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ENDORSEMENTS

“In the book, 122 LOVE LETTERS from the Throne of Grace, Nichole brings out the very heart of God to the people. She ushers in a voice that speaks to the very spirit of humanity and brings an awakening and a fire to the embers buried deep inside. This devotional will help bring healing to the broken-hearted and will restore faith back to those who have been in hopelessness. I highly recommend Nichole and her work in the Kingdom of God. She is a jewel to the Father.”

“Nichole’s new devotional book is filled with beautiful revelation about God’s love and goodness. I know that these pages will bless you and fill your heart with peace as you read and meditate upon His Word.”

“I have found Nichole’s daily devotional to be heartfelt, transparent and powerful. Her simple, intimate sharing style speaks right into the heart and soul of those who desire to know the heartbeat of their Heavenly Father. I recommend this book to anyone from the most broken, to the most mature. This book will help anyone, from all walks of life, in all levels of relationship with God to grow closer in intimacy with Him.”

“Nichole’s daily devotional is an invitation to come as a child and step into the tender, unfailing, relentless love of God. To all who come, He will meet you as you read these words.”

“Nichole’s devotional radiates hope that love can change a soul and inspire abundant living. The overwhelming love of the Father has transformed Nichole’s life and can transform yours, too. Welcome to the love of Abba, our Heavenly Daddy. These devotions testify to the river of love flowing from His throne to our hearts. His love knows no bounds!”

“122 LOVE LETTERS from the Throne of Grace reveals the character of God and the depth of His unconditional love for all creation. This book can bring life, encouragement, and spiritual understanding to the reader. Nichole, may God’s blessings rest upon this tremendous work and those who read it because of your obedience and His great love.”

“Nichole’s new book, ‘122 LOVE LETTERS from the Throne of Grace’ is a wonderful devotional book. Nichole writes from such a personal place out of her walk with her Heavenly Father. God is a personal God and her letters show his heart and kindness to His children. I encourage you to read these letters every morning and then think upon your Heavenly Father all day long for He is truly thinking of you.”

“Knowing God’s tender love for you is vital. ‘122 LOVE LETTERS from the Throne of Grace’ by Nichole Marbach will introduce you to deeper realms of His love and grace. Expect encounter!”

I so recommend this book, 122 Love Letters from the Throne of Grace. It was truly birthed from the Throne Room of God.” I met Nichole at a Glory School and have gotten to know her personally. She is the real deal! I suggest anyone who wishes to understand their destiny to get this book.”

ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS

I would like to express my deepest appreciation to my Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ, for enduring the cross, buying me back, becoming my sin, purchasing my entire inheritance, and setting me completely free from all sickness and bondage. Jesus, You are and will always be Lord of my life. Your love has truly set me free to live.

I am eternally grateful for my wonderful husband, Claude, for standing by me in my darkest hour. He showed me the love of Christ, and I thank him with all of my heart. I am so grateful to our Heavenly Daddy that we are now reaping the blessings of sticking together for better or for worse. I would also like to thank my three beautiful children, Tiphanie, Lexy, and Lucas for supporting me during the process of writing this book. You are all precious to me, and I love you with all of my heart.

I would especially like to thank my close friend and ministry partner, Lisa Lato, for how she has helped me grow spiritually. Lisa has helped me to understand in a deeper way the blessings of the cross and Christ’s love for me. I am so grateful for all the laughter and joy we have shared together and know there will be many more times. Your mentoring, wisdom, honesty, and friendship continue to be a huge gift in my life. I know Heavenly Father put us together for “such a time as this.” Thank you for being such a faithful, loyal, loving friend.

I would like to thank Ernie and Diana Welchel of Glory Crown Ministries. The Lord has used you to equip me to do the works of the Kingdom and to help me step out in faith in the prophetic. Your desire to see broken, hurting people healed and set free by Jesus has touched my heart in a deep way. Thank you for being in my life and for continuing to help me go higher spiritually. You are a blessing to me and the entire Body of Christ.

Special thanks from my heart to Mark and Cathy Kuntz, my XP Pastors, for their continued support of me writing these love letters. Christ’s love shines through both of them, and they are a huge blessing to me and to many others. Thank you for your unconditional love and acceptance and encouragement to get these devotionals out to the Body of Christ, and for helping me to walk into my destiny. I am very grateful to have you in my life.

I would also like to thank Fred and Ingrid De Jong and Kimm and Ken Oostman for their support, love, and friendship. I am grateful for how you showed our family the love of Christ during a very difficult time in our lives. You will always have a special place in my heart.

I would like to thank my mom for showing me Jesus. Mom, your love for Him is a shining light for all to see and I want to thank you for all of your prayers that have made a huge difference in my life. I love you very much.

Thank you to Anita Pickelheimer for sharing the truth with me that our God is the God of the impossible, which set me on the course to freedom from bondage. I am forever grateful to you!

I would also like to sincerely thank Bonny San Hamel for prophesying a word to me that greatly encouraged me and gave me confidence to step out in the prophetic and set me on a path to hearing the Lord’s voice more accurately at a crucial time in my life. The prophetic word from the Lord through Bonny has been a huge gift and I thank you for blessing me and many others in the Body of Christ.

I would like to say a special thanks to Patricia King for being such an encouragement to the Body of Christ in too many ways to list. Her joy of the Lord and love of the Father is contagious and shines through her wherever she goes and whenever she speaks. Thank you, Patricia, for your heart and dedication to be the hands and feet of Jesus not only to the Body of Christ, but also to lost and broken people around the world. You were created for such a time as this to be a blessing to many people.

I would also like to thank Carol Martinez of XP Publishing for her time, patience, and help during the process of publishing this book. In addition, I am very grateful for Jim Wies, my XP editor, for believing in this book. Jim, thank you very much for all of your encouragement, ideas, and wisdom that helped this book to come alive. You were a huge gift from the Lord during this whole process and a real joy to work with. I am very grateful for all you have done.

SPECIAL ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS

I would like to say a special thank you from my heart to Jeremy Lopez, founder of Identity Network, for his love, faithfulness, and dedication to the Body of Christ. Jeremy gave me a prophetic word in June 2009 that prophesied this devotional book. Part of the word is as follows:

The Lord said, “Daughter I want you to begin to start using your hands. For I have given you the power to write, and I have given you the power to begin to write things down.” I hear the Lord say, “I’m even going to cause you to begin to write, you can call it poetry, you can call it love notes, you can call it whatever, but I have given you the power to write, daughter. I want you to start writing down things that I will place in your spirit.”

“Daughter, you are going to begin to write things, and write things for other people,” God said, “because other people need to know my love. Daughter, I want you to begin to write things down and send them out as letters to people who are hurting and going through a hard time.” God said, “That way they can open up these letters in their own homes, in the privacy of their own home, and they will begin to read.” And God said, “That way My Spirit can come in when it’s just them and Me, and My Spirit will begin to draw them closer and let them understand how much I love them.”

“Daughter, I have given you a writing ability and I want you to begin to execute. I want you to begin to carry out that command of writing not just for Me, daughter, but for My people as well.”

And the Lord says, “Daughter, I’ve summoned you for such a time as this. You are not a mistake,” says the Lord. “Yes, you have been in a place in your life where you have been rejected, and you know what it is like to be rejected. Even though I never ordained for you to walk through rejection, through that rejection and through that test, I will build a great testimony.”

This word from our Heavenly Daddy through Jeremy strengthened and encouraged me numerous times during the course of writing this book. Jeremy, thank you for being such a blessing to the Body of Christ and using your incredible spiritual gifts to encourage and uplift Daddy’s children. Thank you for prophesying our Heavenly Father’s heart of love over the Body of Christ.

EDITOR’S FOREWORD

I was enthused when I was invited to write a foreword for this very inspiring volume by Nichole Marbach. There are many books available today ABOUT prophetic ministry but few that ARE prophetic ministry - prophetic ministry being simply defined as “God talking to somebody, through somebody.” This book is one continuous prophetic feast and is literally page after page of edification, exhortation and comfort straight from the heart of God and His throne of grace.

But it is not for the hurried speed reader. Designed to be a daily devotional, each daily prophetic message needs to be pondered and savored and allowed to fully impact the reader with the messages of grace that are so adeptly communicated.

As you take the time to ponder these words, you will receive fresh insight as Nichole unveils the “Daddy” heart of God through these letters, and offers glimpse after glimpse into His heart of love and grace. And for those who want to grow in their own prophetic gifting, this book offers great examples of how God talks to His “kids” with words that are full of mercy and affection.

When one embraces the responsibility to be an oracle for God, it is of vital importance to first of all, know God’s heart in order to rightly represent Him. Quite evident throughout this book is the fact that Nichole has drawn close to God and has captured His heart of unrelenting love, forgiveness and acceptance toward us, His children.

It is also true that the deepest messages are very often born out of the greatest struggles and most difficult trials of life. Nichole’s own personal trials and triumph has given her some important things to say to the Body of Christ. Messages that are simple, yet simply profound. We should love God because He so deeply loves us. We should enjoy Him because He thoroughly enjoys us. We should offer unconditional love and acceptance to others because that is what He offers us. We should yearn for intimacy with Him because He so yearns for intimacy with us.

Thank you, Nichole, for caring enough for the Body of Christ to share out of your own personal moments of intimacy and insight the things that you have learned, visions you have received and the words you have heard from your Savior and Lord.

MY TESTIMONY OF HEALING

For years, I looked like a typical wife and mother who had it all together. I adored my children and was a stay at home mom. I also had a loving husband and we looked like we had a perfect life to everyone around us. However, after years of stuffing extreme emotional pain, I could no longer hold it in and pretend that everything was fine. I slowly started losing my mind. In addition to extreme anger and anxiety, including panic attacks and depression, I started numbing with alcohol on a daily basis so that I wouldn’t feel the emotional pain or hear the racing voices in my head.

I was eventually diagnosed with alcoholism and many mental illnesses, including bipolar disorder by three different doctors. I was also addicted to self-injury and even received stitches in one of my wrists at one point. I was in so much pain that I didn’t care if I lived or died. The voices in my head told me that I needed to punish myself for being such a horrible person who continually disappointed God and everyone around me. I even attempted to take my life and wrote too many goodbye letters to count. I felt so much guilt, shame, and self-hatred because all I wanted to do was self-destruct. The voices in my head told me my family would be better off without me, and I believed them. Even though I was a believer who had an incredible, supportive husband, three beautiful kids, many friends, and no financial worries, I felt no hope of ever being free from the constant torment in my mind.

After many times in inpatient and outpatient therapy, I still struggled to find some peace and was suicidal almost every day for years. The temporary peace I felt after finishing different programs, meetings, medication changes, and therapy never lasted. I prayed and read the Bible whenever I could focus, yet I still could not find the peace I was desperately searching for. I also started bingeing on food almost every night to escape the mental torment and gained a lot of weight. All I wanted to do was escape the extreme emotional pain I could not get rid of, no matter how hard I tried.

I was told that the diseases I struggled with were incurable, so my only desire for years was for them to be managed enough to give me the desire to live for myself and my family. However, after years of many relapses and trying everything possible to find some lasting stability in my life, I finally received the revelation of this truth— that God didn’t give me these sicknesses, and He wanted me well, and He alone is the way to true, lasting peace (Isaiah 53:5). I also learned that I was struggling with the kingdom of darkness (Ephesians 6:12), which wanted to steal, kill, and destroy me (John 10:10). I realized that only Jesus and His name, above all names, could set me free! I received the revelation that being a child of God entitled me to be able to kick the enemy out of my life because Jesus defeated him on the cross (Colossians 2:15). I finally understood that healing, not sickness, is part of the inheritance Jesus purchased for me on the cross. After kicking the enemy out of my life, I started learning how to take authority over him anytime he tries to come to steal something that is mine; especially my peace. I also had to learn to take every thought and lie of the enemy captive and renew my mind with the truth of the Word of God (2 Corinthians 10:4-5). The Word of God says that I have the “mind of Christ (1 Corinthians 2:16)” and a “sound mind (2 Timothy 1:7 - “For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind.” - KJ).” I chose to start putting my faith in the Word of God and started soaking up everything it says about my inheritance through Jesus Christ. I was amazed at all the things I didn’t know were in the Bible about healing, deliverance, the kingdom of darkness, faith, etc., even though I had been going to church for most of my life. I continued and still continue to fill myself with the Lord’s life-giving words of the Bible, which are life and healing to all who find them. (Proverbs 4:20-22).

After receiving healing and deliverance, I was finally ready and able to let Heavenly Father fill me with His passionate love. In addition, after suffering from insomnia almost my whole life to the extent that I required medication to sleep, I finally have the peace to be able to sleep through the night, medication free. I was also able to go off the numerous medications (up to 7 at one point) that I had to take every day for years and have been medication free for a number of years now. I believe with all of my heart that Jesus and His finished work of the cross is the way to true, lasting peace, healing, and wholeness.

Over the years that followed, I have hungered and cried out to the Lord in desperation for a deeper revelation of Christ’s love, which is our inheritance in Christ. And my Heavenly Father has been more than faithful to answer. Experiencing His love and acceptance of me has shown me how to extend grace, love, and acceptance to myself instead of wanting to self-destruct. Being able to experience His love and knowing Him as My Daddy has been my greatest healing, setting me free to live an abundant life. My identity has also shifted from all of the labels I was given, to simply being a child of God. Receiving the truth of who I am in Christ more and more over the years has given me so much freedom to be the woman that He created me to be. I finally have the joy I was searching for deep down in my soul.

I have also learned that our Heavenly Daddy is not a God who sits on the throne constantly disappointed in His children with a frown on His face every time we fail. Rather, He is a God of joy who loves and accepts us all the time! He is in a great mood! He is so much fun to be around, and I can be myself with Him. He loves to play little jokes on me, and I have more fun with Him than anyone. Knowing His fun side has brought me so much happiness and healing. There is no one I would rather spend time with than Him, and this intimacy has totally set me free.

Our Heavenly Daddy has also shown me Jesus and the finished work of the cross, and what it means for me as a New Covenant child. Receiving revelation of what Jesus purchased for me has radically turned my mourning into dancing. Focusing on Jesus and His finished work of the cross (1 Corinthians 2:2) has filled me with a joy that I never knew existed. Keeping my eyes on Him rather than myself, has brought me peace, joy, and liberty and has helped me to experience His extreme love—the only way to true freedom and lasting peace. Knowing it will take me an eternity to grasp His amazing love, I continually hunger and pray for a deeper revelation of Jesus and His finished work. He is faithful to answer, and it continues to remain an exciting journey, filling my life with bliss and replacing the constant sorrow and depression I once felt. Life is good with Jesus!

No matter what situation you are in right now, never give up hope! Our God is the God of the impossible! He wants us to live a life that is beyond our wildest imaginations. He wants us to receive everything that Jesus purchased at Calvary and take back everything the enemy has stolen because of His passionate love for us. It is finished and done! Jesus did it all for us. What good news for God’s beloved children!

INTRODUCTION

Ephesians 3:16-19 (NLT) – “I pray that from his glorious, unlimited resources he will empower you with inner strength through his Spirit. Then Christ will make his home in your hearts as you trust in him. Your roots will grow down into God’s love and keep you strong. And may you have the power to understand, as all God’s people should, how wide, how long, how high, and how deep his love is. May you experience the love of Christ, though it is too great to understand fully. Then you will be made complete with all the fullness of life and power that comes from God.”

This devotional book was created to be read daily and not all at once. I suggest that you read one daily devotional and then do the journaling for that day. The various journaling exercises will help draw you into deeper intimacy with Heavenly Daddy, Jesus, and Holy Spirit. I recommend that you take as much time as you need each day soaking up these words and visions, doing the exercises, and meditating on the Scriptures. My prayer is that you will be blessed, touched, and forever transformed by receiving a deeper revelation of the Father’s love. If that is your desire, say the following prayer:

Heavenly Daddy, I pray that Your Holy Spirit will touch me as I am reading these precious words from You. I pray that emotional healing would take place and that these words would sink deep into my spirit. May I receive a deeper revelation of the burning, passionate love of Christ for me. May I know You as “Daddy” and be transformed from the inside out. Father, let these words break off any lies that I have been believing about You. I pray that I would experience Your peace, joy, and love until it overflows in my life. May I see myself through Your eyes. In Jesus’ precious name, Amen!

~Day 1~

I WILL NOT LEAVE YOU AS ORPHANS

“Come to Me, My children, My precious children. Let the fatherless and the abandoned ones come to Me, and I will comfort them. I am the God of all comfort. Come, let Me love you the way you were destined to be loved. Come, let Me heal your broken, wounded hearts. Come, let Me hold you in My loving arms the way you were meant to be held.

“Let Me lavish My love on you. Let Me fill the void left by the wounds of your earthly fathers. I am your Father, but I love it when you call Me ‘Daddy.’ In the name ‘Daddy’ is intimacy and relationship. Don’t be afraid to call Me your Daddy, your Abba Father.

“There is healing for you when you cry out ‘Daddy.’ There is security for you when you cry out, ‘Daddy.’ There is joy for you when you realize that I am your Daddy. There is victory for you when you cry out, ‘Daddy!’

“I created you to be My child so that I could love on you, take care of you, and be in intimate relationship with you. Come, rest in your Heavenly Daddy’s arms right now.”

Heavenly Father, I want to know You as my Heavenly Daddy. I want the intimacy that is in the word “Daddy.” Daddy, I pray that You would heal all of my childhood wounds with Your love and that You would fill the void that no earthly father could ever fill. Help me to know You as the only perfect parent that can provide for all of my needs. From this moment on, I will think of You as my “Daddy.” In Jesus’ name, Amen.

*Keep saying throughout the day, “I have the best Daddy in the world. I am His precious, beloved child that He adores. My identity is in being His child. I am His favored one.”

~Day 2~

LET ME BE YOUR DADDY!

“Child, I want to be the Daddy you have always dreamed of having. I want to show you that I have always thought of you as My special child that I dearly desired. Your name is even engraved on the palm of My hand, and I show it off in Heaven! No one can remove your name from My hand, no one! Do you know that I even talk about you? I talk about how special you are to Me. You are always on My mind. You never leave My thoughts. You never leave My eyes. That is how special you are to Me.

“Come to Me! Let Me be your Daddy. Come talk to Me. Come cry to Me. Come and let Me hold you until you realize I am holding you like a father holds a child in his arms of protection.

“Come under My wings! I will protect you from the storms of life. Under My wings, you will find rest during the storms. Only under My wings will you find the rest and peace you have been searching for. I protect you even more than an eagle protects her babies in the nest. That protective instinct that humans and animals feel towards their babies comes from Me. That is how I feel about you, but My love and protection is so much greater. You are a special treasure that I want to protect. Come under My wings, and you will feel Me protecting you and keeping you safe.”

Heavenly Daddy, thank You for reminding me that I am not a mistake and I was truly Your desire. Thank You for reminding me that I am special in Your eyes and I never leave Your thoughts. Help me to remember that, under Your wings, I will find rest and peace through all the storms that come my way. Father, help me to feel Your loving arms of love around me right now. In Jesus’ precious name, Amen.

*Spend some time thanking Him for being your Daddy. If you are still feeling wounded in any way about your earthly father, give it over to Him today and let Him fill that void and heal you. Let Him show you that He is the best Daddy you could ever have. Tell Him how much you need Him and feel His heartbeat of love for you.

~Day 3~

CHILD, COME AND STAY AWHILE!

“My precious child whom I adore, come and sit with Me and stay awhile. I long for your presence. Child, when you sit at My feet, stay! Stay for awhile! Often, you are rushed, and you become distracted with all you need to do for the day. However, I say come and sit awhile and let Me bless you and fill you with My presence and strength so that you can effortlessly make it through the day.

“Come and let Me give you your daily manna. I am the bread of life! In your daily manna, I have provided everything you need. Come, receive your daily spiritual food. Each day I will give you something new and different. Come, take and receive your spiritual nourishment for the day. Come in My presence and receive what you need. The only thing I ask is that you stay awhile.

A DEVOTIONAL JOURNAL

122
Love Letters
from the
Throne of Grace

NICHOLE MARBACH

ENDORSEMENTS

ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS

SPECIAL ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS

TABLE OF CONTENTS

EDITOR’S FOREWORD

MY TESTIMONY OF HEALING

INTRODUCTION

~Day 1~

I WILL NOT LEAVE YOU AS ORPHANS

~Day 2~

LET ME BE YOUR DADDY!

~Day 3~

CHILD, COME AND STAY AWHILE!