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SARIS and a SINGLE MALT

Sweta Srivastava Vikram

From the World Voices Series

Modern History Press

Ann Arbor • London • Sydney

Saris and a Single Malt.

Copyright © 2016 by Sweta Srivastava Vikram.

All Rights Reserved.

ISBN 978-1-61599-294-2 paperback

ISBN 978-1-61599-295-9 eBook

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Library of Congress Cataloging-in-Publication Data

Names: Vikram, Sweta Srivastava, 1975- author.

Title: Saris and a single malt / Sweta Srivastava Vikram.

Description: Ann Arbor, MI : Modern History Press, [2016] | Series: World voices series

Identifiers: LCCN 2016011526| ISBN 9781615992942 (softcover : acid-free paper) | ISBN 9781615992959 (epub, PDF, Kindle)

Subjects: LCSH: Mothers--Death--Poetry.

Classification: LCC PS3622.I493 A6 2016 | DDC 818/.6--dc23

LC record available at https://lccn.loc.gov/2016011526

For Mummy—wherever you are, I am sure the place has good whisky and a beautiful collection of saris.

“The reality is that you will grieve forever. You will not ‘get over’ the loss of a loved one; you will learn to live with it. You will heal and you will rebuild yourself around the loss you have suffered. You will be whole again but you will never be the same. Nor should you be the same nor would you want to.”

~ Elisabeth Kübler-Ross

Contents

Foreword

Acknowledgments

FLIGHT

Friday, May 30, 2014

Destination

JFK: Terminal 4 Airport Lounge

Wait for Me

Looking for Signs

Fifty Minutes from New Delhi

Serendipity

Indira Gandhi International Airport: New Delhi

FIRE

May 31, 2014

Why Didn’t You Wait for Me?

Crashing

It’s Not Easy

Noise

Conversations with Mumma

SARIS and a SINGLE MALT

Ode to Mumma

GRIEF

June 1, 2014

Does Grief Wear a Color?

I Write

Forever Courage, Beta

Namaste

Time Changes Us

The Final Note

Afterword

About the Author

Foreword

There are few books like Saris and a Single Malt in which the loss of a mother, a homeland, and the self come together in a sustained elegy. Traveling the arc of grief, Sweta Vikram’s collection begins with tragic news and continues from there, in real time, as she brings us along on her journey to India to her mother's cremation. Many poems about loss are written after an endured silence, when words just won't come, but in Saris and a Single Malt, Vikram sits us next to her on the long flight ‘home,’ and we hear her cry. We are with her as she is breaking. And we break. It is a privileged and painful journey. Raw and powerful.

Saris and a Single Malt

—Justen Ahren, Director Noepe Center,

Author of A Strange Catechism