Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5
Chapter 6
Chapter 7
Chapter 8
Chapter 9
Chapter 10
Chapter 11
Chapter 12
Chapter 13
Chapter 14
Chapter 15
Chapter 16
Chapter 17
Chapter 18
Chapter 19
Chapter 20
Chapter 21
Chapter 22
Chapter 23
Chapter 24
Chapter 25
Chapter 26
Chapter 27
Chapter 28
Glossary
Preview: Night Work
Acknowledgments
About the Author
This book is dedicated to Allison, Audra, and Michele.
“The people that walked in darkness have seen a great light: they that dwell in the land of the shadow of death, upon them hath the light shined.”
ISAIAH 9:2
IT HAD BEEN PELTING rain most of the day, but in the break between squalls, the sound of the rain was replaced by the noise of excited insects, which filled the heavy air, blending into a high-pitched shriek. Though the commotion was aggravating, both types of noise covered the movement of the six American soldiers who threaded expertly through the trees in single file. They were thankful to have the overcast and the noise to cover their movement.
In the trees the visibility was so poor that even twenty feet apart each patrol member could feel the man in front far better than he could see him. Still, the patrol made good progress until the third man momentarily lost sight of the man in front of him. Unrattled by the break, he quickly crouched down to silhouette the lost soldier’s outline against the only slightly lighter horizon.
Finding the man in front of him, Jim Hollister, a young Infantry first lieutenant, stepped up and tapped three-stripe Sergeant Camacho on the shoulder.
Camacho, in turn, quickened his pace to catch up with Davis, who was walking point. Davis calmly froze and then settled silently into a squat without turning around. He kept his eyes on the black void in front of him and waited for some word to be passed up.
Once Davis had stopped, each man behind him did the same, falling to one knee and facing outward in a ready firing position.
Hollister moved past Camacho, knelt near Davis and whispered in his ear. Before beginning, he exhaled most of his breath to avoid the hissing sounds of whispering that carry great distances in the damp night air. “Goin’ forward to check the ambush site. Hold what you got.”
Staff Sergeant Davis, the assistant patrol leader, nodded and looked back to get a feel for where the others were.
“If I’m not here in one five,” Hollister said, “hustle back to the last rally point—that burned-out mahogany tree about three hundred meters back. You hear somebody bust caps while I’m out on this rekkie—head straight back to the RP. Don’t be a hero. If I make it, I’ll find you.”
Davis nodded again and replied, “Okay, boss.” He watched Hollister as long as his outline was visible and then turned to scan his wedge of the hasty defensive perimeter the team had formed. Satisfied, Davis crawled back to Camacho to pass the word to the others.
Hollister weaved through the brush, his movements silent, slow and fluid, first finding solid footing with his toe, then letting his foot settle while holding his weapon at the ready—high and across his chest. He kept his eyes moving—searching the terrain to the limits of his vision for anything that might be trouble.
Abruptly, the vegetation in front of him ended at the lip of a large bomb crater half filled with brackish rainwater. Before stepping into the clearing, Hollister stopped and dropped to his knee.
For several long seconds he waited and listened. Finally, confident that he could move on safely, Hollister got to his feet and skirted the bomb crater, hugging the tree line to keep from pasting his outline against the skyline.
The Viet Cong platoon leader carried a Tokarev 9mm pistol on his belt. Other members of the nineteen-man platoon carried AK-47 automatic rifles—all except the four who had American M-16s, an RPD machine gunner, and one armed with a B-40 rocket launcher.
Noticing that his men were beginning to tire, the platoon leader poked at some and whispered to others; reminding them to stay alert—American or South Korean patrols could be anywhere in the area.
Detecting motion up in front of him, Davis thumbed his selector lever, ready to drop his rifle off of safe two notches to full automatic. Soon the image took shape—Hollister had returned.
Davis reached back and alerted Camacho, who, in turn, threw a small stick, hitting Specialist 4 Vinson. Eventually the word got back to the last man. The lieutenant was back and they could expect to move out quickly.
Hollister motioned toward the objective. He huddled with Davis and Camacho, then half whispered and half gestured, indicating that he had been to the ambush site and that it was what they expected.
Taking the point, Hollister cautiously moved the patrol forward across the same ground he had just checked out. The order of march was Hollister, Davis, Vinson, Doc Norris, Camacho, and PFC Theodore—the tail gunner.
The closer they got to their destination, the more cautious they became. The last thing they wanted was to be discovered moving into their ambush site. A small patrol was rarely in a position to slug it out with any enemy element while on the move.
They reached the site without delay and held up while Hollister carefully led each man into his firing position. In the darkness it was very easy to get turned around, so he wanted to make sure that everyone knew where the killing zone was and where the other members of the patrol were. Hollister knew of soldiers who had fired on their own patrol members, thinking they were firing on the enemy. He also wanted to make sure he knew exactly where each man was.
Once he had positioned the patrol, the final ambush layout was Hollister, Doc Norris, Davis and Vinson in the center, and Camacho and Theodore well out to the flanks. Everyone was facing south but Doc, who faced north to provide their only rear security.
With his compass, Hollister checked their orientation, comparing it to his mental picture of the map that he had memorized earlier in the day, making sure he had his cardinal directions right. Come time to call for supporting fires, there would be no time for him to get oriented.
While Hollister took care of his highest priority tasks, the others laid out grenades and ammunition at arm’s length, then—one at a time—moved forward to check out the killing zone and put out their Claymore mines.
Like moving into the ambush site, it was a very vulnerable time for the team. Their fires couldn’t be effective or even coordinated if one of them remained forward when they were discovered by someone in the clearing. Instead of returning a heavy volume of fire, they would have to break contact with the enemy and try to make it to the rally point. Even that effort would be compromised by the lack of a coordinated move.
Once everyone was in position for the night, Hollister breathed a little easier. Still, he couldn’t resist taking just one more look. One at a time he checked each man’s position, fields of fire, ammo, relationship to the others, and their grip on the situation. He had to know that they knew what was going on. Confusion meant disaster—absolutely.
Satisfied the ambush was ready, Hollister settled into the most comfortable waiting position he could find on the uneven ground. He and the others would not move much until they sprang the ambush or until dawn came.
Although he was motionless, Hollister’s mind was running. Details kept clicking by—communications, artillery support, medevac radio frequencies and call signs, return routes, escape routes, rally points. He felt his chest tightening and tried to convince himself to relax—to breathe more slowly. No sooner did he start to take his own advice than he felt his fingers absentmindedly reaching out to reconfirm the location of his M-16 magazines and hand grenades.
The VC platoon snaked slowly through the knots of bamboo that defined the transition from the tall trees of the rain forest hills to the paddy fields in the valley below.
The platoon’s level of alertness was obvious in their cautious movement. They were anxious as they approached their objective, but were also sloppy, hungry, and weary. No sparkle of humor or hope crossed any of their faces. They walked like men without a future, only a present.
The rain started to fall again. At first it was light and warm, then cold and drenching. A few of the VC pulled out pieces of nylon, makeshift ponchos that afforded little protection from the rain. They all got soaked within minutes.
The platoon leader pulled on a pair of wool knit gloves. He wore them as if they set him off from the others. In the downpour they were far more symbolic than functional.
The hard rain also fell on the ambush site. It made Hollister feel like a real heel for the hell he had raised back at the base camp. Theodore had stuffed a poncho into his rucksack, but Hollister caught it on the patrol inspection and made him leave it behind. He also gave him an ass chewing, reminding him that the rustling of an army poncho could be heard for hundreds of yards in the bush.
It was always cold at night in the field. In the States, journalists wrote about the blistering heat of the midday sun and the smothering heat of the dark jungle. With more than six months in the field behind him, Hollister knew better. He had never been as cold in a German winter as he had been in the rain forest of Vietnam. The season made little difference. When it was warm, huge billowing rain clouds formed late in the day, then it started raining before dark and continued into the evening. Even though it didn’t rain all night, each man would still spend the night wet. As the temperature dropped, the wetness became a cold, biting, and draining discomfort that made the night long and miserable. And in the rainy season it was wet all the time. In the dark it was hard for a soldier to tell what season it was. He only knew there were no comfortable nights in the bush in Vietnam.
Cold or not, everyone knew that Hollister was right in making Theodore leave his poncho behind. Ponchos were for base perimeter duty and occasionally taken on patrols for gear that needed to be kept dry. But rolling around in a poncho while sleeping was like putting up a marker in the night to let the VC know where you were.
Phuc, the VC platoon leader, had not been in South Vietnam very long. He was assigned to his platoon after its leader was killed in a B-52 strike three months earlier. Just thirty, he had been a college professor in Haiphong before being drafted and selected for officer training.
Being called to serve his country was expected. He had often wondered what took them so long to get around to him. He had adjusted well to soldiering. But the adjustment to the physical life was not as easy. He had never been very active or physical—as many of his soldiers had been in civilian life. They had been farmers and laborers. He had been a student for as long as he could remember. When he was inducted into the army, he resolved to do his part and not complain. He had convinced himself that if he were to serve well, he might be able to shorten the war and return to his classroom and the students he loved.
But it had bothered him that not much of his training was in the field skills needed in South Vietnam. Instead, it had been heavily weighted toward the political necessities of providing positive leadership for the long struggle facing the North Vietnamese. Phuc had hoped that the study of field operations could be learned on the job. So far, all of his lessons had been hard-learned.
He looked around for some evidence of his ability to motivate his men. He had tried hard, but they all looked tired and unmoved by his pep talk earlier in the day. He rationalized to himself that it was just time to stop for rest and food. They would be better after some rest.
Holding up the column, Phuc went to his three sergeants to coordinate the final plans for the night’s operations.
After the platoon established a hasty defensive perimeter, Phuc found a spot in the center. As he dropped his rucksack to the ground, he resisted the urge to groan. He knew that he should lead by example. If he wanted his troops to endure the hardships, he must do so cheerfully.
After trying one spot and then another to find a decent piece of ground to sit on, he settled on the exposed roots of a tall tree. At least it was free of the rocks and twigs that had made the first two spots unbearable.
From his wet canvas rucksack he withdrew a small packet wrapped in oilcloth. After weeks in the field he was unaware of its smell; everything he owned smelled. His uniform hadn’t been washed in weeks and his few possessions smelled musty, smoky, and moldy. He had even stopped looking at his fingernails. There was no way for him to keep them clean, so he had decided to just ignore them. To Phuc, ignoring personal hygiene was a loss of dignity. But he had no choice, and he hoped that putting the energy into fighting for his country would replace the loss of self-esteem that he suffered for being filthy.
He unwrapped the cloth which held a ball of long-cold cooked rice. As he did at each meal, he routinely picked as many of the small insects as he could see from the grains of rice and moved aside the rice that had been crushed under the pressure of his backpack.
The food smelled of the wood fire that it had been cooked over. From a small tin container Phuc extracted a few pieces of dried fish the size of minnows and mixed them with the cold rice to provide some taste. The meal would never satisfy an American soldier, but for Phuc it was one of the simple pleasures of his life, and he appreciated it.
Breaking off chunks of the clammy rice ball, Phuc ate his only meal of the day. As he ate he looked around at the outlines of the others. They were lean and wiry. Their hands were cut and callused from carrying their weapons and making their way through the rain forest. It had been days since they had been allowed to dry out their gear, get some sun on their wrinkled skin, and let the platoon barber work his scissors.
A small pain tugged at the center of his chest. Phuc missed his wife, Ly. He put down the ball of rice and took a cheap plastic wallet from his rucksack. Inside it he found his small photo of Ly. He placed it on top of his gear so that he could look at her while he ate. It was so dark under the large tree that he wasn’t sure if he could actually see the photo or if he wanted to see it so badly that he could visualize it from memory. He didn’t really care. Either way, he could see Ly.
She wore a North Vietnamese uniform and was standing in front of her antiaircraft gun just outside of Haiphong. Her long, straight, black hair was pulled back into a ponytail, revealing strong shoulders and large breasts. Phuc felt a twinge of excitement remembering the last night they spent together. She was a quiet woman, but her demure attitude disappeared when they were intimate. She loved sex and loved Phuc. He missed her. But worse than his longing for her was the feeling in the pit of his stomach that he would die in South Vietnam and never see her or the child she was carrying. Nevertheless, the small picture took him away for a moment from the rain and the cold and the fear. He stared at it.
He felt his eyes starting to flood, and immediately worried that one of his men might discover his loss of control. He quickly wiped his face with the small scrap of camouflage parachute material that he wore around his neck and looked around, but no one was even looking back in his direction.
Phuc took a last look at the photo and carefully tucked it back into its place of safekeeping. Worrying that he could be accused of spending too much time dwelling on himself and his own selfish thoughts, he pulled out a notebook that had seen many trail miles and opened it to look at a detailed diagram of a tiny farming hamlet. He focused on the details—streambeds, footbridges, vegetable gardens. Even the location of the livestock pens was noted. Phuc studied the sketch as he finished his meal. He tested himself by trying to identify the features by their locations on the drawing, since he couldn’t read the notations under them.
The hamlet was named My Phu.
“Comrade Phuc, I would like to request extra time for my men to rehearse our actions at the hamlet tonight,” said Sergeant Thanh, a man of forty with small, recessed eyes and long, wispy hairs growing from a raisinlike mole on his left cheek. “I am unhappy with the preparations.”
Phuc looked at his watch. “Yes. But make sure you work fast,” he said, without glancing at Sergeant Thanh. “I want to be back on the march by midnight.”
Thanh nodded in acknowledgment and headed back toward his squad. As he walked, one leg dragged slightly from a permanent limp caused by a bomb fragment that he had taken in the hip six years earlier.
But Thanh’s general air of fatigue and resignation came from having been at war since his ninth birthday. Phuc shuddered. As a platoon leader he would be repeatedly committed to combat and would most likely be at war until his death. He had never known peace in his life, and in his mind there was no real hope of ever winning the war against the enemy’s huge machine.
“Make sure that the American equipment is ready, Sergeant,” Phuc said.
Sergeant Thanh looked back at Phuc and grunted affirmatively.
The rain came down harder than before. Phuc wrapped up the scraps of his rice and stuffed the packet back into his rucksack. Rain ran down his face, so he dropped his head to avoid the cold assault. As he did, he wrapped his fingers around his wallet. To him the photo inside it was the only reality in his life that didn’t promise death.
Through his burning eyes Hollister looked out at the killing zone. He tried to memorize the details of the small clearing, knowing that even darker hours would surely follow. He picked up the piece of commo wire that had been stretched out to the left of the ambush and yanked on it. He got an immediate response—two tugs. It meant that Camacho was awake and on the job. Camacho was just beyond the turn in the trail leading into the clearing. His job was to give early warning if an enemy patrol approached from the ambush’s left.
Picking up the second wire, Hollister tugged again and received two tugs from Theodore, who had the same job on the right flank of the ambush. Hollister dropped the wire, satisfied—for the moment. He had worked quickly to get the ambush set up. There was a long night ahead of him and he felt frustrated that once the ambush was in place there was nothing to do but wait.
He hated being at the mercy of the enemy. He fought the urge to recheck the others or even take a few steps up or down the trail that ran through the center of the clearing. He hoped he wouldn’t get sleepy, but he knew better.
Home. That would do it. It always did it. He would think of home. He knew that whenever he thought of home he could keep from falling asleep.
Susan could do it best of all. He wondered how many other American soldiers thought of American women while they were trying to fill the hours on ambushes, guard duty, radio watch, and a thousand other tedious night shifts in the war.
His mind wandered to the night at the Port Authority Bus Terminal on Forty-second Street in Manhattan. He was waiting that night, too. But that night it was good for him to wait.
He had watched her as she walked through the bus terminal. She made eye contact with no one. She was classy, even cocky. It was the first thing he saw about her—her attitude. He then took note of her pleasantly tight Levi’s, her boots, and her navy watch coat. Her hair was light brown, long and very straight. Hollister liked the way it flared from her face and flowed behind her when she walked. She said a lot to him by holding her head up and moving with a purpose. She knew exactly where she was going, and Hollister wanted to know too. So did every other man in the Port Authority.
Checking his watch for time till his bus, he picked up his bag and followed her through the terminal.
Trying not to look too eager, Hollister sat down on the stool next to her at the coffee counter. She didn’t even look up. She simply kept surveying the plastic-covered menu.
“What’ll it be, honey?” the waitress asked, pulling a stubby pencil from her netted hair and tapping the point on her order pad.
Susan made a quick check of her watch and then smiled at the heavyset woman, “How ’bout a piece of blueberry pie and coffee—black?” she replied.
“I’ll have the same,” Hollister said.
Both women looked at Hollister as if he hadn’t been invited. He smiled sheepishly—busted!
The waitress put the pencil back in her hair and stuck the two order slips on the rotating wheel in the window behind her, flipped two coffee mugs onto the counter and filled them.
“Pretty clumsy, huh?” Hollister asked.
“Yes,” Susan replied without looking at him.
“Well, maybe I could start with some other clever icebreaker.”
“Don’t bother. It isn’t likely to work,” Susan said as she turned to look at him, making sure that her expression meant business.
He looked into her eyes. They were incredible. Gray, almost metallic. He preferred to think that her gaze was playful flirting. He wasn’t going to give up that easily. “My name’s Jim—Jim Hollister. And I wasn’t really hitting on you.”
“Oh?” she replied, not believing him. “Well, it sure felt like you were working up to it.”
He smiled broadly. “Well then, in that case, how’m I doing?”
She burst out laughing. “I have to give it to you. You don’t come on too strong, but you do make up for it by being persistent and overly optimistic.”
“Whew, that’s great to hear. I was afraid that I was losing my touch.”
“Ohhh, so you do this often?” Susan asked almost playfully.
“No, ah … no I don’t. I haven’t. I meant I haven’t had much of a chance lately.”
“Too bad. Been in jail, or what?” Susan asked.
The waitress returned and quietly slipped the pie in front of Susan and Hollister. As if on autopilot, she poured more coffee and dropped the checks between the two cups. Susan started eating her pie.
“Worse. Been in the army for the last three years.”
Susan made a face. “Hmmm, I was hoping the short hair might mean Olympic swimmer or something.”
“We’re not going to get into one of those ‘I don’t date guys in the service’ conversations, are we?” Hollister asked.
“No, you won’t have to worry about that,” Susan answered.
“That mean you do date GIs?”
“No,” Susan said flatly. “It means that we aren’t going to be talking that long.”
“That’s too bad. I was hoping we could have dinner together, or something.”
Susan pushed the stale pie away from her. “We just did.” She got up from the counter.
“Hey, you aren’t leaving?” Hollister asked.
“I am leaving and we have finished this conversation,” Susan said.
“Angry?”
“No. I just don’t need the aggravation. Anyway, I have to meet a friend whose bus should be here by now.”
“So, what are the chances of—” he started to ask.
“Pretty slim,” Susan replied, without much conviction. She reached into her coat pocket and pulled out a card. “But don’t let that hold you back.” She handed him the business card, spun on her boot heel and walked away.
He decided that he loved the way she walked. Her legs looked great in the jeans. He watched until the crowd folded in behind her, then he looked down at the card. It read: SUSAN T. WILKERSON, Editorial Research Assistant, Skyline Magazine—New York.
The other customers at the coffee counter broke out in cheers and applause for Hollister’s partial victory. He blushed, realizing that his efforts had been watched by all. But he smiled and took a mock bow.
A raw burn ran up Hollister’s leg. He flinched but stopped himself in mid-response to keep from making noise. It had to be a land leech. The little bastards lived on the floor of the rain forest and found juicy Americans by some kind of radar. When he sat still long enough, they always found him; he’d become conscious of the burning sensation when the raw spot they created made contact with rough clothing or his salty sweat.
There was nothing he could do. He’d just have to wait until daylight to root the little pest out of his boot. The leech wasn’t dangerous, but by the time he could get around to removing it, it would probably have some friends with it.
He looked at the luminous dial on his watch and resisted a sigh. It was only midnight. He wrapped his arms across his chest for warmth and tried to think of something else.
It was going to be a very long night—his two hundred seventh night in Vietnam.
Phuc could barely make out Sergeant Thanh in the dark night and driving rain. But he knew that the rain and cloud cover would conceal their movement to the hamlet. Still, the same rain would cause trouble in communications, footing, visibility, and resolve.
“Your squad will lead, Sergeant Thanh.”
“Yes. We are ready. May our night be successful,” Thanh dutifully replied as he led his squad past Lieutenant Phuc.
Silently, the platoon then took up march interval and slipped back into the tree line. Phuc fell in behind the last man in Sergeant Thanh’s squad. He took a deep breath, hoping that he would be up to the task before them.
The people of My Phu had resisted the local Viet Cong and had informed on the VC cadre in the district. The mere fact that they had been disloyal to the Viet Cong was enough for the VC to teach the farmers a lesson. But since they were responsible for the death of three local Communist guerrillas, an example had to be made.
Phuc had been instructed that by dawn there must be nothing but corpses in My Phu.
After more than an hour on the march, Phuc held up his platoon to get his bearings. Without a proper compass or map, he walked off the line of march to the top of a nearby knoll to look out over the valley below them.
As far as he could see through the rain, there were geometric squares of rice. They were like the rice fields near his home in the north. And the rain made it all look so clean and lush.
The valley supplied rice for a large portion of South Vietnam and was named for the largest nearby city—An Hoa. Somewhere in that valley sat Phuc’s objective. He looked at his watch. It was nearing two. He would have to move his men faster to get the job done and be able to slip back into the hills before daybreak.
Hollister found himself drawing up into a ball to preserve body heat. To take his mind off the cold, he looked up and down the ambush to check on the others. They were alert and motionless. He wondered what was going through their minds. Were they thinking of sleeping bags? How many of the others had leech problems? How many of them had scooped out a depression in the ground below them to piss without having to get up and leave the site?
He was proud that he would not hear about it until they were back at the base camp. Only then would they bitch and complain and brag. And they would do it in great detail and with much bravado.
The fabric of someone’s jungle fatigues made a soft swishing sound as he shifted his position. Hollister looked in the direction of the noise and saw Doc Norris facing to the rear.
Doc was prepared for two jobs. For rear security, his weapon was at the ready. And if they made contact, he would take on his primary job as medic just as soon as the shooting stopped.
While the others had placed ammunition within easy reach, Doc Norris also had the tools of his trade ready. His aid bag was unzipped so he could pull out exactly what he needed. Next to his bag were extra combat dressings, lengths of surgical tubing, a bottle of saline solution, and an open can of blood expander. They rested on a cravat that he could use to scoop up the medical supplies if they had to move in a hurry.
Hollister wanted to occupy his mind with more pleasant thoughts, but he had to resist the temptation to take too many more mental trips. There was nothing easy about being the honcho of an ambush patrol.
The Viet Cong spread out as they approached the hamlet. The lead elements of the platoon had gone ahead to scout the area, then serve as guides for the others to move quietly into firing position without spooking the livestock. Once in place, the platoon was less than ten yards from the nearest farmhouse.
Phuc spotted a small light and some movement near one of the six thatched houses. He raised his hand in alarm. His soldiers froze as a little girl returned from her family’s outdoor privy. She could not have been more than nine years old.
At the hard-packed dirt porch of her house, she stopped to put her small kerosene lamp on a shaky wooden bench by the front door. Next to the bench a ceramic crock held drinking water. The girl lifted the lid and dipped an empty soda bottle into the water.
Phuc decided not to wait for her to go into the house. He signaled his squad leaders to continue moving into position.
His plan was simple. Surround the hamlet to prevent anyone from escaping, and then level it with small arms fire and rocket-propelled grenades.
Phuc moved up and down the line of men and silently checked their readiness. Reaching Sergeant Thanh, he pointed at the three water buffalo in the small livestock enclosure. Thanh nodded. He had instructed some of his men to shoot the large beasts first. They were more concerned with the danger of stampeding the water buffalo than about the people they were ready to kill.
Satisfied with the preparations, Phuc raised his pistol. Up and down the line the soldiers took aim. Phuc tried to look confident. Faltering would be taken as a lack of resolve to their cause. The swiftness of his execution must be symbolic of his commitment to victory over the south.
The rain had let up considerably, but the water still dripped down his face and off his nose. He took aim with great care. He couldn’t wait. If he did, he might not be able to go through with it.
His pistol jerked back with a crack as Phuc fired a single round. The little girl was knocked off her feet as the report of the pistol began the fusillade of automatic weapons fire.
The pistol bullet passed through her tiny chest and collapsed her lung, leaving her on her back. She couldn’t move. All she could see was the matched roof overhang that had shaded her family’s porch for three generations. No one could have heard the gurgling in her throat as the house’s wooden beams and thatched walls shattered, splintering and raining down on her.
The sound of rifles firing on full automatic was deafening. First one and then a second structure caught fire. The darkness was pushed back by the flames of the burning hooches and the muzzle flashes of the weapons.
They fired and reloaded as fast as they could. Phuc could smell the offensive mixture of cordite and burning flesh. The pigs squealed but the water buffalo lay dead, no longer a threat to the Viet Cong soldiers.
Phuc looked around to see if there were any civilian witnesses, but he was unable to see anything outside the immediate circle of illumination.
Enough. He pulled a small tin whistle from his shirt pocket and blew it. The firing stopped.
Above the metallic sounds of the soldiers reloading their weapons, he could only hear the crackling of timbers burning and crashing to the ground in showers of sparks.
Phuc reached into his rucksack and pulled out two empty American C-ration cans and held them over his head. The squad leaders passed the word to the soldiers. Each man who had fired Viet Cong weapons bent down to pick up his brass, then dropped expended M-16 cartridges in their place. The ones who had fired M-16s left their brass on the ground, and a couple of them threw down empty M-16 magazines.
Phuc threw the C-ration cans toward the ruins then raised his hand to shade his eyes from the glare of the fire. He looked at the burning huts. The little girl’s blackened hand poked through the blanket of debris. Quickly looking away, he signaled the squad leaders to withdraw.
Without a sound the platoon pulled back from what was once a hamlet that was home to six families. Nothing was standing. Chickens, pigs, and fire were the only sounds.
As the platoon slipped back into the tree line surrounding the fields belonging to My Phu, Phuc took one last look. It was gone. There was no more My Phu.
FOUR A.M. IT was the hour that made American soldiers border on self-destructive behavior. Like every other boonie rat, Hollister hated it. It had been bad enough in Ranger School at Fort Benning, but in Vietnam it could be deadly. At that hour Hollister’s watch seemed to stop. His reality blurred and nothing registered the same as it did in the light of day.
Once, early in Hollister’s tour, he sat bolt upright on another ambush, convinced that a mortar round had just landed within a few meters of his position. But then he couldn’t understand why the others didn’t notice it. He doubted his senses. He was sure it had happened and that other rounds would soon land. But none of the others showed any sign of alarm. He felt foolish, confused and unsure of his own powers of perception. It made him wary of anyone’s perceptions at night after days or weeks of little sleep.
He fought for clarity. His eyes watered and the raw spots on his knees and elbows burned like fire from the hundreds of hours he had spent in the same position on the same kind of gritty, muddy, decaying rain forest floor.
He tried to caution himself not to let the surrealistic perceptions of the night screw up his judgment. It was so easy for the trees to become VC soldiers and the rustling of the brush to be sappers crawling his way.
He had learned one thing about that limbo world between consciousness and sleep—each man has a different reaction to the hallucinations that overtake him. He had seen soldiers try to put imaginary nickels into the trunks of trees, thinking that they were Coke machines. Once while on ambush near the Laotian border, one soldier simply started singing. He wasn’t even conscious that he was doing it. The surprise ballad caused the others on the patrol to leap on him to shut him up.
Aching for relief, Hollister shifted his position without success. His muscles were unbelievably stiff. The joints in his fingers ached and the skin across the insteps of his feet hurt from the wrinkled jungle boot tongues and the constant pressure of his bootlaces.
Trying not to focus on how far off dawn was, he yearned for the warm sunlight, still looking back over his shoulder for some hopeful sign of a new day. All he found was the moon, which had started to peek through the fast moving clouds.
The hands on his watch seemed to be frozen. Hollister searched for games to keep focused. In his mind he tried to picture each of the other five scroungy members of his patrol dressed up—formally.
Vinson, a long-legged boy from Tennessee, was more Adam’s apple than a tux could ever tolerate. Hollister often wondered how such an awkward softball player could be such a competent field soldier. Vinson was every bit as skilled as he was quiet, and Hollister could always count on him. Quiet, solid, reliable, but never a tux.
Three other soldiers were alive because of Vinson’s quick thinking and selfless actions during a patrol that had been hit coming out of a hot landing zone some weeks earlier. Hollister made a mental note to check on a Bronze Star recommendation that he had submitted on Vinson. He didn’t want it to get lost in the giant paper-eating machine that was called higher headquarters.
Next to Vinson, Staff Sergeant Davis sat up to make some adjustment to his web gear. Davis was a stocky black soldier from Missouri. Hollister thought that he had probably worn a tux before and would look good in one.
Hollister watched as Davis quietly slipped a brick-sized radio battery out of his rucksack and then silently unfolded a Buck knife with the flick of a finger. He pressed the tip of the blade flat against the battery and slit the plastic bag that covered it. He then slid the new battery into the large cargo pocket on the side of his tiger-striped fatigue trousers.
Davis was merely getting the battery ready for Vinson. And Vinson wouldn’t replace the old battery and risk the snapping noises of the locking catches on the battery compartment of the PRC-25 radio. After the sun rose, when the morning rain forest noises would cover the sounds, Hollister would help Vinson do it. The battery already in the radio was probably strong enough to last the night, but Davis wanted one ready in case shooting started and there was a need to replace the old one.
Hollister suddenly realized that there were no sounds. Not just the end of the rain. Not just night quiet. But no sounds at all. The normal night rhythms were gone, no insects, no night birds, and no mosquitoes.
Everyone noticed it. Hollister watched as one by one each patrol member changed position from almost ready to rock serious.
Hollister’s fingers searched out his weapon. The others did the same, and three of them felt for Claymore mine detonators. Somewhere out there in the dark someone was coming their way.
Hollister’s mind started to leap from one thing to another—could be a large cat, or a boar, or even a monkey or two. It wouldn’t be a problem if it was something like that. He shook himself out of it.
Supporting fires—they had to be alerted. Just as Hollister turned to his radio operator, Davis pressed the earpiece of Vinson’s handset to his cheek to silence it and squeezed the press-to-talk button four times to alert the base camp radio operator.
Sliding the handset to his ear, Davis heard the patrol base Operations RTO respond immediately, “Unknown station, this is Quarterback Three Romeo. We have a contact likely message … Please transmit your team number. Over.”
Davis clicked the button twice, waited for a second, and then pressed it three more times.
The base radio operator responded in a serious whisper, “We copy, Two-three, Team Two-three. If that’s an affirm, do not respond. If incorrect, transmit your number again. Over.”
Phuc was glad that the rain had finally stopped, because his troops might be able to dry out a little before the sun rose. But it also meant that the veil of concealment that rain had offered was gone.
The platoon continued moving back up into the hills surrounding the valley. Phuc tried to shift his load to get more comfortable. His rucksack had not seemed so heavy on the way down. And climbing back up the same muddy hills through the wet trees was more difficult.
The others were somber and preoccupied, but Phuc would let them have a few more moments with their thoughts before correcting them for walking as if on autopilot. Even if there might be ambushes set in the area, the chances were that at that time of the morning all of the would-be ambushers were asleep.
The moon started to throw shafts of light through the double-canopy vegetation as Davis reacted to tugs on the commo wire. It was Camacho giving the signal that enemy troops were moving past his position. Davis made eye contact with Hollister and pointed in the direction of the hidden Camacho.
Hollister looked at the others, who had also seen Davis’s signal. He worried that the moonlight might give them away, but even he had difficulty making out his own people in the mottled shadow patterns on their camouflage uniforms and well-camouflaged faces.
Hollister tried to convince himself that they had done all that could be done to ensure their security at that moment. He forced his mind to move on to other things that could influence the outcome of what was sure to be an enemy contact.
As he ran down his mental checklist, Hollister realized that his chest was tightening again and his breathing was getting shallow. Sweat was forming under his arms.
The VC point squad, led by two soldiers and Sergeant Thanh, entered the killing zone of Hollister’s ambush.
Phuc, with the second squad, walked immediately behind Sergeant Thanh’s squad.
Hollister blinked to make sure that he was really seeing the first two figures in the killing zone. While he was doing that, he anxiously touched his hand grenades for the fourth time in so many minutes, just to make sure that they were still there.
The enemy point man reached the far side of the killing zone—thirteen VC soldiers had followed him into the clearing.
Hollister hoped that the trailing element, which he couldn’t see, was no more than a few men. His biggest fear was of executing the ambush only to find that he had fired on the smaller portion of the enemy unit, and that the larger part was still outside the killing zone and able to flank his people.
It was a crapshoot.
Davis was the first to detonate his Claymore mine. The blast ripped through the night, instantly dropping five VC.
The other Americans opened fire. Then the night again lit up with two more Claymore explosions and four grenades that landed in the killing zone fractions of a second apart.
For a few very intense seconds the only sounds Hollister could hear were his patrol’s weapons. Seven more VC fell, mortally wounded by the violent bursts of well-aimed American small arms fire.
The other VC realized what had happened and started to return fire in the general direction of the Americans—but they were shaken and forgot their training. For most of them, their aim was much too high.
Soldiers had fallen all around Phuc. He was dazed, confused, and completely disoriented. What could he do? He had allowed them to walk into the middle of the ambush and now he had even lost contact with the squad behind him. “Pull back! Keep firing!” he yelled against the wall of noise that filled the night.
There was no response. He could barely hear the words leaving his mouth; none of his men could hear him. Then the man in front of him seemed to fly apart as he was hit by an M-79 grenade-launcher round. The body kept walking a few steps even though his head, shoulder, and one arm had been blown away.
Phuc wanted to vomit. He thought of death. He thought of Ly. Then he felt something heavy hit him on the leg. Before he could wonder what it was, the night flashed red and yellow with a deafening crack as a hand grenade exploded at his feet. For him there was no pain, no sound. It just ended.
Phuc had been right. He would never see Ly again.
Scrambling on his hands and knees in the brown oatmeal and deadfall of the forest floor, Hollister grabbed the radio handset from Vinson and yelled over the firing, “Quarterback, this is Two-three. We have contact! I say again—we have contact! Launch pickup choppers now. Will break contact and move to the PZ immediately. More to follow. Out!”
Hollister threw the handset back to Vinson. Enemy small arms fire was still passing over his head, cutting through brush, showering him and the others with debris.
Uncertain, Hollister strained to detect any enemy movement. The green and red tracers that had been coming from the killing zone had stopped. He took a chance, shouting, “Cease fire! Cease fire!”
The others stopped firing, more from his example than his voice. They were excited and worried that their night vision was shot by the brilliance of the Claymores, grenades, and muzzle flashes.
Davis was the only one who had been cool enough to keep his night vision. He had learned to keep one eye closed so that when the shooting stopped he could open the dilated eye and see as well as he had before the shooting started. Hollister knew the trick, but never remembered to pull it off.
Hollister quickly called out each man’s name. One by one they let him know that they were unharmed by replying with a simple Airborne “Okay.” Nobody down.
“Stay awake,” Hollister cautioned. “They’re still out there!” Over his own heavy breathing he turned to Davis. “What d’ya think?”
Davis got up on one knee to get a better look, then whispered, “Looks like maybe a dozen KIA out there.” Davis then held his breath to listen some more.
They could hear frantic thrashing noises below their position—down the hillside. Viet Cong soldiers were slipping and falling on the muddy path as they tried to escape.
“Go check out the KIAs. But make it last. We got to get to the PZ. The whole world knows where we are now.”
Snapping his fingers to get their attention, Hollister raised his voice only enough to be heard. “Vinson, you cover Davis. Don’t take your eyes off him. If anything moves anywhere near him—blow it away.”
Davis put his rifle down and pulled out a .45 pistol. He looked around at the others. “Any more Claymores out there?” The others shook their heads. Satisfied, Davis crawled toward the killing zone.
As Davis started to move, Hollister had a second thought and looked over at Doc Norris. “Go with him. There might still be some wounded.”
Hollister looked back at Vinson to make sure that Vinson knew that two of them would be entering the killing zone. Vinson whispered, “I got ’em, sir.”
Doc shouldered his aid kit, pulled out his pistol and scrambled after Davis.
Still watching Doc and Davis, Vinson picked up the radio handset and tossed it toward Hollister. “It’s already on arty freq, sir.”
Hollister smiled at his ever-efficient radioman, took out a green pocket notebook and flipped it open to a page marked by a rubber band. He pulled his right-angle, red-filtered Army flashlight from his web gear and wrapped his fingers across the lens. Turning it on, he allowed a tiny sliver of light to slip through his fingers to illuminate the list of artillery targets he had plotted before the patrol left the base camp. He raised the handset and used his own call sign rather than Team 2-3’s. “Saint Barbara, this is Quarterback Two-six, fire mission. Over.”
A faint voice responded immediately, “This is Saint Barbara. Send your fire mission. Over.”
“Fire targets two niner five, two niner seven, three zero one, and three zero five. Over.”
The radio operator at the Artillery Fire Direction Center answered immediately and repeated the target numbers.
Hollister gave the handset back to Vinson. “We gotta move! Choppers are inbound and arty is on the way.” He turned back toward the killing zone and whispered loudly, “Goddammit—let’s go, Davis! Get it in gear.”
Hollister could hear the two men searching the bodies for documents and equipment, but couldn’t really see them well. Davis and Norris each finished searching the last bodies and collected weapons from the dead VC. Davis slung his VC’s rifle over his shoulder with two others, and Doc Norris hung his around his neck with the length of twine that its dead owner had used. One clunked against another.
The noise made Hollister more anxious. A reorganized squad of VC survivors could pull off a very effective counterattack against his small patrol if he didn’t get his men moving.
Policing the battlefield was important, but Hollister didn’t want to take more risks for filthy VC ammo pouches or comic books. He split the difference and gave Davis and Doc a bit more time to gather anything of intelligence value.
Finally, unable to wait any longer, Hollister reacted. “Now, Davis! Get back here. We’re moving. Leave anything you can’t carry and torch it.”
“Roger, boss. Just a sec,” Davis whispered.
Vinson pulled the handset from his ear. “Sir, redleg sent an ‘on-the-way’ message.”
Hollister nodded. “Davis, get your ass back here. We’re moving—now!”
“Look away! Friendly fire!” Davis yelled, warning the others of the threat to their night vision. He dropped an incendiary grenade on the equipment that they couldn’t carry. The grenade made a small pop and then hissed as it burned with intense white light. Hot enough to melt through safes, the incendiary grenade would destroy anything it rested on.
Stumbling on the slick muddy ground—enemy rifles clanking—Davis and the Doc jogged back to Hollister’s position.
Burdened by half a dozen weapons each and two VC rucksacks filled with captured documents and equipment, they reached Hollister and dropped to their knees. Without saying anything, Davis held out his three M-16s for Hollister to see.
The find was a surprise to Hollister. It was almost unheard of for a Viet Cong unit to have American equipment. It was an important piece of intelligence.
Suddenly, Hollister got a whiff of the repulsive smell that clung to Davis. He had brushed up against the spilled contents of a dead VC’s shredded intestines. Hollister tried to suppress the urge to gag.
In the distance he heard the American howitzers firing. Then a second volley. Then Theodore and Camacho ran into the ambush site.
“Okay, we’re all here,” Hollister said. “That’s our covering fire. Split up this VC gear and let’s get to the pickup zone. Camacho, you know where we’re going?”
“Yessir … home. We’re going home, sir.”
The patrol fell in behind Camacho and was on the run before the first six 105mm howitzer rounds racked the trees along the flanks of the patrol’s route to the pickup zone.
Awkwardly, Hollister ran with the others while trying to talk on the radio. His corrections to the artillery were interrupted as he and Vinson dodged the limbs and bushes that seemed to jump between them.