conte de fée of the French court writers (D’Aulnoy, de Beaumont, Perrault et al.), works by Spenser and Shakespeare in England, and by the eighteenth-century German Romantics (Goethe, Hoffmann, Novalis). These were all works written and published for educated adult audiences—for it was not until Victorian times that fairy tales came to be considered stories specifically meant for children. Victorian editors, creating a new publishing market of books for younger readers, drew upon the magical tales of the past (a cheap source of story material) and changed them to suit their own ideas of what was proper for children’s ears, turning feisty heroes and heroines into models of Victorian behavior. These are the versions of the tales that are best-known in our own century; as a result, most people now think of fairy tales as simple children’s stories in which pretty, passive, feckless girls grow up to marry their rich Prince Charmings.

A look at the older fairy tales quickly disabuses us of this notion. Pre-Victorian tales were more ambiguous, more violent, more sensual or downright bawdy, and unflinching in their portrayal of the complexities of the human heart. “The Armless Maiden” is one such tale, of a girl brutally maimed by her own parents; “Donkeyskin” is another, with its frankly incestuous theme of a king determined to marry his own daughter despite her protestations and despair. Hansel and Gretel are abandoned in the woods; the son in “The Juniper Tree” is beheaded; Snow White’s lovely mother orders her child’s heart cut out, boiled, and served for dinner. In older versions of fairy tales, such acts were not foisted off on “wicked stepparents”; these were the acts of the parents themselves: of kings who are less than wise; and millers who are less than strong; of queens, housewives, and sisters slowly simmering with rage. In the universe of fairy tales, the Just often find a way to prevail, the Wicked generally receive their comeuppance. But a close look at the stories reveals much more than a simple formula of abuse and retribution. The trials our heroes encounter in their quests illustrate the process of transformation: from youth to adulthood, from victim to hero, from a maimed state into wholeness, from passivity to action. As centuries of artists have known, this gives fairy tales a particular power: not as a quaint escape from the harsh realities of modern life, but in their symbolic portrayal of all the dark and bright life has to offer.

In our century, fantasy writers (and modern poets) are the artists who speak this symbolic language best, using timeless themes and potent archetypes to comment on modern life. The late Angela Carter is a writer who has done this more thoroughly, more beautifully, than any other, particularly in the adult fairy-tale stories of her collection The Bloody Chamber. The poet Anne Sexton worked brilliantly with fairy-tale themes in her luminous collection Transformations. Margaret Atwood, A. S. Byatt, John Gardner, Marina Warner, and Sara Maitland are all writers who have used fairy-tale motifs for works published in the literary mainstream; while in the fantasy genre, Robin McKinley, Tanith Lee, Jonathan Carroll, Delia Sherman, Jane Yolen, and others have written works of adult fairy-tale literature as fine as any on the mainstream shelves.

Like the authors above, the writers in this volume have taken the themes of classic fairy tales and reworked them into stories of their own: stories that are both old and new, both bright as white ravens, dark as black swans. You’ll find new takes on the fairy tales most familiar to Western readers: “The Sleeping Beauty,” “Snow White,” “Rapunzel,” “Hansel and Gretel,” and “Little Red Riding Hood”—as well as intriguing new reworkings of “Tom Thumb,” “Thomas the Rhymer,” “The Tin Soldier,” “The Soldier and the Tinder Box,” and other tales. Why do so many of us continue to be enspelled by fairy tales? Why do we continue to tell the same old tales, over and over again? Because we all have encountered wicked wolves, faced trial by fire, found fairy godmothers. We have all set off into unknown woods at one point in life or another. Such stories have been told, retold, passed on from mouth to mouth for thousands of years. The stories that follow are part of a tradition that is as old as storytelling itself.

—Terri Windling

Devon and Tucson, 1996

—Ellen Datlow

New York City, 1996

The Flounder’s Kiss

My beautiful bride said if you spend all your time fishing the river, you catch nothing but monkfish and bream. You get water wens all over your feet. If you want money, she said, you go sea fishing.

So there I was, a river man all my life, marrying after I had nine gray hairs, pricing fisher’s small-craft at the weekly sale. Most of those belly-up clinker-builts belong to dead fishermen, their bodies feeding crabs, and everybody knows it. It keeps the prices down, but I decided to be a beach fisher, and I had some luck. You have to take the long view. You like whelks, you eat whelks. Shellfish don’t bother me. When I don’t catch anything, the tide all the way to the sunken merchantman in the mouth of Zeebruge harbor, I trudge back and start clamming. Eight, nine you have supper.

Yanni, my rose-cheeked wife, would say, “All day out there, and you come home with what?” That lovely mouth of hers, working nonstop.

“I have six fine cockles,” I would say. Or, if the tide had run well, two fine whiting. Or two soles, or John Dory, or a dozen pier mussels. Whatever it was, and they were always prime. I don’t want to eat anything diseased or deformed or that looks peculiar. The fact is some days I can’t bring myself to eat fish. It’s not just that fish flop around with their mouths open. They have slits they breathe through and eyes that look up like pennies, and there’s nothing you can do to tell a fish to lie still. You can use one of those mallets especially made for shutting fish up, head hammers, the dorymen around here call them in their usual jocular way, but about the only thing you can say to a fish is nothing.

Tourists love it. We put on these wooden mud-treaders, and you can hear them calling to their kids, “Look, how darling, wooden shoes.” And I, for one, always wave and smile. I know they can’t help it, so far from home and nothing to look at but a man going to work with about twenty ells of net on his back.

“You bother to catch one pilchard, Weebs, you might as well catch a hundred,” my wife would say. Always sewing, needle winking up and down. Skirts, blouses, collars, gloves. “I might as well be a herring gull you come back with such tiny little fish.”

“It takes a lot to maneuver the net with just two arms,” I would answer. “You need a strong back and a feel for the current.”

“You’ve got talent, Weebs,” she would respond. “A rare genius. You ought to win a prize for being able to work for less money than anyone who ever scraped mud.”

“You want me to catch flounder.”

“Eels,” Yanni would reply, squinting at her needle.

“Eels have two hearts,” I would say. “They crawl over land. They have conventions in the ocean, they have nests in the hills. An eel is too complicated to eat. I like pilchards. You can hold a fish like that in your hand.”

“Men,” my wife would say.

“There’s something about a herring that says I’m made for eating, it’s okay to eat me, I have an eye on each side of my head, and I am going to be eaten by something I never saw coming, it might as well be you.”

“Catch something worth the effort,” she would reply. Bored, having given up on me. But still talking about it, one of those people who can’t shut up. She would walk into a room making announcements saying she was cold, I would be late for high tide, why was it so dark, where was her darning.

It was a glorious day for watching clouds. I had caught nothing. The sea was filthy, a gale out of the northwest. All the horsefishers were in their stables. The sailorfishers were sipping juniper spirits by their fires, and there was only I myself, on the broad flat beach. I didn’t want to come home wet with rain and wet with brine, blue and nothing to show for it but a pocketful of limpets.

You cast your net and it looks pretty, black lace spreading out. When it drifts down over the water there is a splash where the netting settles, and the sound of it is what satisfies. Casting the net, you feel the waves calm under the span you mended, and sometimes I could do it well into the dark, regardless whether or not I caught a fingerling.

I was almost ready to quit for the night. One more cast, I told myself. Just one more. It’s a serene sight, the net sweeping up, hanging over the waver, lifting with the wind. The net drifted onto the sea. And it happened. The net tugged, tightened. And there it was as I hauled in the net, the famous fish, the size of a Michaelmas tureen, fat and silver.

I have a great aversion to flounders. I can’t stand to take them by the tail, much less slit one open. They have their eyes close together on one side of their head, and they swim around blind on one side, looking up at the sky with the other. I want something simple to eat, not a living curiosity.

I realized, however, that it was worth a guilder or two, a fish like this, an armload, and while I am not the most gifted fisherman alive, I am no fool. I pulled the one-sided creature out as it flopped in the net. I dragged it onto the beach and untangled the net, and then I heard something. I looked up, looked around, my head tilting this way and that. The wind was whistling, and I was not sure what I heard.

Maybe it was a tourist talking, one of the day-trip spinsters out of Southampton; they ferry across and flirt at a distance. They say things like “what a wonderful fish you have just caught,” in German, as though I would ever speak a syllable of the language. The tourists are the equivalent of herring themselves, the poor dears. It would be just like one to be chattering in a rising wind in the dusk in the middle of nowhere. Not just talking, arguing, jabbering to make a point.

I stooped to gather in enough fish to buy a silver thimble and a bolt of silk when I realized that the muttering was close to my ear. I dropped the flounder. It smacked the sand and made that shrugging flopping I hate in fish—why can’t they just fall asleep and die? The fish said clearly, but in a small voice, “Wish. Go ahead wish. Just wish. Any wish. Don’t wait—wish.”

I seized my gutting knife and just about used it, out of horror. But instead I asked it a question. My brother shovels waffles into the oven on a paddle and has a cellar of cheese. My sister married a brewer, and has beer and fat children. My father took tolls on a bridge with carved seraphim and saints, burghers and fair ladies and military men calling him by name, wishing him well.

And I was talking to a fish.

And the fish was talking back. “Any wish. Then let me go.”

It was persistent, this idiot babble. So I made a wish. I asked for a bucket full of herring, pink-gilled, enough for tonight and a few left over for the market.

By candlelight Yanni picked a spinebone from her mouth and said, her eyebrows up, not wanting to admit it, “That was most delicious, Weebs. Most tasty little fish I have ever supped upon.”

“There’s a story behind that fish,” I said.

She gave me one of her bedroom glances, dabbed her pretty lips.

“But never mind,” I said.

“Tell me,” she said.

I pushed my plate away, put my elbows on my table, and took a sip of beer, dark brew, tart, almost like vinegar. I smiled. I said, “You won’t believe it.”

Not a quarter of an hour later I was wading into the surf. “Fish!” I called. “Big fish! Flounder!”

It was raining hard. Despite what you might have heard, there was no poem, no song. There was a lump on my head, and one eye was swelling shut. I bellowed into the wind, now straight out of the north. “One more boon,” I asked.

Waves broke over me, drowning the sound of my voice. There were no fish. The fish were vanished from the sea. I stood drenched, about to turn away, when the fish was there at my side, its eyes two peas side by side.

“One more!” I said. I was standing in a storm talking to a fish, and before shame or common sense could silence me I repeated Yanni’s desire.

I hurried back, running along the dike. Cows with their big, white foreheads stared at me from within their mangers, and when I half collapsed in my cottage she seized me by jerkin and turned me around. “Look!”

The kettle had unbent its hook, fallen into the fire, solid gold and impossible to drag out of the embers. “It’s going to melt!” she cried.

“You wanted it turned to gold,” I said.

“Go back and get this made into money.”

I panted, dripping, catching my breath. “Money?”

“Coins! Sovereigns, ducats, dollars. We can’t do anything with this.”

“It’s beautiful!”

“And then ask for brains, Weebs. For you. For inside your head.”

“You should try to be more patient, dear Yanni,” I said. I think it was the only time I had ever offered her such advice.

She put her hands on her hips. In her apron and her cap she told me what she thought of me. All this time I had thought her pensive, moody, emotional. But I thought she loved me.

I took my time. The wind was warm, out of the west now, and there were a few stars. When I was a boy I would want to stand outside in the wind and feel my sweater and my sleeves billow and flow, flying. Both feet on the ground, but flying in my heart.

“Fish! Magic flounder!”

It must have known. Once it began to trade in human desire it was finished. No net is worse. It nosed upward, out of the waves. Why it even listened I cannot guess. I thrust my hand into a gill, seized a fin, and hauled the creature with all my strength. I dragged it up where the sand was dry, black reeds, gulls stirring, croaking.

The fish was talking nonstop. I tugged my knife free of the belt and cut the flounder, gills to tail, and emptied him out on the sand.

There has been some question about my wife. Some say the fish renounced the boons, took it all back, and sent us into poverty. Some say my wife left me, taking the golden kettle with her, swinging it by one fist, strong as she was famous to be.

Proof against this is the kettle I still possess, heavy as an anvil, chipped at slowly over the years, shavings of pure gold to buy feather quilts and heifers. And this is not the only precious metal in my house. A golden pendant the shape of a woman’s mouth dangles ever at my breast.

A parting gift? some ask.

Or a replacement for her, suggests the even-smarter guest with a chuckle, enjoying my roast goose.

Fish do not die quickly. They take their time. And even a magic fish is slow to understand. Give me silence, I wished, crouching over him, knife in hand. Silence, and the power to bring her back someday, should it please me, one kiss upon her golden lips.

The Flounder’s Kiss

MICHAEL CADNUM

Michael Cadnum lives in northern California and is a poet and novelist. He is the author of eleven novels including St. Peter’s Wolf, Ghostwright, Calling Home, Skyscape, The Judas Glass, Zero at the Bone, and an illustrated book based on Cinderella called Ella and the Canary Prince (Cobblestone Press). He has also published several collections of poetry, most recently The Cities We Will Never See.

“The Flounder’s Kiss” is based on the Grimm fairy tale “The Fisherman and His Wife.” Cadnum’s version follows the traditional tale of greed but transforms it into something more cheeky and simultaneously more sinister than the original.

The Black Fairy’s Curse

She was being chased. She kicked off her shoes, which were slowing her down. At the same time her heavy skirts vanished and she found herself in her usual work clothes. Relieved of the weight and constriction, she was able to run faster. She looked back. She was much faster than he was. Her heart was strong. Her strides were long and easy. He was never going to catch her now.

She was riding the huntsman’s horse and she couldn’t remember why. It was an autumn red with a tangled mane. She was riding fast. A deer leapt in the meadow ahead of her. She saw the white blink of its tail.

She’d never ridden well, never had the insane fearlessness it took, but now she was able to enjoy the easiness of the horse’s motion. She encouraged it to run faster.

It was night. The countryside was softened with patches of moonlight. She could go anywhere she liked, ride to the end of the world and back again. What she would find there was a castle with a toothed tower. Around the castle was a girdle of trees, too narrow to be called a forest, and yet so thick they admitted no light at all. She knew this. Even farther away were the stars. She looked up and saw three of them fall, one right after the other. She made a wish to ride until she reached them.

She herself was in farmland. She crossed a field and jumped a low, stone fence. She avoided the cottages, homey though they seemed, with smoke rising from the roofs, and a glow the color of butter pats at the windows. The horse ran and did not seem to tire.

She wore a cloak which, when she wrapped it tightly around her, rode up and left her legs bare. Her feet were cold. She turned around to look. No one was coming after her.

She reached a river. Its edges were green with algae and furry with silt. Toward the middle she could see the darkness of deep water. The horse made its own decisions. It ran along the shallow edge, but didn’t cross. Many yards later it ducked back away from the water and into a grove of trees. She lay along its neck and the silver-backed leaves of aspens brushed over her hair.

She climbed into one of the trees. She regretted every tree she had never climbed. The only hard part was the first branch. After that it was easy, or else she was stronger than she’d ever been. Stronger than she needed to be. This excess of strength gave her a moment of joy as pure as any she could remember. The climbing seemed quite as natural as stair steps, and she went as high as she could, standing finally on a limb so thin it dipped under her weight, like a boat. She retreated downward, sat with her back against the trunk and one leg dangling. No one would ever think to look for her here.

Her hair had come loose and she let it all down. It was warm on her shoulders. “Mother,” she said, softly enough to blend with the wind in the leaves. “Help me.”

She meant her real mother. Her real mother was not there, had not been there since she was a little girl. It didn’t mean there would be no help.

Above her were the stars. Below her, looking up, was a man. He was no one to be afraid of. Her dangling foot was bare. She did not cover it. Maybe she didn’t need help. That would be the biggest help of all.

“Did you want me?” he said. She might have known him from somewhere. They might have been children together. “Or did you want me to go away?”

“Go away. Find your own tree.”

They went swimming together, and she swam better than he did. She watched his arms, his shoulders rising darkly from the green water. He turned and saw that she was watching. “Do you know my name?” he asked her.

“Yes,” she said, although she couldn’t remember it. She knew she was supposed to know it, although she could also see that he didn’t expect her to. But she did feel that she knew who he was—his name was such a small part of that. “Does it start with a W?” she asked.

The sun was out. The surface of the water was a rough gold.

“What will you give me if I guess it?”

“What do you want?”

She looked past him. On the bank was a group of smiling women, her grandmother, her mother, and her stepmother, too, her sisters and stepsisters, all of them smiling at her. They waved. No one said, “Put your clothes on.” No one said, “Don’t go in too deep now, dear.” She was a good swimmer, and there was no reason to be afraid. She couldn’t think of a single thing she wanted. She flipped away, breaking the skin of the water with her legs.

She surfaced in a place where the lake held still to mirror the sky. When it settled, she looked down into it. She expected to see that she was beautiful, but she was not. A mirror only answers one question, and it can’t lie. She had completely lost her looks. She wondered what she had gotten in return.

There was a mirror in the bedroom. It was dusty, so her reflection was vague. But she was not beautiful. She wasn’t upset about this, and she noticed the fact, a little wonderingly. It didn’t matter at all to her. Most people were taken in by appearances, but others weren’t. She was healthy; she was strong. If she could manage to be kind and patient and witty and brave, then there would be men who loved her for it. There would be men who found it exciting.

He lay among the blankets, looking up at her. “Your eyes,” he said. “Your incredible eyes.”

His own face was in shadow, but there was no reason to be afraid. She removed her dress. It was red. She laid it over the back of a chair. “Move over.”

She had never been in bed with this man before, but she wanted to be. It was late, and no one knew where she was. In fact, her mother had told her explicitly not to come here, but there was no reason to be afraid. “I’ll tell you what to do,” she said. “You must use your hand and your mouth. The other—it doesn’t work for me. And I want to be first. You’ll have to wait.”

“I’ll love waiting,” he said. He covered her breast with his mouth, his hand moved between her legs. He knew how to touch her already. He kissed her other breast.

“Like that,” she said. “Just like that.” Her body began to tighten in anticipation.

He kissed her mouth. He kissed her mouth.

He kissed her mouth. It was not a hard kiss, but it opened her eyes. This was not the right face. She had never seen this man before, and the look he gave her—she wasn’t sure she liked it. Why was he kissing her, when she was asleep and had never seen him before? What was he doing in her bedroom? She was so frightened, she stopped breathing for a moment. She closed her eyes and wished him away.

He was still there. And there was pain. Her finger dripped with blood, and when she tried to sit up, she was weak and encumbered by a heavy dress, a heavy coil of her own hair, a corset, tight and pointed shoes.

“Oh,” she said. “Oh.” She was about to cry, and she didn’t know this man to cry before him. Her tone was accusing. She pushed him and his face showed the surprise of this. He allowed himself to be pushed. If he hadn’t, she was not strong enough to force it.

He was probably a very nice man. He was giving her a concerned look. She could see that he was tired. His clothes were ripped; his own hands were scratched. He had just done something hard, maybe dangerous. So maybe that was why he hadn’t stopped to think how it might frighten her to wake up with a stranger kissing her as she lay on her back. Maybe that was why he hadn’t noticed how her finger was bleeding. Because he hadn’t, no matter how much she came to love him, there would always be a part of her afraid of him.

“I was having the most lovely dream,” she said. She was careful not to make her tone as angry as she felt.

The Black Fairy’s Curse

KAREN JOY FOWLER

Karen Joy Fowler was born in Bloomington, Indiana, and currently lives in Davis, California, with her husband and two children. Her first book, Artificial Things, was a collection of short stories. Her second, is the remarkable novel Sarah Canary. Her second novel, The Sweetheart Season, has recently been published. According to Fowler, it’s packed with useful housekeeping tips and those alone will be worth the cover price.

The story of Sleeping Beauty is one of the most popular fairy tales and it has inspired numerous variations. “The Black Fairy’s Curse” is a brief, startling tale, the first of two new reinterpretations.

Snow in Dirt

ONCE A LIFETIME

It can happen. Once a lifetime it should. I found the girl of my dreams in the garden. She was covered by dirt. I was digging a hole. Four feet down, three wide, a ditch for a foundation to prop up the falling shack at the back of the lot. Pine trees overhead. Bluest of skies. My oxlike shoulders, sweat running down my spine. She was hidden in soil, tucked between roots, still as a statue, beautiful. The shack, a ten-by-twenty-foot post-and-beam redwood cabin, had been built after the Great Earthquake, and in its time had been refugee shelter, wood shop, storage shed, chicken coop, teenage retreat, and hole-up for a drunk who beat his wife, then cried all night in remorse. It had been falling over ever since I took the time to notice, pushed down by the hill behind it, by clay, sand, and radiolarian chert. After watching passively for years, I finally decided to do something. I chased out the raccoons. I baited the mice. Took two weeks off work, cleared the calendar, jacked up the downhill side, cut a path through the fence to the back. I was thinking of making a career move. I was in between women. Hearing a mockingbird, catching my breath, smelling the pine sap.

Very carefully, I dug her out.

THE WHEELBARROW

was newly painted, glossy and red as lipstick. I lifted her over the front lip. She slid into the bed like satin. Her eyes were closed. She wore a sort of bodysuit the color of dead leaves. I picked a worm out of her hair. She had the face of a young woman. My neighbor appeared on his back porch, and I covered her with a tarpaulin.

“Gardening?” he asked.

“A little.”

“Looking good.” He meant me, not the garden. He was drunk, and when he was drunk, he flirted.

“Thanks. Yours looks good too. I like your roses.”

“Come on over. I’ll give you one.”

I begged off.

He leered at me. “Come on. I’ll make sure to cut the thorns.”

It had been like this since his lover had died three years before. He never talked about it, just drank and watched sports on TV.

I beat it into the basement, parked the wheelbarrow, got the girl out and onto a sofa inside. Her hair was long and dark. Her skin was pale. I called my brother Frank.

“Yo,” his machine said. “Talk to me.”

I left a message, then washed up and hurried out. Mom was waiting at the entrance of the nursing home when I arrived, freshly bathed and made-up. Her attendant was putting the finishing touches on her hair.

“Sorry I’m late,” I said.

Mom smiled. “Hello, Frank.”

“Martin,” I corrected, pecking her on the cheek. “So what’s your pleasure? You want to walk, drive, what?”

“The pie is very good,” she said.

“You had pie?”

She smiled again but didn’t answer. The attendant had tied a pink bow in her hair, something my mother would never have done. It made her look girlish and even more helpless than she was.

I took her arm. “I think we’ll drive.”

I took her to the beach, then backtracked through the park and up Twin Peaks, which was socked in by fog. We couldn’t see a thing. My mother called it soup. She loved it.

Afterward, I drove her to my place. The woman was where I had left her. My mother frowned when she saw her, then glanced uncertainly at me.

“I found her in the garden,” I said. “Just a few hours ago.”

She strained to understand, looked at the girl, then back at me. Suddenly, her face broke into a smile.

“Marry?”

“No no no.” I laughed. “We just met.”

She smacked her lips. “Kissy kissy. Pussy pussy. Thing comes out.”

“Thank you, Mother. I’ll keep that in mind.”

“Thing,” she repeated, gesturing with her hands, struggling for the word. She became frustrated and started to pace, back and forth in forced little steps. This was always a bad sign.

“It’s okay,” I told her. “I get it. Thing. I understand.” A lie of course, and it didn’t work. On the contrary. My mother halted in mid-stride, pointed an accusatory finger, erupted.

“Bad girl. Bad bad bad.” She wheeled on me. “You.”

I supplied my name. She frowned. Now she looked lost. Now she started to cry. I sighed, fighting back my own tears, and steered her out of the room. We had a cup of tea. I took the bow out of her hair and told her I loved her. Then I drove her home.

Frank came over around nine. He was all dressed up, and I asked where he’d been.

“With the Grizzly,” he said, with a swagger. This was his newest flame, so named by him for her size and the ferocity of her embrace. “She has a friend, Marty. Someone you should meet.”

He was always trying to set me up. For the thousandth time, I told him I was a one-woman man.

“Yeah?” He pretended to search the room. “There someone I don’t know about?”

I took him downstairs. The girl was lying where I left her. Her eyelids were translucent and shaded ever so lightly blue. She had started to breathe.

“Well goddamn. My baby brother.” He punched my arm. “What’s that brown stuff she’s got on?”

“I don’t know. Some kind of protective coat or something.”

“Looks like old newspaper.” He sniffed at it. “Smells like dirt.”

“No shit, Sherlock. I found her in dirt.”

“What does that mean?”

I explained.

“Jesus,” he said. “So what are you going to do with her?”

“I don’t know. I’m taking suggestions.”

He thought a minute. “We could ask Shirley.”

Shirley was his other girl, his steady, ever tolerant (a requisite with Frank) and loaded with good sense.

“On the other hand,” he said, “we could keep the lid on a few days. See what develops. Who knows? The lady wakes up, maybe she’s as nice as she looks. Maybe the two of you get it on a little. Pardon me for saying, but you could use the action.”

“Your suggestion being?”

“I’m just thinking of something a guy said to me today in the shop. We were making small talk, and I asked him how he was doing. He gave me a funny look and said, you know what the answer is to that, don’t you? And I said, no, what’s the answer? And he said, it’s how many toys you got when you die. They can have wheels, buttons, skirts … it doesn’t matter. Just how many you got on the day you croak.”

“You liked that, did you?”

“The guy’s an asshole, but yeah. I did. How many toys. I can think of worse ways to measure.”

“You got toys, Frank?”

“You know I do.” He winked at me, pulled out his wallet and handed me a foil-covered package nestled between two bills. “Safety first, Marty boy. You find her in the dirt, who knows? Maybe she’s dirty.”

So that was Frank’s advice. After he left, I called my sister Carol to complete the family poll. She was on her way to bed, a ritual to be disturbed only on pain of death. She promised to stop by in the morning, which she did, arriving on the dot at seven, dressed for work in a snappy, tailored suit. She took one look at the girl and pulled a phone out of her purse, which she pushed at me.

“Call 911, you jerk.”

To my credit, the thought had occurred to me, but the truth was I didn’t want to. No doubt this is why I’d called Frank first.

“She’s breathing,” I said defensively. “How bad can it be?”

“She’s breathing. Terrific. Jesus, Marty.”

I decided not to mention that she hadn’t been breathing before.

“Does she have a pulse?”

“Sure she has a pulse,” I said, thinking I don’t even know if she has a heart. “She’s sleeping.”

“Have you tried to wake her up?”

“Carol. Please. I would never wake a sleeping lady. You yourself taught me that.”

“Get off it, Martin.” She took the girl’s wrist and felt for a pulse, then slapped the back of her hand a few times. She spoke in a loud voice. She slapped her cheek.

“Get her to a doctor, Marty. If you aren’t willing to call an ambulance, then take her yourself.”

I suppose, at heart, this is what I wanted to hear. Sheepishly, I asked Carol to come with me.

“Can’t. Got a meeting at eight.” She checked her watch, pecked me on the cheek, and hurried out the basement door. A minute later she was back. Irritated but stalwart. My sister. Loyal to the core.

“Let’s do it,” she said.

“You’re the best, Carol, but go on. I can handle it.”

“You sure?”

I nodded. “I got the whole family behind me. Check it out: you say I should get help, Mom says I should marry her, Frank says I should fuck her. I can’t lose. Anything I do is bound to be right.”

THE PROBLEM OF CONCEALMENT

I solved with a blanket, wrapping her loosely, then sliding her in the back of my pickup and securing her with some bungee cords. At the hospital I swiped a gurney without being seen, hoisted her on top, unwrapped her, and wheeled her inside. Because she had no ID and no insurance, they didn’t want to take her. I said I’d vouch for her: they looked at me with dried-up pity and shook their heads. I said she was homeless. They rolled their eyes. Was she a city resident? they asked. A native, I replied. Tenth generation (it was a wild guess). Deeply rooted in our illustrious past. They looked at me suspiciously. They looked at her. At length they sighed. Cash or credit? they asked.

We spent a total of six hours in the emergency room, complicated by the fact they couldn’t get that brownish covering of hers off. Someone suggested it might be part of her skin, which prompted a call to the dermatologist, who came and discoursed at length on epidermal proliferation, psoriasis, ichthyosis, and generalized melasma, none of which, in his opinion, this was. Blood was taken from a vein in her foot, and all the tests came back normal. A chest x-ray and electrocardiogram showed nothing out of the ordinary. A scan of her brain showed brain. Because they could not find an opening in her bodysuit, they could not get urine, but some of her hair was sent to be screened for heavy metal poisoning. They tested everything they could, and then they called a neurologist.

His name was Dr. Aymen. He had salt-and-pepper hair parted on the side, a deeply tanned face, a prominent jaw. He wore a blue bow tie, and his knee-length lab coat was stiffly starched. His manner, by contrast, was smooth as butter. The other doctors treated him with deference, clumping around the gurney and observing in silence as he poked and prodded the patient. When he was done, he took a half-step back, slid his hands deep in the pockets of his lab coat, and struck a professorial pose.

“Thoughts?” he said.

There was a flurry of them. Encephalopathy, involutional melancholy, prolonged atonic epilepsy, drug overdose: I jotted down what I could, but I missed more than I got. All at once, Dr. Aymen seemed to notice me. He introduced himself, absorbed my name, then politely asked me to leave.

“I’ll stay out of the way,” I promised.

“Our suppositions are far-flung,” he explained. “And strictly conjectural. They are easy to misinterpret. It would be a grave disservice to you if your hopes were falsely raised, or, worse, prematurely dashed. So please. Allow me a few moments alone with my colleagues.”

He seemed a nice enough fellow, earnest if somewhat pompous, but I had no intention of leaving. Again, I promised not to interfere.

He regarded me sternly, then inclined his head. “As you wish.”

Turning his back to me, he swept out of the room, followed immediately by his retinue of admirers. Twenty minutes later he returned.

“Speculation is inherent in medicine,” he told me. “The possibilities of cause are, in every case, protean. This is both challenge and thrill for the diagnostician, but to others the process often makes us seem cold, if not downright callous. Please accept my apologies if such was the case. We are human beings like any other.”

I thanked him. “So what does she have? Do you know?”

“Possibly.” He glanced at her, then fixed his attention on me. “Are you sure you’ve left nothing out?”

The implication was clear, and simply by asking, he made it a fact that I had. I thought back. The dirt? The worm in her hair? Family advice?

“No,” I said. “Nothing.”

He waited, giving me time to reconsider. I didn’t need time.

“What’s going on, Doctor?”

“THE THEORY,”

he said, “is hard to explain. Suffice it to say, there’s definitely a literature on this. It seems that intact bodies are turning up all the time. There’s actually a registry somewhere. I suggest we send a specimen of the patient’s DNA for fingerprinting. Perhaps there’s someone on file who’s been lost. Or who’s missing. Perhaps in this way we could identify her.”

“Okay. Sure. But what does she have?”

He gave me a patronizing look. “What you really want to know is, what can be done.”

“I want to know if you’ve ever seen anything like this.”

“Certainly,” he said.

“Someone buried in dirt?”

“Young man. In forty years I’ve seen diseases and afflictions beyond your wildest dreams. The range of human pathology, not to mention survivability, is nothing short of miraculous. Our ability to down-regulate vital functions, to enter at need into vegetative states, prolonged metaphases if you will …”

His soliloquy, which I barely understood, was interrupted by one of the other doctors, who handed him some papers held together by a clip.

“Yes,” he said. “Good. Just as I recalled.” He perused the papers, mumbling to himself, nodding. “You made copies for the others?”

“Yes,” said the doctor.

“Excellent.” Dr. Aymen addressed me. “This is an article …” He halted a moment, then resumed with an air of gravity and subtle condescension. “A scientific article comparing the efficacy of three regimens for the revival of found bodies. Cohort study, two-year follow-up, morbidity, mortality, proposed mechanisms … all of it. You see, young man, we are not living in the Dark Ages. We are not charlatans, nor do we operate by sleight of hand. No, no.” He wagged a finger. “We adhere to science. The language we speak is strictly the language of reproducible results.”

So saying, he pulled a pad from his pocket and scribbled out a prescription. “Two in the morning, two at bedtime. In a week increase it to three.”

“What is it?”

He said a name so rapidly I didn’t get it, handed me his business card with instructions to call for a follow-up appointment, and started out of the room. This put me in something of a panic.

“When’s bedtime?” I asked. “She hasn’t woken up yet.”

He dismissed this with a flip of his hand. “Bedtime, nighttime, it doesn’t matter. Just get it in her. The young lady should perk right up.”

As it turned out, she didn’t. On the other hand, she didn’t get any worse. Carol was satisfied a doctor was involved. Frank suggested I try something more direct, more, as he put it, “physically stimulating.” My mother, bless her heart, had forgotten everything.

THE KISS

was something I considered for days. It seemed the obvious thing to do, called for in some intuitive way, but in the end I decided against it, feeling at once virtuous, sexually repressed, and utterly confused. It was a vexing situation, so much so that this is what I began calling her. The closest I came to her lips was spreading them apart with my thumb and finger to pour the pills, which I dissolved in water, down her throat. I returned to the ditch, digging out and piling up dirt. When I got deep enough, I built the forms for the foundation, laid the rebar, and poured the concrete. By then it was three weeks since our visit to the hospital. Vexing slept on. I started on the framing. Her hair was black as coal. Foot plates, joists, studs. Eyelids like butterflies. Headers, rafters. Skin, clothed in parchment, like milk.

“OUR ARMAMENTARIUM

is vast,” said Dr. Aymen, with the sweep of an arm that seemed to take in as potential allies not just the books and equipment that were in his own office but all information and knowledge that lay beyond as well. “If one pill doesn’t work, we try another. It’s what’s called an empirical approach.”

I heard only two words in that. Armamentarium, which brought to mind epic battles on dusty, medieval plains, and empirical, which made me think this guy doesn’t have a clue. It was time to stand up for Vexing, who remained incapable of standing up for herself.

“What’s this new drug?” I asked.

There was an edge to my voice, and he shot me a glance. Then he leaned back in his chair and bridged his fingers. He appeared to be thinking. Maybe he was. At length he mumbled something to himself and unclipped his pen. Barely looking down, he scribbled out a prescription.

“Start with two at night, go to three if no change in a week, four if no change in two. After that it’s up to you. You can split the dose, give two in the morning and three at night, or you can reverse that, give three in the AM and two in the PM, but under no circumstance must you increase more than twenty milligrams in any four-day period, unless you are prepared to watch assiduously for side effects, which of course you should do anyway. And call me.”

“Call you?”

“If there’s a problem.”

I was reeling with his instructions. “What side effects?”

“The usual. Nausea, GI upset, headache, dizziness, twitchy muscles, sudden death.” He let that sink in, then dismissed it with a bizarre smile. “Just kidding. But not really. I mention it only to assure you that it’s very rare.”

“What’s the name of this drug?”

“Three, 5 dihydroxy, gamma-endoperoxide PGD. It goes by the trade name Resusinol.”

“I’ve never heard of it.”

“Are you a doctor, sir? A pharmacist, perhaps?”

“I work in a drugstore.”

“Indeed.”

I didn’t tell him that the counter I worked was at the opposite end of the store from the pharmacy. I was angry.

“Do you have experience with it, Doctor? Have you used it before?”

“It’s an excellent choice,” he said. “I have no doubt it will be equal to the task.”

“That’s what you said about the first one.”

He suffered me a look, then took a moment to compose himself.

“I realize your impatience, but understand. All things take time. This is Nature’s decree, not ours. There are many conditions whose duration we can predict with great accuracy. Coma, unfortunately, is not one of them. An encephalopathic child may sleep for a day or a week. He may sleep for a year. Your young lady will awaken when she is ready. No sooner. No later.” He paused, then added, “With or without drugs, I suspect.”

“Then why give any?”

He smiled and stood up, indicating the end of the visit. “Because it’s our nature to try. Because you, like us, like everyone, want to be able to fix what’s hurt. Because sadly, we’re too old for Band-Aids.”

A week passed, then another. The cabin took shape, and the smell of fresh wood banished the smell of rot. I framed in a window facing east and one on the opposite side facing west. I had views of English ivy, pine trees, my neighbors’ houses, my neighbors. From the roof I could see the bay. I roughed in the front door the third week of June. That Saturday, Midsummer’s Day, Vexing woke up.

She stretched. She yawned. A moment later she sat up.

“I feel wonderful,” she said. “I love naps.”