Burning Your Own

‘In the beginning’ – said Francy – ‘was the dump.’

He stamped both feet on the mound on which his toilet squatted and fixed the boy before him with fiercely twinkling, black eyes, beguiling him with his knowledge.

Mal nodded, convinced, though it was his body, not his mind, which came closest to understanding that the world could seem a very different place from the world into which he walked that morning, hands dug so deep in his jeans pockets that the waistband chafed the knobbles of his hips, knowing Francy and the dump only by legend and hearsay.

There had been another argument at breakfast. Or, rather, the same old arguments were revived and repeated. Mal glided through the tortuous twists and turns, shifting as easily as his parents from point to unconnected point, all the time anticipating the inevitable descent into name-calling: his names. When it occurred, he slipped away to his room, hoping to sit out the too-familiar finale.

From his window, he watched the gang gather at the top of Everest Street. He longed to run and join them, to establish, before the school holiday progressed any further, a stronger contact with them than he had yet been able to. Maybe this once, he thought, they would call for him and his parents would have to stop arguing and then …

And then, on cue, to the accompaniment of shouts and banging doors, the argument downstairs became a fight. Mal drew back from the window as the faces outside turned towards the house. Through the gap between the curtain and the wall, he saw Mucker and Les – as Punch and Judy – pantomime a brawl.

They soon tired of the game, though. Mucker dismissed the house with a derisory flick of his wrist and the gang drifted out of sight along the street.

Mal’s parents were not so easily exhausted, and the boys were long gone by the time he was allowed to go out. He descended the steep hill from the front of the estate, meandering backwards and forwards on the dusty road, kicking loose tarmac chips off the footpath, halting eventually before the sprawl of the park.

A path, running from the road to a wooden creosoted pavilion, halfway across the grass, effectively split the park in two. To the left of the path, tended by an official keeper, was the park proper: football pitches of varying size and quality – arranged in no particular order, so that, unless you knew them, the impression gained was of randomly distributed goalposts – and, beside the pavilion, a crazy-golf course, the gate to which was permanently padlocked. The grass on the right was less regularly cut; except for patches trampled flat by the smaller children to make their own playing fields, it tumbled long and weedy to the fence of a rubbish dump separating the park from the main road along the side of the estate.

Behind all of this stretched the woods, thick beyond the football pitches, extending back as far as the next town, growing sparser and ever more scraggy as they ran towards the road, before finally petering out in a confusion of overgrown hedge and a solitary, drooping willow tree at the bottom of the dump.

It was to the woods that Mal looked now, deciding whether to cross the pitches to the large group milling around the bonfire site in front of the trees. The desire not to be left out might have overcome his shyness at going alone, but the certain knowledge that the gang from his street had heard his parents’ fight and would not let the fact pass unnoticed made him hesitate, his cheeks swollen red.

As he rocked his heels on the kerb, he became aware of a commotion in the cul-de-sac on his right. A bin lorry was parked at the end of the street, where the grass sloped down towards the dump; three binmen and a boy about his own age, armed with a broom handle, were gathered round the wall of a nearby house, a knot of anxious bystanders at their backs. Mal had been warned against playing anywhere near the dump, and so always avoided this street, but that was forgotten now as he was drawn into it by the frantic, raised voices.

‘Kick the bastard – he’s going to spring.’

Heavy workboots lashed out.

‘Kick it again, don’t let it out that end. Use the fucking stick, wee man.’

The broom handle was brought down with a dull crumple.

A small girl, her hand up her skirt, clutching her knickers to stop herself peeing from fear and excitement, hopped beside Mal from halfway down the street, chanting. ‘It’s a rat, it’s a rat – from out of the dump. Our Eddie’s helping the men kill it, but I seen it first. It’s huge, so it is, horrible and black with a big long tail. And I seen it first.’

She danced away to a neighbour, who had ventured to the bottom of his path.

‘It’s a rat, Mr Taggart, it’s a rat. And I seen it first …’

Mal himself had never seen a rat, but the girl’s description fitted exactly with the identikit image in his mind. He bobbed from foot to foot on the fringe of the spectators, straining to peer over the shoulders of the people in front, barely able to maintain his balance in his dread and anticipation.

He managed to catch sight of the rat at last and shuddered, as he expected he would. But, after the initial revulsion, he had the peculiar feeling that he was somehow disappointed. The rat was not black, as promised, but a light greyey-brown; and it wasn’t that huge either, when glimpsed among the flailing feet.

‘We’ve g-g-g-got it n-now,’ a bearded binman stuttered, reaching out a hand. ‘G-g-g-give us the broom pole till I fu-fu-finish the bastard.’

Mal didn’t think he could bear to watch anymore, even though, for all his disappointment, he still hated rats. He faced away and, as he did so, he was struck by the sight of a figure moving at some speed over the debris of the dump.

It straightened a moment and yelled; a boy’s voice, but dredged from the belly, and hacked and coarsened along the way; urgent, grating, unnerving: ‘One more fucking move and you won’t live to regret it.’

The rest of the crowd turned; the stammering binman froze, broom handle poised above his head, ready to strike. The boy-figure negotiated the dump’s remaining obstacles nimbly and leapt the wire fence that bordered it, landing on the grass.

His head seemed enormous, an impression accentuated by its wild burst of bright rust hair, sprouting unchecked in every direction. His feet and hands also looked to be the wrong size, as if he had yet to grow into them. Coming up the slight incline he walked awkwardly, setting his feet down with a curious, heavy plod. Even his T-shirt was too big; it hung loose on his stumpy trunk, and from beneath it a pitted wooden handle protruded down the thigh of his grubby jeans.

A murmur ran back through the crowd to the binmen: ‘Francy Hagan.’

The company of Francy Hagan was, like playing on the dump, forbidden to Mal, as it was, for that matter, to every other child on the estate. His very name was a byword for unseemly behaviour: he was how you would turn out if you cheeked your elders, or refused to eat mashed turnip. But Mal’s family had only been in Larkview since Easter and, just as a few minutes before he had never seen a real live rat, so, too, now was the first time he ever set eyes on the juvenile bogeyman. He pushed forward through the ranks in the hope of a better view.

Francy Hagan appeared to be about fourteen, though it was hard to be sure. Red hair, soft like down, only denser, was already beginning to spill along the line of his jaw and collect in tufts on his chin and top lip. What could be seen of his face beneath the hair was heavily freckled; dark freckles, clumped together in constellations, like a starry night in reverse, as Mal would remember it in years to come, so that the dark was light and the light dark. A short piece of cigarette was clamped so tightly between his lips at the left side of his mouth that it looked like a natural, though angry, smoking growth.

As Francy brushed past, Mal recoiled involuntarily; a stale, meaty smell came off him, as if something had crawled up him and died. Mal’s instinctive reaction would have pleased his parents no end. And yet, as with the rat, he was left feeling oddly let down. This stubby body and outsized head in no way resembled the picture he had pieced together of the fabled wild man of the dump.

Francy stopped before the binmen. The little girl’s brother, Eddie, who had originally wielded the broom handle, faded into the crowd and began backing cautiously away from the scene. Francy let him go, interested only in the man with the beard.

‘What are you going to do with that?’ he asked, nodding to the raised pole.

‘I’m g-g-g-going to k-kill that rat.’

The rat lay at the foot of the wall, in a pool of blood, seemingly too weak to move. Its side heaved up and down and its black eyes bulged so that they looked as though they would burst. Francy collapsed his cheeks, hauling the smoking growth into his mouth, then spat with all the force he could muster, sending the butt looping over the bearded binman’s head.

‘You’re fu-fu-fu-fucking not, you know.’

The man’s chin dropped and the stick clattered to the ground behind him. He forgot about the rat and drew back a fist as if to floor Francy.

‘Why you ch-cheeky wee g-g-g …’

He stopped, mid-swing, mid-stutter. Mal felt his stomach flip: Francy had whipped a hatchet from the belt of his jeans beneath his T-shirt.

‘Go ahead, big fella,’ he challenged. ‘I dare you.’

Mal stepped back with everyone else, hardly conscious in the confusion of emotions tumbling inside him that his feet were moving. The other binmen retreated, circling silently behind Francy. Francy’s gaze never once left the bearded man, but still he was aware of everything going on about him.

‘Tell your mates, if I so much as feel their breath on me, I’ll cleave your skull in two.’

The binman facing him smirked a smirk that said he thought Francy was all mouth and clenched his fists tighter. Francy responded by increasing the pressure of his grip on the hatchet shaft. His knuckles showed white, then continued to swell, until in the end they seemed to have grown out of all proportion with even his already too-big hands.

The driver of the bin lorry had been looking on from his cab since Francy appeared, bent forward, resting his heavily tattooed arms on the steering wheel.

Now he opened the door and shouted, ‘The wee lad’s a nutcase; it’s a known fact. Come on to fuck out of that and leave him with his stupid rat. Sure the frigging thing’s kicked near to death anyway.’

The bearded binman sagged and relaxed his fists. He shook his head, glowing and brushed with sweat, and walked back with his colleagues to the bin lorry. It pulled away from the bottom of the cul-de-sac, but slowed again as it drew level with Francy. The driver leaned across and stabbed a finger out the window of the cab.

‘You ought to be put away, you mad Taig bastard,’ he said. ‘Some day you’ll realise you should have been. Then you’ll be sorry.’

Then you’ll be sorry. The phrase had dogged Mal all year. He was going to be sorry too. Sorry that he had screamed himself hoarse one afternoon and refused point-blank to go to his piano teacher’s house. Some day, his mother was forever telling him, he would wish he’d stuck at his lessons (never mind that, after Easter, he couldn’t have had them even if he had wanted them). That was January, since when scarcely a day went by without someone trotting the words out to someone else – in the streets, in the newspapers, on the television – so that, by that July of 1969, it seemed that just about everybody in Northern Ireland was going to be sorry, one way or another. And now Francy. Mal couldn’t see why anyone would ever regret not being put away. But he couldn’t see either why Francy found it so hilarious.

For Francy was laughing and laughing, body jerking, hatchet waving dangerously.

The driver’s finger faltered. ‘Nutcase,’ he spat and slammed the lorry into gear.

It careered out of the cul-de-sac and the laugh died in Francy’s throat as if a switch had been thrown. He shoved the hatchet into the belt of his jeans – but outside his T-shirt this time, in case anybody should forget he had it – and crouched by the wall. Gently he lifted the rat, which looked in his hands even smaller than before, and held it close to his face, mumbling into its blood-matted fur. The rat did not strike out or bite, and Mal, whose fear of rats had been nourished by stories of their viciousness when faced with death, realised it was beyond helping itself, as it allowed Francy to stroke and probe it lightly with his thumbs.

‘Bastards,’ he said, feeling the broken bones.

He plodded forward with the injured animal, and the crowd parted, making noises of disgust. Only Mal stood his ground, despite the remnants of his terror and the flip he’d felt in his stomach. Francy halted a moment and stared at him with small, hard, black eyes. Mal caught his breath. He could have sworn he heard the rat purr quietly.

Francy climbed the fence into the dump and picked his way across the rubbish with care, so that his outstretched hands remained balanced. At the far end of the dump, where it merged with the woods in a tangled thicket, he disappeared through the low-hanging branches of the solitary willow.

Mal lingered by the roadside while the crowd dispersed, then, hands in pockets, he wandered away from the dead end to the pavilion path. The gang had not moved from the edge of the woods. There was little more than a week to go to the Twelfth, and the Eleventh Night bonfire was being worked on and guarded round the clock. Mucker’s dad had got a centre pole from the timberyard where he worked and this morning it was being taken into the woods to be hidden. Mal’d have missed that by now. If only his parents hadn’t rowed at breakfast. Mind you, if they hadn’t, he would never have seen the rat or Francy or the bust-up with the binmen.

Francy and the binmen – that was it. None of the ones at the bonfire could know what had happened yet. Just wait till he told them; he had no reason at all to feel awkward. He hurried, half-run, half-skip, across the playing fields.

Everyone lent a hand to build the bonfire and, as he drew nearer to the woods, Mal could see that the Everest Street gang were mingling with boys from all over the estate; there were even half a dozen girls standing by a few of the bigger lads. All were gathered round listening to someone talking.

‘And so doesn’t he go and pull a hatchet. There I am, right by the rest of them, thinking: “I’m ready for it.” But then Big Bobby calls from the truck: “No need you getting involved,” he says to me. “It’s not your fight, but ours.” And I shrugs: “It’s up to you, Bobby.” So I came on over here.’

It was Eddie, the boy who had helped the binmen batter the rat. He paused, noticing Mal approach.

‘Ask your wee man, there,’ he said. ‘He seen it too.’

Mucker pointed and sneered.

‘Who, that tube? I’ll bet he did nothing.’

‘Nah,’ said Eddie. ‘Just cowered by the wee dolls, watching.’

Mal flushed, angry and ashamed: angry at Eddie’s twisting of the story, ashamed because some of it was true – he had stood by and watched. He wanted to say something, but didn’t know what. It was useless anyway: nobody would believe him now. And there was no point him running away either, unless he wanted to be made fun of more.

All around, boys were punching their palms and feigning head-butts, saying they’d have to do Hagan. They could get hatchets too; the Rebel bastard wouldn’t be rid of them so easy.

‘You’ll have to plan it carefully,’ Pickles told them. ‘They say he’s tamed rats in the dump.’

‘That’s right,’ Andy Hardy backed him up. ‘I heard he fed them miscarriages he stole from the hospital and now they’ll attack anyone he tells them to.’

The gang wagged their heads, muttering. A strange mood had stolen over them. If Mal had been older he might have had words for it. Instead he looked on, trying to account for their actions, as though they were characters in a film he had missed the start of.

Two girls whispered together in an exaggerated fashion and began to titter.

‘What’s the matter with youse?’ Mucker asked. The girls nudged each other, disputing which should speak, until finally the taller, more daring of the two said: ‘Did you know he stands perched on a barrel sometimes at the side of the dump, waving his … you know – cock – at passing cars. And’ – she dropped her voice, rubbing her chapped nose with her thumb, while her friend nudged her again – ‘one night he paid a certain someone, who shall remain nameless, but isn’t standing a million miles from me …’

‘God forgive you, Sonia Kerr.’ The other girl thumped her. ‘It wasn’t me and you know it.’

‘… to suck it for him.’

‘That’s nothing, sure,’ Mucker said gruffly. ‘I’ve had mine sucked loads of times. And I’ve had three bucks and all.’

And Les snickered. ‘Yeah, but you’d buck a black eye.’

Mucker wrestled him to the ground and the others joined in, tussling and laughing.

Mal was glad of the diversion to be able to withdraw more. He didn’t always understand everything when they talked like that, and he was afraid of being embarrassed if he was asked a question. He lay on his tummy, gazing off to the left where the woods tapered to a point at the bottom of the dump. He could make out the drop of the willow tree, but he could not make any sense of the feeling the sight of it aroused in him.

‘Hey!’

Behind him, the wrestling had stopped. Andy Hardy was calling him.

‘What?’

‘We’re going off on the scavenge. You’re to stay here and help keep dick.’

Mal rolled on to his tummy again and focused on the distant tree.

‘Can’t,’ he said.

‘What do you mean “can’t”? Can. Fucking will.’

‘I’ve to be home for lunch,’ Mal said quickly, getting to his feet and edging towards the playing fields. ‘Got to help my mum with the shopping this afternoon.’

‘Lunch? Shopping? For dear sake, wee lad, what age are you?’

‘Time someone gave your ma a good stiff talking to,’ Mucker told him, gyrating his hips. ‘Want me to do it? God knows, your da doesn’t seem able. Got the droop, he has.’

A stick cut the air, end over end, and landed at Mal’s feet. Another followed, then another. He broke into a run, not caring now what they said, just so long as he wasn’t there to hear it. He continued to run even after the last stick fell hopelessly short and the sound of laughter subsided. Only when he had reached the road at the bottom of the hill did he think it safe to pull up. The bulk of the boys had set out in the opposite direction, towards the streets on the far side of the fields, leaving only a token guard at the bonfire site.

Satisfied he wasn’t being watched, Mal crossed his fingers and strode purposefully along the cul-de-sac. Sliding down the low bank, he clambered over the wire fence into the dump.

In front of the willow tree, on top of the mound on which it grew, stood a toilet with two red cushions tied to the seat. Through the curtain of branches, Mal could see sheets of tin sloping from the ground into the bushes. He shouted hello, but there was no answer, no sign that anyone was inside. He wavered, his heart pounding. All the way across the dump he had gritted his teeth and tried to blot out thoughts of trained rats. Now, his nerve was failing him. He glanced behind at the expanse of weeds and grass, strewn with ripped garbage bags, spring-burst chairs, sodden mattresses, bottles and cans. He thought of the danger he had already run, the numerous bumps and jolts he had suffered, and somehow it seemed less of a risk to go forward than back again over the junk.

Warily, he mounted the small rise and eased aside the outer branches of the willow tree … Whoosh! – he was drenched by a shower of water … Whoosh! – the breath was punched out of him and he was knocked to the ground by a red streak that caught him square in the chest. He thrashed on the grass, soaked and spluttering. By the time he had recovered himself, Francy Hagan was bending over him.

‘What the fuck are you doing snooping around here?’

He spat a smoke spit and, dragging Mal up by his shirt front, peered at him with his small black eyes.

‘Oh,’ he said, somewhat softer, but at the same time releasing his grip so that Mal fell again. ‘It’s you.’

He walked in the shade of the tree, picking up an empty bucket and a boxing glove on a stick. He saw Mal watching him.

‘Booby traps,’ he said. ‘Fucking nobody’s going to take me by surprise.’

Mal lay still for a time, but when he realised that Francy wasn’t going to do anything else he stood, mopping his face and hair with his sleeves.

‘Well, what do you want?’ Francy asked him.

‘The ones at the bonfire,’ he blurted. ‘They’re coming to get you.’

As soon as the words were out, Mal wondered why he had spoken them. He knew the gang had forgotten about Francy in all their talk. Still, he told himself, maybe another day they would come.

‘So they sent you to scare me?’

‘Oh no,’ Mal explained, terrified of what might happen if Francy thought he was mixed up with the others. ‘No one knows I’m here, I was just warning you.’

Francy almost managed a smile.

‘Don’t worry about me,’ he said. ‘I’m not afraid of anyone on this estate. I know things – the first person tries anything on me, I’ll … Well, just let them try. They haven’t seen the half of it yet.’

His manner had become aggressive again. Mal hurriedly changed the subject.

‘And I was … I was … I wanted to ask about the rat.’

That statement surprised him too.

‘Bastards,’ Francy swore. ‘It’s dead. I’d to kill it myself.’

He stared past Mal an instant.

‘D’you want to see it?’ he asked, and nodded to the sloping tin.

Mal shrank inwardly at the thought and his stomach flipped again as he remembered the hatchet and the jumbled stories of miscarriages and sucking cocks. He swallowed, and followed Francy towards the den.

‘No you don’t.’ Francy held out a big hand to halt him. ‘D’you think I’m some sort of headcase letting you in there? Wait outside.’

Passing out through the branches, Mal was engulfed in a torrent of sunlight, pouring from a sudden rent in the low summer cloud. He shivered, inexplicably, and crumpled to his knees, next to the toilet, rubbing his eyes with the backs of his hands. A moment later the rent passed on, leaving the sky once more a shifting waste of white. But long after sunspots had ceased to dance before his eyes, Mal was still gazing straight ahead, bewildered.

Beyond the dump, across the grass, a solid mass of red-brick walled in his vision. Roofs merged in strange teetering formations, half-houses, quarter-houses were grafted on to the sides of others, filling every gap, blinding every alley and driveway. He lived here, but he did not recognise this place, could not reconcile the jumble with the neatly hedged rows he walked through day to day.

‘I thought you wanted to see this?’

Francy’s voice was suspicious and challenging.

Mal turned guiltily. Francy cradled the rat in his hands; lengths of string and bootlace dangled from his belt where once the hatchet had been. He tugged on the cigarette screwed into the corner of his mouth.

‘Might have known you weren’t fucking interested.’

Mal had expected anger and was not prepared for the pained, almost sad squint in Francy’s eyes.

‘I am interested,’ he assured him. ‘Why’d you have to kill it?’

‘Why d’you think?’ Francy snapped, sitting down with a thump on the cushioned toilet seat. He laid the rat on the ground beside him and pulled the strings from his belt. ‘It was suffering – they cry, you know. There was nothing else I could do, so I broke its neck.’

He began tying together the lengths of string, his thick fingers fashioning knots of his own invention, and Mal’s attention returned to the red-bricked disorder beyond the fence.

‘Do you not think the estate looks funny?’

‘No,’ Francy said, without raising his head.

‘I’d never have believed it could look like that.’

Francy made a clucking noise at the back of his throat.

‘There’s a lot about this place you wouldn’t believe – I could teach you a thing or two.’

He hauled so hard on his cigarette that it smouldered with the dark smell of burning filter.

‘Lesson number one: when all that’ – he waved a hand in the direction of the houses – ‘was still no more than barren fields for cows to shit and sick grass in, the dump was here.’

Mal frowned. It was not so much that he found it difficult to imagine the houses not being there, to rub them out, to pluck the goalposts and the crazy-golf course from the park – though that was hard enough; but to imagine a time before they had ever been … The effort made his temples ache dully.

‘When the builders came, this was their yard – though even before that it was set apart, distinct. They drove their stakes into the ground, where the fenceposts are now, and behind corrugated iron sheets they erected their workmen’s huts and offices.’

In one fluid movement, Francy swivelled the No 6 butt from the left of his mouth to the centre and spat it some ten yards to indicate the spot.

‘There.’

Mal accepted without question that the dog-end was well aimed.

‘That was the first estate, you know: a compound of diggers, bulldozers, braziers, planks and bricks. Those houses out there all started off in here, every one of them – a million fucking pieces. And there were people of course, the workmen. Each morning they’d clock in at the site and when the weather was too bad for work they’d stay in the huts, drinking tea and playing cards, waiting. Hundreds of them: navvies, asphalters, boys for the drains and the water, others to lay the electric and the gas; and then you’re only just up to the house plots. On top of that lot you’ve your brickies, chippies, sparks and plumbers, tilers, glaziers, not forgetting every bastard type of foreman, overlooker and white-collar worker you’d care to mention.’

He spat a dry spit.

‘Hundreds of them. And they’d be out sometimes in the winter before the fucking sun was right up. Day in, day out, week after week, for months on end, they dug up earth, put down foundations, put down pipes, connected mains and cables, churned cement in hand-turned mixers, laid bricks, battened floors, framed doors, wired up, roofed in and planed off, until the whole fucking lot was finished. Out of nothing from this compound they raised an estate: streets, roads, parks, avenues, drives, cul-de-sacs; houses, detached and semi-detached, on the high ground at the front, terraced row upon terraced row down here at the back. And all in the same time that it takes to make a baby, dipping to dropping.’

His beady eyes probed Mal.

‘Except, of course, you can’t make a baby with just men, as you well know.’

Mal blushed, looking at the ground. Francy rummaged in his butt box and struck a match.

‘For a week it stood like that …’

Francy began talking again and Mal, who had expected something else, lifted his head, relieved. Eager too. In Francy’s words he had seen the estate grow, brick by brick.

‘… stood complete and empty, while the workmen dismantled the yard. They loaded the huts and braziers, tar burners, mixers, planks and bricks on to trucks. The stakes surrounding the compound were uprooted and the corrugated iron sheets that had filled the gaps between them were piled high and driven to new sites. And on the last day, with the first cars and vans already nosing along the newly tarmacked streets, a workman steered the sole remaining bulldozer to one end of the now bare yard and there, at the foot of an ancient willow tree, shovelled earth, grass, broken wood and brick dust and covered in the piss trench.’

Mal’s eyes opened wide in recognition. He jumped to his feet, dusting the seat of his trousers. Francy cackled and hackled a smoke spit.

‘Man, dear, that was fifteen years ago. The tree hasn’t suffered, has it? And the grass grows well enough here.’

He tied a final knot in the strings he had painstakingly been twisting together, attaching a long black football lace to the rope of assorted colours.

‘And this rat’ – he lifted it by the tail – ‘didn’t die of fucking piss poison. Did it?’

‘No,’ Mal said quietly. ‘It didn’t.’

‘Didn’t is fucking right,’ Francy snarled. ‘It was people killed this rat. Lesson number two: rats never kill for fun.’

He spat, absent-mindedly, the cigarette stub he had lit only moments before. It spiralled through the air, trailing smoke, like a strafed bomber, and crashed against the neck of a grass-green bottle.

‘That nearly went in,’ Mal told him.

‘What?’ Francy screwed up his face. ‘Oh, yeah. I can get them in most times. When I remember.’

Mal didn’t doubt it. They watched the butt’s glowing tip slide down the glass and fizzle in the long tangled grass, where even at this hour the dew had not yet lifted.

‘Anyway’ – Francy placed the rat on his lap – ‘the story. The builders slipped unnoticed through the back here, while the people, owners of the houses they’d made, entered the estate by the front. And fuck did the people ever come. Can you imagine it?’

Mal tried, couldn’t, shook his head.

They came from everywhere: from Newtownards Road, Beersbridge Road and Ballymacarrett in the east; from Ardoyne, the Oldpark, Legoniel, in the north; from Ormeau, Annadale, Sandy Row, the Village, in the south; and in the west, from Shankill, Springfield, Woodvale – aye, and even a few from the Falls and Whiterock Road.’

Francy winked, leaning forward, licking spittle from the corner of his mouth.

‘And we’re not yet out of the city limits, haven’t begun to consider the ones who came from the towns round about: from Bangor and Lisburn, Carrick, Larne, Ballymena, Downpatrick, Portadown. Beyond that too: from Armagh, Dungannon and Omagh, Enniskillen, Newry, Strabane, Derry – and all the countryside in between; people that had scarcely ever seen a town, never mind a city.’

He paused again.

‘You’d think that’d be an end to it, wouldn’t you?’

Mal, his mind reeling with the vision of the hordes conjured by Francy bearing down on the empty estate, nodded dumbly.

‘Not a bit of it,’ he said. ‘There were the lost ones as well; the ones who’d emigrated when they were young, had had their fill and now wanted to settle down.’

He shook one end of the rope.

‘They felt the tug: felt it in Glasgow, Liverpool, Manchester, Birmingham, London; felt it in Toronto, Chicago, New York, Detroit, Wellington, Sydney, Perth and places whose names you’ve never in your life dreamed of. They felt the tug, like they all do eventually, and were drawn back to Belfast, to a space less than Belfast: an area of a quarter square mile, a collection of detached, semi-detached and terraced houses, in a network of avenues, parks, cul-de-sacs, roads and streets, raised from nothing out of the fields in the time it takes to make a baby; bounded by main roads on three sides and by a poxy wood, trailing into a dump, at its arse end.’

Francy smiled broadly for the first time. His teeth were yellow, going green at the gums.

‘Now, I bet you’re wondering why,’ he said.

But the question wouldn’t have entered Mal’s head. He was young and listened to those who were older, even those only a few – or was it more? – years older, like Francy, in the same way that he read books. He followed the words, letting them guide him. The patterns they made were the patterns of his thoughts, he was not aware of any alternatives. Indeed, listening to Francy was like reading a book, or, at least, like hearing teachers talk who had taught so long from the same book that its language had become theirs. Though, of course, teachers didn’t swear, and neither did books; not the ones that Mal had read at any rate.

‘Well?’ asked Francy. ‘Aren’t you wondering why? Or even how I know all this?’

Mal was young, the words of others were his guides. And now they suggested he wonder why, how.

‘Why?’ he wondered aloud. ‘How?’

Francy rocked back in his seat.

‘As to how,’ he said, tapping the side of his nose slyly. ‘That’s for me to know and you to find out. But, as to why …’

He closed one eye and tilted his head sideways, scrutinising Mal.

‘Well, look, they grew up in the war, most of the people that bought houses on this estate. In the war or in the thirties. Not much to fucking choose between the two if you’re from Northern Ireland. There were riots in the thirties, you know, things that make the stuff today look normal – house-burnings, killings, the lot. Bit like the war, only without the uniforms and on your own doorstep. The war had that going for it: by and large it happened somewhere else. And then, it wasn’t as bad as the first one – no trenches, or any of that shit, not the same danger of the men coming home all packed up in their old kitbags. And there was work too in the war, unlike the thirties. So, if you could put up with the blackout, the ration books, and the odd air raid … well, things could’ve been worse. Still and all, they danced in the streets and sang when it was over. Because we’d won. Good old we.

‘But after the celebrations, when the rationing continued and the work didn’t, people started to catch themselves on. Whole areas had gone’ – he snapped his fingers – ‘phut! And there they were having to live in prefabs or with their relatives … Suddenly just winning didn’t seem to be enough. And it wasn’t only the usual sort complained. D’you see what I’m getting at?’

Mal looked as serious as he knew how, but his expression of understanding was hopelessly transparent.

‘People,’ Francy explained carefully, ‘will accept war if you can convince them the hardship’s worthwhile. But they’re not going to be too happy when they find out the better world they’ve been fighting for’s just the same old world over again. Right?’

‘Right,’ Mal agreed.

‘So, what do you do?’

Teacher trick. Lull you and lead you with their book language, then spring a question. Mal took his time, recapping all he had heard to avoid any error in his reply.

‘You change it?’ he offered at length.

Francy’s broad purple tongue circled the outer ring of his lips, preening the thick down. He sucked a cavity in the recesses of his mouth, watching Mal.

‘Aye,’ he said. ‘You change it.’

He continued talking, but it seemed to Mal as though he were losing interest in his own story.

‘What was needed? Jobs? Jobs it was. Not so many as in the war, but more than before it. And what else? Houses. Can’t have people living in the ruined shells from war and riots – pull them down. Pull them down and build modern houses, estates full of them, on the outskirts of the city, away from the old memories. That’s what they did. Then, they waited to see what happened. And what happened? The people flocked to them. And they flocked here, to Larkview, to a ready-made community.’

Francy lit a heel-flattened scrap of cigar, puffing on it like it was a cigarette, raising clouds of smoke – green, blue, brown – that obscured his face. Then, with a sudden deep breath, he sucked all the smoke inside him, up his nose, down his throat, exhaling a moment later a single off-white stream.

‘Finished,’ he said, rising.

He held the string above his head; it bounced taut, knots tightening with the weight of the rat hanging by its tail.

‘What d’you think?’

The rat had already begun to stiffen, but Mal was no longer frightened by it. Its tail, entwined in the lengths of string, was not the whiplash he had always envisaged. After killing the rat, Francy pushed as many of the broken bones as he was able back into place; it bulged awkwardly here and there, but remained intact within its smoothed grey-brown fur. Only with the mouth was Francy unable to do anything. The lips were peeled back grotesquely and two small yellow teeth protruded over a strip of pink tongue.

‘This,’ said Francy, ‘is a charm.’

‘Really?’ Mal asked.

Francy cackled until the phlegm rose in his throat.

‘Really and truly. See how useful rats are, even dead ones? If you tie this round you and wear it everywhere you go for a week, it’ll not only bring you luck, but tell you, too, what the future holds.’

Mal looked at the rat rope doubtfully. The problem wasn’t that he didn’t believe what Francy told him (he did, although he wasn’t quite sure he understood perfectly) but that, much as his terror of rats had diminished, he couldn’t see himself trailing one behind him for a whole week. Francy, however, forestalled his objections.

‘Oh, don’t worry, I’m not wasting this on you. No chance. Too ashamed to wear a rat, aren’t you? I’ll bet you’d even be ashamed to be seen with me.’

He took the cigar from the tip of his tongue and flicked the burning end off with a red-haired, orange-stained finger, popping the remainder into his mouth. He chewed noisily, a rivulet of bitsy juice trickling down his chin.

‘I wouldn’t,’ Mal said, his voice little more than a whisper. ‘I want to be your friend.’

Francy grinned, teeth now smeared with a film of brown mucus, and spat, heavily this time, straight down. A thick, chewed splodge landed at his feet and he ground it into the grass with his baseball boot.

‘The rat charm will decide,’ he said.

He crossed the mound and dragged Mal to his feet. Hitching Mal’s shirt, Francy passed the string twice around his waist, knotting one end to a back belt loop. He let go and the rat thudded on the grass. Mal’s jeans were tugged tight against him, with a force that made him first gasp, then colour deeply. Francy swayed from side to side, mumbling incoherently, untied the rat and repeated the ritual on himself.

‘Right, then,’ he told Mal. ‘Fuck off.’

Mal glanced at him, hurt.

‘But can’t I …’

‘Come back? A week from now, like I said. And not before, mind. The message of the rat will be clear by then – provided, that is, you don’t mention to another living soul that you’ve been here and seen me. Now, beat it. I’ve got to find some smokes.’

He birled Mal around so that he faced the houses and placed his open hands at the sides of his head, blinkering his eyes.

‘Keep going in a straight line, it’s easier. And don’t stop till you’re at the fence.’

Reluctantly, Mal set off, endeavouring to stick to Francy’s path of compacted rubbish, cutting out the worst of the brambles and nettle banks. This morning, he thought, all of this – the dump, the rats, Francy himself – had been part of another world, a world known to him through others’ stories and his own imaginings. One afternoon, the like of which he had never before lived through, had changed all that. Now, he was learning its secrets. And there was the sensation in his privates, when Francy let go the rope, straining his trousers against them. He had glimpsed for an instant the vague outlines of still another world; but the faint image quickly died, and he was left once more with the half-remembered, barely understood mutterings of the older boys.

He had reached the end of the track. It occurred to him that Francy hadn’t thought to ask his name. He spun on his heel, intending to go back, but the toilet was gone from before the willow and Francy was nowhere to be seen. He turned again and paused, staring at the estate. It did look odd from there. The angle was to blame, of course; he wasn’t used to it. He climbed the fence and started up the cul-de-sac to the hill. Tomorrow would be time enough for giving the bonfire another go.