Journey of a Maturation Rollercoaster
Copyright © 2018 by Grequan Carter

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ISBN: 978-1-54393-739-8 (Print)
ISBN: 978-1-54393-740-4 (eBook)

Vocabulary Reference

Throughout this book you may experience language you’re unfamiliar with. I’m fully aware of words that are presented as misspelled. This reference page consist of words utilized throughout the book and their corresponding meaning.

Thot- refers to a woman that is easily persuaded to engage in sexual acts or voluntarily offers to do so with multiple individuals they just met or previously met. Or all of the above. (Guys can be identified in this term as well.)

Gunna- going to.

Gotta- got to.

Tryna- trying to.

Boutta- about to.

Cuz- because.

Sus- is acting suspicious or not right.

Imma- im going to.

Gon- going to.

Grilling- intense eye contact.

Lit- Being in an upbeat mood or something being cool or fun.

Facts- is a true statement or agreeing with something.

Dogma- a principle that you cannot deny that it is true.

Flexing- showing off or displaying personal gear, like clothes or a car.

Thee- you.

Subterfuge- deceit in order to achieve ones goal.

Lackin- not being on point, slacking, not paying attention, lack of awareness to any situation or not doing what you have to do to progress.

Bread- form of money.

Cop something- purchasing/buying something.

Popped off- a male performing sexual acts to a female or a crisis happening at the spur of the moment.

Popped on- aggressively attacking someone or getting aggressively attacked.

Kat(s)- refers to a person or multiple people.

Hit- a past tense word that means that you or someone had sexual intercourse with someone.

Debo- a character from the movie “Friday” who is the neighborhood bully, who happens to be cross eyed. He also got knocked out by another character named Craig.

Celow- a dice game that utilizes 3 dice.

Neck- is a blowjob.

Breeze- is to leave from somewhere.

Gear- is any type of clothing or accessory.

“I’m feeling you”- means I like you.

“Held it down”- looked out for someone in a good way. (Hold it down is the present tense.)

I wanted to start off by saying, the fact that you even have this book in your possession has made you worthy of me expressing my appreciation for you! Whether you love, like, hate or don’t know me at all I still appreciate you! What motivated me to write this book are people like you. Everyone has their own uniqueness and I find that very intriguing. Especially if I had the opportunity to meet you, got to know you, or had an intimate moment with you. You’re reading this book because you’re meant to read it. Everything happens for a reason. Plus, you’ll get exposure to a perspective I’m sure will relate to you in some way.

This book consist of me talking in a poetic voice throughout. Prepare yourself for a variety of voices, used to express different points. If you become puzzled, refer to the Vocabulary Reference page. This book requires you to think! To think and reflect upon yourself, and also the perspective of other individuals as well.

The goal is to help you look inside of yourself and find appreciation, courage, confidence, empathy, acceptance, inclusion and most importantly love! You may not experience all of the above, but if you absorb at least one, I’m SURE it’ll help progress some aspect of your life. You deserve to experience happiness within your life. Reading this book and consciously absorbing the information will guide a closer path to your happiness.

Read pieces more than once! I want you to get the most from this book. Ask yourself, what does this mean? How does this relate to me? Now that I read that, what should I do? Depending on who you are, will determine how much action is taken. Just know action is required! Whether its word of mouth, writing something down or you physically doing something for yourself or another, something needs to be done. There is always room for growth in all of us. For example, when reading:

My brain brings brilliant bold thoughts about a beautiful blissful world but abandon by its people because nature is boring and broadcasting belligerent buffoons battling is better –G. Carter

What goes through your mind after reading that? What does that poem mean to you? Constantly think of those questions after reading a piece. Then read it again.

Throughout the book you will come across hands-on activities for you to participate in. I was a REC major in college so I’m all about having fun and playing games, and I want to share that with you. Plus the activities will help increase your pattern recognition ability, leading to you being able to put more meaning behind the pieces you’ll read.

Enjoy!

Ball is Life

I ball so hard its abuse

I gun it from a left angle

Call me obtuse

My game on point

Like I’m A.I

So if you guard me too close bet imma go by

I rise up

Damn

Gre fly

Tryna jump with me I dare you to try

Get dunked on I’m Vince in his prime

Passes on Rondo I’m nice with the dimes

Tony Allen flow ill lock a nigga up

Cut to the hoop lob city going up

MJ era that’s where I wanna be

Novak fever so you know I wet the three

Take the game over

Yea I’m so Kobe

MVP winner so you know I took the trophy

Bankshot I’m Duncan

Blake Griff I stay dunking

Call your girl LBJ cuz she constantly chocking

I’m hungry and hard working

My nickname should be Jokim

Niggas hating on me cuz their jump shot really broken

Watching on the side as my jump shot steady stroking

Coach he won’t pass the ball

Don’t worry he working

3-2-1

I hit the game winner

I only had 22 Tiago Splinter

I crossover he hit the ground

These wild bitches is on me now

They get low and they blow me down

I’m the hottest nigga in the town

–GreakaDisrespectful

Hoes Illusion

Got this Chinese bitch name Chi Lee

She flexible and freaky

I smack her ass while her butt in my face I’m calling her Rikishi

All my hoes give good neck

Anna Marie my fuck pet

Jackie Lisa Tonya Debra my splish-splash crew cuz they so wet

Me and my sons we taking over

Get high get lucky call it four leaf clover

Got hoes on deck and we bend them over

I blew Ivy so call me Hova

Got Ashley who like sex toys

That Woody Light-Years Bulls Eye

Got Tiffani who like bad boys

She diddy-bop I pop that’s cream pie

Got Ronda and Rashawnda,

Got a thick black bitch from Rwanda

Got a hoe bitch

She a slow trick that take pride when she blow dick

When I see a MILF I take her down

Now she singing no Chris Brown

Imma big deal and I got bread so I call Tyra B for some 4 head

–GreakaDisrespectful

Succeed from Struggle

I’m living a life I know isn’t for me. Oblivious to the eye, because I look kind of fly, but in reality I’m just hardly getting by. Bad bathroom, broken brooms, burnt bread and a bed hard as baboon that bruises my back is brutality! Filth frequently filling our living facility forcing false familiarities about how we function frustrates mom dukes. In order to progress, I will optimize myself with optimist and obviate obstacles. I will need an optimistic mentality. I’m educated and have the knowledge to succeed. But to grow I must have an idea and plant it as a seed.

–GC

Hood Antics

Late night walk from the park

Got stopped by the cops

They asked why you out so late?

Told em I was playing in the park

Just working on my moves

Going hard

I’m tryna be great.

Cop said did you see a kid with a black hoodie on

Pants low with a gun at the waist?

I said nope,

They looked at me like a joke,

And sped off like a fucking speed boat.

I walked straight

Then I made a right

Then I made a left

Walked straight then I saw my nigga Drew.

He pulled up

Hoodie up

Slow walk

Pants low

Eyes red and asked me what I’m boutta do?

I told him I’m about to eat good,

Got some mac and cheese

I eat good in the hood.

Can I bump thru?

Nigga come thru,

We can play 2k if you want to.

But hold up cuz you smell like weed and mom dukes not having that on the scene.

He said cool lets chill in the back I need to lay low and chill for sec.

We sat down, then he had a frown.

I looked at him and said what’s going down?

Boy the shit that happened to me is the same reason why you can’t be in the streets.

The hood talks and I speak the language,

A cop stopped me cuz he smelt the fragrance.

At first he didn’t look like a cop,

Had a durag on, shorts and polo socks.

He walked up and said that weed is loud,

I’m tryna be lit let me cop right now.

Usually I don’t sell to strangers,

My funds was low so I did him a favor.

It got sus when he asked for an ounce,

Niggas usually say how much for an ounce?

I had a funny feeling so I walked away.

He grabbed my arm and said don’t walk away.

So I popped on sight

Hit em with the almighty uppercut right

Then hit em with the pistol

He was out for the count.

When he was laid out I had to run his pockets.

Took his 65 dollars and his golden locket.

Scumbag had a badge on his neck…

I stopped the convo and said you knocked out a cop?

You a dumb ass nigga,

You about to get locked.

Ohh shit earlier in the night I got stopped by the cops and they looked kinda tight.

They asked me did I see a kid with a hoodie up pants low with a gun at the waist.

Nigga what you said?

I said nope,

I don’t talk to the feds,

I’m true to the hood and that’s how you end up dead.

That’s a fact but on the real, you’re more than the hood

You nice at ball so get away if you could.

I got faith you gunna make it happen,

You always on the grind and you never be lackin.

Lackin out here leads to guns clapping, leading to holes in ya chest and ya body collapsing.

The hood is my life and this shit not for you.

You my guy so I want the best for you.

Remember the feds out to get us all and they don’t give a fuck whether we rise or we fall.

We all just niggas from the hood.

Get out bro!

I told him good looks and imma do what I gotta do.

You never know, I might go to college and end up going pro.

He said that’s what I like to hear,

Time is money so I gotta get up outta here.

We dapped each other up,

I said lay low and be safe.

He said this is what I do with a smirk on his face.

The hood life is something he truly embraced.

–GC