Summertime in Murdertown: How I Survived Where the Best Die
Copyright © 2019 by David Gunn

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ISBN (Print): 978-1-54395-939-0
ISBN (eBook): 978-1-54395-940-6

The following is taken from several journals over the years. It isn’t a biography or a complete story but snap shots from a handful of summers. Many people, insights and feelings have been left out for many reasons. I have changed the names of those in this work some out of respect some out of disrespect and some for legal reasons.

I don’t want to insinuate that everyone in Flint shares my story. Thankfully that isn’t the case. I only want to offer scenes and lessons from my own life and the lives of those close to me. This is how we came up… and down.

Prologue

Eight of us lived in the three bedroom house off 7th Ave in Flint’s 5th ward. We didn’t use many of the rooms because it was cold outside and we had no electricity. We did however have gas, so we kept the oven open to heat the house. We slept in the kitchen, all of us on two twin sized mattresses on the floor. We were seven brothers and a pregnant girl. There was a firearm for each of us in the house. An AK 47, a sawed off shotgun, 2 .357 revolvers, a .22 rifle, and 3 9mm auto handguns. Over the last few months we had signed a record deal with a major label, Roadrunner/Atlantic Records, gone on the Rockstar Mayhem Festival tour during which half of us were on the run or wanted for criminal offenses, released an album worldwide, headlined a UK European tour, and played in arenas from North America to Australia and back. We were supposed to be home gearing up for the UK Europe continuation of this tour through February 2015, visiting countries I had no clue existed. This was the furthest thing from my mind when I woke up and checked the AK 47 to make sure it was loaded. It was Christmas morning, which didn’t mean anything to any of us.

1

Write About Us

I was born late December at Flint Orthopedic Hospital the same year crack cocaine was hitting the streets. That detail could’ve been of some significance. The hospital no longer exists which could also mean something. GM was downsizing and outsourcing and filling our rivers with toxic waste while they hurried to close their doors. I don’t recall childhood all that much. A psychologist may call this repressed memory but simply knowing this doesn’t conjure up new memories. I remember being passed around a lot, and moving from place to place. Grandparents, aunts and uncles, people you called aunt or uncle. I remember little details, like a peculiar house we may have stayed for a night or two. I remember taking road trips like families take and playing like children do but they usually ended in police involvement and court hearings. Needless to say, I didn’t develop the deepest relationships or place the utmost trust in people very easily. I never knew when we would be packing up and moving.

This particular snapshot is from the 90’s. Summertime. Summers are special in the Midwest. Most of the year is cold, wet, rainy, snowed in, so during the warm season everyone comes outside. You could say it’s when all the action happens. I lived with my mom some summers. My mom and aunt were like Thelma and Louise. I hadn’t saw the film yet so I would say they more closely resembled older siblings than parental figures. Since my mom is no longer livin’ that life and goes to church and all that I’ll have to leave them to tell their own story. I’ll do that with most people I mention. I had just arrived. It was good to be there because it was the opposite of my dad’s place in the country. I had two sisters there. There were rules. You were made to go to school and come home afterward. You were told when and if you could eat and when you could drink. How long you could be outside and when to go to bed. Both parents were poor but one had structure and one was lawless in every sense of the word and then some. I thought some of the dad’s and of course the step mother’s punishments may have been categorized as cruel and unusual but it was just something that we had to deal with from time to time and even in the midst of being punished I cannot recall caring much. The term red headed stepchild seems appropriate here. Sometimes it was a legal custody thing where one parent had weekends and summers. Sometimes it was just an agreement that we would go here or there for a certain amount of time. We being myself and my brother Don who is a year younger. We were stuck with each other because we had the same dad, a rarity amongst over a dozen siblings. Aside from Don none of them are full blood, some are half some are step. Blood only goes so far with me. Although I have several family members I would fall on the sword for I also know and trust bums on the street better than some of my own kin so I didn’t favor one over the other and still don’t. Blood and strangers alike must earn love and respect. Everyone starts at zero.

I don’t know how my parents met. I know they were never married but I don’t recall them ever being together. I never cared to ask. My dad was that long haired guy into Metallica and Slayer and Pantera. He would expose us to all of that stuff. His wife listened to things like Acid Bath and Alanis Morissette and all that. My mom had records like Prince Purple Rain and R. Kelly Twelve Play. I learned to appreciate all of it but the music I cared most about was the stuff I would discover on my own. The music my peers turned me onto was the music of the streets. Eazy-E, 2Pac, and Biggie. The stuff that fascinated me. That spoke to us. To me, Metallica and 2Pac were the same, only 2Pac spoke right to you. Of course we could bang our heads to “Shortest Straw” and “Walk” but something moved our insides when we heard “Flint Niggaz Don’t Play” by The Dayton Family. Luckily I felt the same way about music then as I do now. Why choose sides when you can have everything?

If you can’t learn to respect and appreciate art of all forms you’re a philistine. This became a conversation piece in our careers. The fact that hip hop and rap was ingrained in my system and would eventually make its way into my own music and have its influence, something that a “forward thinking” generation even 20 years from then could not understand or get. But more about that later. Back to the story.

When it was time to go to our mom’s place we never knew where we were going or who we were going to be living with. Different house and a different boyfriend each time with a different set of siblings. For the most part though we knew we were going to Flint but sometimes ended up in Oklahoma or Florida for whatever reason. My mom was a gypsy.

I was a neighborhood kid. We had a little neighborhood crew as most kids do. My mom’s boyfriend had a son, Rock, who was a lot more social than I was. He knew everyone. I was his little brother so I was immediately plugged in. One of our good friends was Face. A year or two older than us, Face was kind of a pretty boy. Not because he was stylish, we were too poor for that, but he kept his hair short instead of in a bowl cut, wore a hat and had an ear piercing. He had been beat into a folk gang a year prior and made it known to anyone and everyone. He had a little sister who was older than we were. Her name was Kara. She was cute. I had a thing for her but I kept it to myself. Kara would only fuck with gang members. One month she would be with a Crip wearing blue and the next month she would be with a Cobra wearing green. That summer it was green. I wanted in a gang. Kara was our homegirl. When the summer was over and it was time to go back to school she would suck on all our necks to give us hickeys. We thought this would appeal to the girls in school. An obvious sign that we were men instead of boys. Strange how early the social dynamic is established. Even stranger that for the most part it hasn’t changed.

Face and Kara lived with a family member who stayed down the road from us. Their momma, Nicole, was more of a sibling than a mother figure. She was mid-thirties, pretty, and would get thrown out of her mother’s house just as much as her children. This would render them homeless, which was no big deal because us kids could always rough it on the streets or in a garage somewhere. We were used to looking after ourselves. When this happened we had no idea where Nicole would go. Sometimes she would disappear for weeks, sometimes months. She chased a bunch of men around. I think my mom’s boyfriend even messed with her but it wasn’t really my business. I never made anything my business. Since I can remember I’ve been introverted. Stuck to myself. If there was a room full of kids I wasn’t the loudest one or any kind of leader. I had no problems communicating with people but I always chose to listen rather than to speak. I liked watching. I think I always took it as an opportunity to learn something. You learn more from watching and listening than you do from speaking. Or as they say “you have two ears and one mouth for a reason.”

Kara also had a friend, Kimberly, who was from the country out near my dad. She would come to town and stay for a few days but her parents were a bit more watchful. I had a crush on Kimberly too. I think everyone had a crush on everyone. As with a lot of things kids can get away with that but as an adult you’re supposed to rid yourself of these natural impulses. I guess I do kind of resemble a Peter Pan. Anyway when she came to town she’d fuck with my older cousin Ugly Man who lived with us. Ugly Man was about to go to the army because he caught a case and the judge said it was either military or jail. As I write this it almost seems like a different reality. That type of shit doesn’t happen anymore.

The strange coincidence about me, Face, Kara, and Kimberly is that we all bounced back and forth between the same town about 20 minutes outside of Flint. Kimberly’s parents stayed there, and I have no clue who Face and Kara always ended up with but I know I would get used to seeing them. Seeing these people in my other, very different life was the only way I could stick it out in the country. It’s kind of humorous to imagine a young boy compartmentalizing his various lifestyles.

Face also had a homeboy named D-Rod who was real cool and wild and down for pretty much anything. He would float around with us, sometimes every day for a week, until he would come up missing for a week or two.

The summertime routine started in the morning. If you got up early you could catch free breakfast. Like the program The Black Panthers started in the late 60’s, the elementary school nearby hosted poor kids to eat “the most important meal of the day” during the summer when they were no longer in school. This was where we hung out frequently, whether at the basketball court or baseball diamond or playground. I never missed the breakfast because I was always awake first. A lot of my friends went to bed one or two hours before I got up but I would try to wake who I could. Kara was always down to go. We would ride our bikes to go and fetch our friend Dunk who lived next door to Kara’s grandma. Dunk was a cool kid. He wasn’t down for anything too crazy as far as breaking the law, but he was a likable cat. He was the guy on the block with the video game system. We usually played in his room when it rained.

Between Dunk’s house and the school was Blossom’s house. Blossom’s style was pure 90‘s like TLC in CrazySexyCool, the movie. She messed around with Rock but not exclusively. Her best friend was AJ, a tomboy who dressed like we did and played sports. Dunk had a crush on her and vice versa. AJ always rode a bike. Blossom always walked next to it.

Free breakfast was a highlight of the summer. It always kicked the day off the right way. Aside from the typical school baseball diamond, basketball court and playground, we had another place. The roof. There was some parking block poles coming out of the ground near the electrical meters. From there, we climbed up some pipes on the side of the building which led to a sublevel rooftop area. The guys had to help the girls but it was a good spot. We could see anyone coming from blocks away. On the other side between this sublevel and the primary school building was a concrete courtyard with some vegetation. This is where everyone would go to fuck or smoke cigarettes or look at the cache of porn magazines we stole from a party store around the corner. If you went in there with somebody and had a solid lookout you were set. At this point I hadn’t been down there with anyone but my brother had and I was hot on his trail to make something happen. If Kara wasn’t having any of my game I had my sights set on Tina who lived directly across the street from us. After going through each of the two food lines and hanging in the gym-turned-cafeteria, we would get pushed nicely outside into the parking lot and have the doors locked behind us. By 10 AM my brother was usually up.

When we needed money we would mow lawns. We always had a working lawn mower and gas. We would break engines or blades a bunch but there was a house nearby full of older cats like my brother Germ and my cousin Ugly Man. An older version of our crew, it was a house full of 18-20 year old guys and girls who were on their own. One of them was Sonny. He was what you would call a “grease monkey.” Had all the tools, all the small engines, spare parts, and could fix any car. This is back when cars had parts that regular people could learn to fix by replacing a broken part with a new working part. Before they plugged cars into computers and ran some kind of program and charged you money for it.

Anyway, the older crew didn’t take too kindly to us because we were “little kids” but Sonny was always nice and hooked us up. When we would get real ambitious we would try and do shit like build Frankenstein go karts and mini bikes and all that. We had a solid mower from my brother’s dad but we would steal small engine machines from the pawn shop or we would break into garages and take leaf blowers and power tools and even lawn mowers. Sonny held them in his garage and worked with us on projects. Sometimes we would mow 8-10 lawns a day. We would get ten for most lawns but sometimes we would get twenty. We would only get five from the cheap old woman named Betty who lived next door. She would make you do the lawn and the leaves and the whole yard. We only did that when we were desperate. Later that year on Halloween we would put make up on like hers, which was kinda like Mimi from the Drew Carey show, and go trick or treating. When we got to her place we would knock on the door. “Trick or treat.” When she asked, “What are you guys this year?” we would shout “YOU!” and take off running and laughing.

Between lawn days we would hang out and just be kids. Our side hustle was stealing bikes. If we were walking somewhere and saw a bike lying in a lawn we took it. Back at Sonny’s garage, which we had come to call our shop, we would disassemble the bikes and paint them and stencil model names onto them and have signature styles and preferences. Some needed mag rims, some would don pegs to ride girls around on, and some had what we called “chrommies,” just nice valve caps made of chrome or ornaments like dice or an eight ball. You would get these off semi trucks or tricked out cars a lot of the time. We never kept bikes for too long because we were always itching to sell them to get paid or to create our next new one to top the next guy. They were too easy to steal so at certain points I can remember us having a couple dozen bikes holed up in Sonny’s garage, no doubt getting him bitched at by his roommates.

As an ignorant kid my money usually went one place. The girls. The Pizza and Ice Cream was the old school kind of pizza joint with the single arcade game, The Simpsons, and the picnic tables. If we weren’t hanging there as a whole group I was trying to sneak off and take Tina on a “date.” This just seemed like protocol with Tina, who lived across the street. She had more money than most people in the neighborhood. They had nice cars and a nice place and all that. They were solid middle class. Tina’s dad hated me because I wore sweat pants and jerseys that were 2-3 sizes too big. He also knew we had to be up to no good. But her mom, who was her spitting image, liked me so I was allowed to come inside the house and all that. I would work on lawns during the day to take Tina there at night and try and get her back to the roof before it got too late. I was a risk taker too. I went lookoutless.

After a few weeks I had her on the roof, acting like I knew what I was doing. The day didn’t feel like any kind of special day. Nothing extraordinary happened. After all, we had been on the roof before. But this time felt different. It was almost as if climbing up together on this particular day meant something. I think we were both trying to be cool. Trying to act like we had done this before and that it was no big deal. Trying to prove we were the more experienced and seasoned of the two of us. We kicked around small talk about our friends about what they might be doing. The sun was starting to go down. I think it was understood that if we both kept playing around she would have to go back home. We both just went for it.

We knew whatever it was began with kissing. That was the easy part. I know we took each other’s clothes off but things are harder to do in tandem than they are when you’re by yourself. I could pull my own shirt off no problem but when it came to hers I messed around and elbowed her in the face, stretching her shirt out, caught it on her chin, pulled some ties from her hair etc. I know I went between her legs but had no clue what to do once there. I recall playing with condoms around this age but I didn’t bother mentioning anything of the sort much less have one on deck. I didn’t know how long this whole thing would last but I knew I better keep slamming my mouth into hers or I would look like a rookie. I remember our teeth hitting together over and over again and feeling pretty reckless. I don’t think I cared who saw. What felt like the whole night probably lasted no more than 10 minutes. When it was over I thought I was the coolest cat living. This is what we called “fuckin.” Having sex was something different, we didn’t even speak that language. Later on I told my boys in passing like it had been happening all along but they didn’t believe me because no one was there to witness it. Still, it was only a couple days before Tina told the neighborhood girls, including Kara so I was stamped and certified. They all treated it like I was coming out of my shell and joining them in the ranks. But nothing changed about me much at all. If it came up I just brushed it off like it was something I had been doing all along. But really I was elated. Because of this I would find myself on the roof with Kara a week or two later, lookout intact. This episode was much different. Kara was older and knew a whole bunch more. I just followed her lead or more accurately I disrupted whatever rhythm she established. This episode is just as vivid but I have to save some scenes in case I decide one day to write a romance novel they can sell at CVS Pharmacy.

Naturally sex began to take up a lot of my thoughts. Word would get out to the neighborhood and my brother started taking me to hang out with Blossom and AJ, who was now dating Dunk. I remember having the urge to sleep with every girl I knew at this point. Not only that but every girl I had ever known or even ones I would just pass on the street or see in public.

I must have suddenly had some kind of game or it was just social proof that AJ let me take her to the roof one morning after breakfast. I now understood how to take control of these situations. After this it was her idea to walk over to Dunk’s with me to break up with him. I just stood in the driveway. I came with his girl and left with his girl. This didn’t make us any less friends to me, but on this day I learned a lesson about guys too. Some take their relationships with females a lot more serious than others. I didn’t take every female encounter to heart. Having nine sisters and an out of control mom allowed me to glimpse the other side of the fence. I knew what kind of wild ride they could take you on because I had seen it firsthand. I figured they were all the same. And the cracks in what I did know were filled in by my Eazy-Duz-It cassette on which Eazy E reminded me often how certain types of women were to be treated. I decided a woman could make a man or destroy him if he let her.

Nothing with AJ changed things with Tina or Kara. Although it was known we were hanging out we still all went to the roof whenever we were alone. I assumed everyone was going to the roof with everyone. It made my imagination run wild at first but eventually I would grow callous to these types of things. To this day I think I take “going to the roof” more lightly than the next guy. I never took the bait of the American sex taboo.

The stuff with AJ would end when my brother got a different girl and stopped messing with Blossom. At this point I followed him to the new girl’s because she had a little sister the same age as me. I might as well have been paying rent for the roof at this point.

2

Where Were You When We Would Ride?

We would race bikes, play basketball, play video games and spray paint the school. Go to the library to check out books on odd shit. Making up songs to sing to each other. Sleep. Wake up. Do it again. We would show off for the girls by breaking glass, either bottles or windows, and running off. We would eventually get a mini bike running with a 6HP lawn mower engine and be mobile beyond our own neighborhood which wasn’t always good news. And when fall came we would hide cinder blocks in the large piles of leaves on the sides of the street so dickheads who went speeding through the leaves to be cool ruined their car’s front ends. Whatever we did we did it outside. We didn’t hook ourselves up to a piece of technology for the majority of our days, which made our relationships much deeper.

There was plenty of other people in the crew. Mike lived down the street and was a year older and good at basketball. His older brother hung out with the older group and he had been to jail and lifted weights. There was Eric and his two sisters who lived next door to Sonny and the older cats and he was always on some interesting shit like ICP and homemade roleplaying games where you used cards and dice and all that.

Kara would soon end up with DJ. He wasn’t a gang member or anything but he was older with a car. Kara was our girl which meant we now had access to a real car, not the pedal bikes and mini bikes we were piecing together. This was the first time I got behind the wheel right there in the school parking lot. DJ had taken off to walk to the party store and left the keys with his girl. She said I could hop in and drive it in a circle real quick before he got back. The party store was on the other side of the school. I hopped in excited and did what I could. I ended up smashing it into a steel guardrail. It dented it all in. Kara put the car back in place and took the blame. Anyway, DJ and Kara being together meant Heather was free game so I was over in her yard everyday trying to get her to come out and ride the mini bike with me. The whole summer would pass without taking her to the roof once.

When we had some extra money we would all try and get to the skate rink, asking my mom’s boyfriend to drive or all pile into DJ’s car. We were all good at skating and it was fun when they played shit like Coolio’s “Gangstas Paradise” or Dr. Dre’s “Keep They Heads Ringing.” Sometimes the skating rink even had “lock ins” where they got a couple sets of bleachers and locked everyone in until morning. We would eat popcorn and hotdogs and drink sodas all night while trying to get girls under the bleachers. I always stood guard for Aaron and if I wasn’t doing that I was guarding for a neighborhood kid named Shannon who was alright. One day we had a falling out, though, because someone told him about me being under the bleachers with his younger sister. She hypnotized me. I had watched her skate in circles for weeks, illuminated by all the colors from the par can lighting, lip syncing “Wonderwall” by Oasis. This was irresistible. It was confusing how he couldn’t understand that every female was somebody’s sister.

We would go to the skate rink with an old pair of shoes, a pair that had been your brother’s in the garage or taken off someone’s porch on your way to skate. You gave the skate rental your shoes and a dollar or two for a pair of rental skates. Now the doors could only be opened from outside the building. Near the end of the night we would have a mark all scoped out, usually one mark each. Everyone had a target. Some soft ass middle aged white man with his kids or some couple we didn’t know. When our ride home was a friend he would walk into the building and tie his shoes in the doorway. This gave us a 15-20 second window. We would skate as fast as we could toward the mark with the beeper and ultimately toward the door. Flying by the mark we would snatch the beeper from his hip. Guys with beepers in these days wore them facing outward big and bulky like they do with the big smartphone cases now. Street smart individuals would always wear them clip out with the beeper on the inside. We snatched these things almost instantaneously and all fly out the door with a new pair of rollerblades and a new beeper. Some of us were so smooth they didn’t notice their beeper was missing until we caused a scene flying out the entrance door. No cameras, no ID’s, nothing like that. Doing this move meant we had to stay away from the skating rink for a few months or until we would get word that they hired a new staff of high schoolers.

In the coming year this would land me the green skyway pager. I immediately put the 2Pac sticker on it. You used to be able to make collect calls from pay phones to pagers free of charge. We had codes to put in, 911 for emergency, 211 for some kind of money making opportunity to meet up in the garage or 000 to meet at the Pizza and Ice Cream.

When we weren’t getting into trouble we would do things like spend the night in a tent in the backyard. Me and my siblings and our friends. It was our mom’s boyfriend’s job to watch us, which he didn’t take too seriously and we all loved him for it. He was more of a friend than an authority figure which meant we would listen to MC Breed and Top Authority while playing stupid games like suck and blow with a library card. A few of us would try and stay up as late as possible to mess around with the girls. When Tina was around she got my attention over the next girl. Word that I messed around with her in the tent would eventually get around to her parents, which got her grounded. This would teach me that messing around with girls works when you’re alone or with a close homeboy. Letting others into your business is detrimental. I decided secrets were kinda like women. Some you’d share and they’d get passed around but others would go to the grave with you if necessary.

I was at Heather’s as usual, trying to get her to kick it with me. At this point I could get her onto her porch but that wasn’t good enough. On my way home I saw the boys at the pizza joint. DJ was there. He and Face had a plan. They wanted to break into a house. In two weeks. And they needed as many people as they could get. It was me, Face, DJ, and D-Rod. I don’t remember if my brother thought this was a stupid idea or not. He was usually down for whatever bullshit we might get into. He wasn’t present and I didn’t want to do anything without him but I knew I wanted to go on this exciting stuff, simply because it was exciting and I was curious. In hindsight I think they only included me because of the strides I was making with girls. The strange thing about having so many sides to you is the people who have one side in common mistake your parts for a whole and pin you as whatever is comfortable for them. I didn’t seek the approval of the bad kids and freeze out the good ones. I was friends with everyone but I was down for anything.