PRAISE FOR DESERTED CITIES OF THE HEART
“With surpassing skill, Shiner creates a milieu of corruption, decay, and ultimate redemption—populated with a cast worthy of Robert Stone. This savagely written novel is a total original.”
—James Ellroy, author of LA Confidential
“A fast-moving adventure story about modern-day Mexico, replete with desperate rebels, hard-eyed defenders of the status quo, brutal North American ‘advisors,’ an ambitious journalist, a beautiful woman with a mission and a good man who is looking for something to believe in. Despite some imaginative rearranging of recent history, Mr. Shiner’s Mexico has the gritty feel of reality.”
—Gerald Jonas, New York Times Book Review
“[Shiner’s] narrative never flinches. It moves with precision from one point of view to another, breathing warmth and life into all the primary players—even the guy from Rolling Stone. The dialogue, especially among the central characters, is so convincing that their genuineness seems beyond question. I have never seen the pacing, the mood, the psychological intensity of individual scenes drawn any better than this.”
—Richard Grant, Washington Post Book World
“It is both a taut political thriller and a transcendent apocalyptic fantasy…Shiner’s prose is tight and controlled and he keeps the pace revved high…Perhaps the most astonishing thing about the novel is its sense of hopefulness. Full of violence and set at the beginning of the end of the world as we know it, Deserted Cities of the Heart nevertheless leaves the reader with the liberating notion that, even though history endlessly repeats itself, there may come a better time when guns and bullets do not matter.”
—Michael Berry, San Francisco Chronicle
“A brilliant (and incredibly coherent) story about the coming of the end of modern civilization…simply a spectacular novel.”
—Michael Sumbera, Nova Express
“The best sf novel of the year, period. This is one of those rare books with both heart and brains in equal parts, meaning it’s an exciting story that also has something to say about being alive.”
—Richard Kadrey, New York Review of SF
“Shiner imbue[s] the reader with sympathy for Mexico with power and with skill and with what would seem to be genuine political passion…Deserted Cities of the Heart is surely as good as any novel that any of the writers who would now seem to be graduating from the ‘Movement’ have written since Neuromancer, and arguably the best of them.”
—Norman Spinrad, Isaac Asimov’s SF Magazine
Finalist for the Nebula Award (Science Fiction Writers of America)
Finalist for the William L. Crawford Award (International Association for the Fantastic in the Arts)
First published in the United States in 1988 by Subterranean Press
This edition first published in the United Kingdom in 2019 by Head of Zeus Ltd
Copyright © Lewis Shiner, 2019
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This is a work of fiction. All characters, organizations, and events portrayed in this novel are either products of the author’s imagination or are used fictitiously.
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The original dedication of this book read:
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Then, as now: Thanks, Unca Neal.
Welcome Page
Praise for Deserted Cities of the Heart
Copyright Page
Dedication
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Author’s Note
By Lewis Shiner
About the Author
An Invitation from the Publisher
Many of the events in this novel are factual—the Mexico City earthquake, the border riots of 1986, the looting of the forest at Nahá, and so on. In some cases, for dramatic purposes, the dates of these events and even their locations have been changed.
ONE
Suddenly the path opened up and Carmichael walked out of the jungle. The perpetual green twilight turned into bright afternoon. The ragged kid who’d been guiding him got excited and ran on ahead, leaving Carmichael to stand blinking at the edge of the rebel camp. He waved at the cloud of white flies around his head and tried to look harmless.
They didn’t seem to be expecting him. A teenager in orange pants and a plaid shirt was pissing against a tree. He saw Carmichael and zipped himself up and made nervous little half-bows, grinning in embarrassment. Somebody else slapped at a jam box and cut off a scratchy, distorted dub tape in mid-echo.
The silence made the others turn and look. Carmichael smiled and held his hands away from his sides. “Periodista,” he said. For Christ’s sake don’t shoot, I might be the New York Times.
From where he was he could see maybe thirty or forty guerrillas. Most of them wore a uniform of blue jeans and a khaki shirt. There were a lot of straw cowboy hats and billed caps. A few of them had leather lace-up combat boots, a lot more had Converse All-Stars or Nikes. The rest got by with rubber beach sandals or bare feet.
The clearing was a chaos of green canvas tents, sleeping bags, yellow army blankets thrown over poles, and tin cans. The cans were stacked empty around the tents or filled with water or beans or corn soaking for supper. A collie with matted yellow fur and a cut over one eye came up to sniff his ankles.
“Carla said she would do an interview,” he told them. His Spanish wasn’t great, strictly California high school, but he’d been in Mexico over a month now and he knew they could understand him if they wanted. A woman in a striped shift stared at him from the shade of a tree, both straps of the dress down, a baby at each breast. Finally a middle-aged guy in a flat Fidelista cap and graying beard took a couple of steps toward him.
“¿Cómo te llamas?”
“Carmichael. John Carmichael. I work for Rolling Stone. The magazine.” He took a card out of the front pocket of his hiking shorts.
“I know of them.”
“Listen, Carla sent word she’d talk to me. She sent a correo.” He looked around for the kid but there was no sign of him. The kid was a case. He’d seen his mother raped by the guardia a few months back. At least that was how Carmichael read it. The kid was only 8 and didn’t really understand what was going on. But they killed her when they were done and now all the kid wanted was to be old enough that they’d let him have a rifle. Which would be another year or maybe less, depending on how desperate they got.
The man chewed on the inside of his cheek for a couple of seconds. He didn’t seem so much reluctant as nervous. He had a hunted kind of look about him that was making Carmichael nervous too. “Okay, I’ll talk to her. My name is Faustino.”
Carmichael shook hands with him, fingers up, movement style. “¿Cubano?” he asked.
Faustino thought again. “Yes,” he said, finally.
Carmichael nodded to show it was okay with him. Maybe it was a test. The rebels liked to pretend there weren’t any Cubans or Nicaraguans in Mexico, but then Reagan liked to pretend there weren’t any US troops here either.
Carmichael just wanted the interview. He hadn’t believed he would really get this far, and now if it went sour it was going to break his heart.
*
“Come with me,” Faustino said. They walked uphill around the edge of the clearing. Through a stand of trees Carmichael watched an instructor in jeans and khaki with six teenage girls. The instructor was trying to get them to run up to a line, drop prone, and fire. They were having to pantomime the rifles and they kept giggling.
Faustino took him to the top of the hill and Carmichael could see the next valley and the mountains to the south, just over the border into Guatemala. The mountains were the violet-brown of old, faded photographs, the color of unreal, untouchable things. It was almost noon but there were shreds of clouds still trailing off the highest peaks.
“Beautiful, no?” Faustino said.
Carmichael nodded. He wanted to take a picture but it was too early to risk pulling out a camera. Later, maybe, if Carla was willing.
Carla sat by herself a few yards away, reading. Carmichael recognized her from the few pictures that had found their way to the States. She was short, a little heavy and round-faced by Hollywood standards, but not unattractive. She had the long nose and high forehead and reddish skin of Mayan ancestry. He squinted and made out that she was reading ex-president Portillo’s novel Quetzalcoatl.
“Wait here,” Faustino said, and went over to her. Carmichael couldn’t hear what they said. Faustino gave her the card and she stood up and dusted off the seat of her jeans. Then they both looked up to check the sky and Carmichael’s nervousness came back.
They shook hands and Carmichael introduced himself again. “I don’t understand,” she said. “You are with a rock and roll band?”
“A magazine,” Faustino said. “Very prominent. They have it in all the supermarkets in the United States.”
“Is this what is to become of the revolution? We are to be sold in the supermarkets?”
Apparently Faustino couldn’t tell she was kidding. Before he could break in again Carmichael said, “Rolling Stone sells only the finest revolutions. Nicaraguan, South African, Argentinean…”
He got a smile out of her. “You did an article on my husband,” she said.
“That wasn’t me personally, but yes, we did.” Her husband, Acuario, had been murdered in Mexico City back in December, during a kind of rebel summit conference. She’d taken over his guerrilla band during the wave of outrage that followed.
Carmichael took off his backpack and got out a cassette recorder. “I was afraid I was going to be too late. There’s been nothing on the radio for days but reports of you being killed.”
“No,” she said gently. “You’re still in time. Can we sit down? This is going to be painful enough.”
*
She was a great interview. Carmichael wanted to hug her. During the bus rides and the long walk that brought him up here, he had held on to an image of the story in his mind. Not just the printed article, a headline bled across a two-page spread, the photos here, lots of white space. The story itself. It would explain not only what was happening in Mexico, but the rest of the world too, would make sense of the entire decade. Mexico as microcosm for the struggle of third world visionaries against an outmoded industrial system. They couldn’t lose. As she talked it filled out in his mind, perfect, spherical.
Faustino handled the party line in his crisp, Cuban Spanish that was as easy to understand as English. Comrades in a common struggle, destiny of Latin America, that kind of thing.
Carla wanted to kick ass. Carmichael had to keep stopping her, getting her to repeat a word or phrase that got past him. She spoke Veracruzano, the Mexican equivalent of a southern accent, slurred and full of Caribbean slang.
She’d grown up in the village of Boca del Rio, south of Vera Cruz, where the water in the bay had a permanent oily sheen. By the time school got interesting she had to drop out, going to the fish market in the city with her father, waiting outside the pool hall across the street where he pissed away what little they’d made that morning.
Sometimes she would wander over to los portales, the rows of open cafés on the Plaza de Armas where the tourists from the US and Germany and Mexico City sat and drank beer and watched the marimba trios, one man on each end of the wooden xylophone, the third with his fish-shaped guiro and book of songs and prices, all of them in their white or yellow or pale blue guayabera shirts, two or three songs and then down to the next café, the tourists pale and drunken and talking loudly to each other in languages she never wanted to learn.
Acuario was a medical student at the Universidad Veracruzana. He drank at las portales too, but he did it to observe the enemy. Acuario was in a study group with a priest named Father Antonio who had introduced him to both Teilhard de Chardin and Karl Marx. Once he started talking to Carla he saw it as his sacred duty to raise her consciousness.
He explained to her why she instinctively hated the Northamericans, taught her Marxism-Leninism, and, Carmichael gathered, screwed her brains out in a 90-peso room in the Hotel Santillana across from the fish market.
When Acuario got kicked out of college he took Carla on the road with him. For a while the action was in Villahermosa, trying to run off the gringo oil companies. Then one of Acuario’s med school friends shot a cop with a stolen handgun and they had to move up into the hills.
Carmichael really liked her. He could see Acuario’s clay feet between the lines of her story, but Carla herself seemed like the real thing. A working class hero, a perennial victim, and best of all, a crackpot idealist.
“Acuario believed all that hippie stuff,” she said. “You know? That we are the start of a new age. A turning point, and all that. He wanted a new world where everybody could have enough to eat and clothes to wear and schools to go to and everybody could believe whatever they wanted. He was a lot better than me. I grew up poor and mean, watching politicians getting fat off people like my father and me. I just wanted to shoot somebody. But Acuario, when he talked about all this stuff, he made me believe it too.”
“That’s great,” Carmichael said. “What about pictures? Can I take your picture?”
“I don’t know,” she said. “I’m no Somoza, I don’t want my picture all over the place. I don’t want a personality cult. What do you think, Faustino?”
Faustino shrugged. “I don’t think it would hurt. Let the Northamericans see us as we are, simple people caught up in a great struggle.”
“Okay, but ask everybody before you take their picture. Some of them have families, where the guardia can get to them, you understand?”
“Sure, that’s great,” Carmichael said. He got the Nikon out of the backpack and posed her with the purple mountains behind her.
*
He got a great shot of the correo, the messenger kid who’d brought him up. The kid said Carmichael should call him El Tigre, the jaguar. They all had this passion for the nom de guerre, that affordable little touch of glamour. Somebody loaned the kid an M-16 for the picture and just before Carmichael pushed the button he puffed up his chest and scowled. The Nikon was motor driven so Carmichael also got him cracking up afterwards.
There was a teenaged kid who called himself “Rigoberto” after the guy that killed Tacho Samoza senior. He had a paper bag full of Pepsi bottles that he took with him everywhere, hoping to find enough gasoline to make Molotov cocktails.
There was a woman in her mid-thirties that they called La Pequeña, the Little One. She was short and thin, but Carmichael sensed a certain irony in the name. She'd gotten married in high school and she had dry, cracked hands from her years at the sink. When her husband didn't come home from work one day she started asking questions. She kept asking them for two years, all the way to President de la Madrid. “The next time I see him,” she told Carmichael, “I will have this.” She pointed to the rifle she was cleaning, the parts spread out over a black plastic bag.
There was a kid in his twenties with a lot of African blood in him. He had deep brown skin and peppercorn hair that he was trying to tease into dreadlocks. They called him “Righteous.” He was the one with the jam box and the dub tape. His Veracruzano was impenetrable and Carmichael could only smile and nod and take his picture and move on.
There was a 68-year-old man with little islands of whiskers on his wrinkled face. They called him Abuelo, Grandfather. He’d joined after his granddaughter was murdered by the Army.
“How old was she?” Carmichael asked. He had the recorder going again.
“Seventeen. Now what happens to her children? Three girls and two boys, and now they have no mother?”
Carmichael nodded, thinking, Jesus Christ. Five kids at 17. Just when he thought he had a handle, something else came along and slapped him in the face. It was the kind of thing that went beyond political solutions. What were you going to do when there were 17-year-olds all over the country with five kids? How were you going to feed them all? Where were you going to put them?
Easy, he thought. Have a war and kill them all off.
Two men came running out of the jungle. They had three or four rifles apiece slung over their shoulders and they carried a bundled army blanket between them like a stretcher. They spread the blanket out in the middle of the camp. Inside were another half dozen rifles and zip-lock bags full of bullets.
The rifles were Belgian-made fals. They were clean and efficient-looking, with flared pistol grips and short, straight magazines in front of the trigger guard. On full automatic they could put out ten rounds a second. Carmichael had spent a couple of days in the library back in LA reading up on weapons, from small arms to the Mi-24 Hind helicopter gunships. Supposedly Castro inherited thousands of fals from Batista in 1959. Then he started getting Kalashnikovs from Russia and didn’t need them anymore. They tended to show up all over Latin America, wherever there was trouble.
It was like Christmas. Carmichael took a couple of quick pictures and then got out of the way as the whole camp converged on the guns. A short, heavyset man pushed his way through the crowd and started calling the names of the chosen. He did it from memory.
“Who is that?” Carmichael asked the old man.
“Lieutenant Ramos.”
“Yeah? Who’s he?”
The old man stared off at the mountains for a while. “He’s from Mexico.” Meaning Mexico City. “He’s with the FPML. ‘Enlace’ con éste Raul Venceremos.” Liaison. The old man sneered when he said it. The FPML, the Popular Front for a Free Mexico, was the most vocal of the dozen or more rebel groups. Their leader called himself Raul Venceremos. The last name meant “we shall be victorious.” It was something Che used to say a lot. Venceremos had brought his love of uniforms with him when he defected from the guardia.
“There is a radio station,” the old man said. “Radio Venceremos.”
“Si,” Carmichael nodded. “La conozco.” It was still the only reliable information anybody could get out of El Salvador.
The old man shrugged. “He calls himself for a radio station. What kind of man is that?”
“Abuelo!” Ramos shouted.
“Excuse me.”
Carmichael watched the old man trade a single-shot .22 for an fal so new the barrel was still sticky with oil. When he came back he was smiling wide enough that Carmichael could see all five of his teeth. “Here is my ‘liaison.’” The old man shook the rifle happily.
When the fals were gone Ramos handed out the trade-ins. The kid in the orange pants got the old man’s .22. The barrel was held on with silver duct tape, but the kid strutted up proudly to take it. A gun, any gun, was what made you a real soldier.
*
Carmichael shot another roll of film and went to tell Carla goodbye. He shook her hand and said, “I need to get back with the story.” If he hurried, he could make it back to the farm where he and El Tigre had spent the night before. He didn’t want to get caught in the jungle after dark.
“I understand,” Carla said. She was restless again, and Carmichael could tell she was just as happy to see him go. “We want to get the revolution into all the supermarkets while it’s still fresh. I’ll send a correo with you.”
“You don’t have to,” Carmichael said. “I’ll be okay.”
He waved from the edge of the camp and Carla and the old man and some of the others waved back. Faustino stood with his arms folded, like he was posing for a memorial statue in downtown Havana.
*
About ten minutes out of camp, Carmichael couldn’t stand it anymore and sat down to take some notes. There was a fine, rapid trembling in his hands. He dug a joint out of his backpack and lit up. With the joint hanging out of the corner of his mouth he covered three pages of yellow legal paper with rough impressions.
“Goddamn,” he said. It was good stuff. It was career stuff. It was the kind of stuff that got picked up by ap and upi and the goddamn New York Times. When he got back to Villahermosa he was going to buy himself a couple of drinks.
He didn’t hear the planes until they were right overhead.
They filled a whole spectrum of sound, from the high whine of their turbines to the roar of their exhaust, the rattling of machine guns somewhere in the middle of it. The sound came in waves, pounding at him until it made his ears ring. Orange tracers made dotted lines from the sky to the rebel camp.
Between the joint and the suddenness of it his brain had fogged. It took long seconds for the message to get through. The planes were attacking Carla’s army.
He jumped up and looked around frantically. A ragged white contrail blossomed out of one of the planes. There was a flash on the horizon and a couple of seconds later the ground shook. Finally the sound got to him, a long, shrill scream and then thunder.
Carmichael’s best guess was four planes. They moved in spurts across the sky, like toys in the hands of a giant, invisible child, and it was hard to focus on them. He knew what they were, though, Italian sf-260 “Warriors.” The Mexican government had bought a dozen of them with borrowed US money specifically to use against the guerrillas.
The ground shook and Carmichael realized he was still standing, exposed, in the middle of the trail. He ducked into the forest, unable to hear the crashing of leaves and branches for the noise of the planes. He huddled behind something that looked like an oak as a squad of rebels came running down the trail, their faces vacant with terror.
Somebody screamed. A bullet hit over Carmichael’s head, spattering him with bark. The exposed white flesh of the tree was a ragged arrow, pointing at him. Tracers lit the forest like demonic fireflies. He had never realized how powerful a .50 caliber bullet was. They were like small meteors. The ground exploded where they hit.
He curled into a ball against the tree trunk, knees bumping his forehead, staring upside down at the shower of twigs and leaves sifting slowly out of the trees. The dope or the fear turned a switch in his head and time went out of whack.
The bullets fell around him like slow metal rain. The air turned milky white. A thick fog of dust and humus and wood chips and green, shredded leaves hung motionless around him. The planes and the gunfire had all tangled together and sounded like a waterfall.
Then the bullets turned to water and ran down his back and pooled in his hair.
He sat up. The planes were gone and the pattering in the trees was rain. His legal pad was in one hand, his knapsack in the other. He put the pad away and scrambled to his feet, his bladder suddenly aching so badly that he didn’t care if the planes were coming back.
*
He had to go back to the clearing. There wasn’t really any choice. The story had changed under him and he had to see it through.
At first he didn’t think anybody was left alive. The ground smoked from wps, white phosphorus rockets, and the trees were shattered and blackened. The rain turned to steam on the bodies, and the steam had the sharp, acetic acid smell of Carmichael’s darkroom back in LA, but mixed with the smells of cordite and burned meat and wet ash.
He didn’t realize how light-headed he was until he staggered and nearly went down. He grabbed at a tree and the bark was still hot to the touch. He breathed through his mouth and swallowed the bile that was trying to come up and got out his camera. His fingers were so stiff it took him two minutes to load a fresh roll of film.
He started taking pictures. Most of it was too ugly to be printed, limbs without bodies, jeans soaked purple with blood, faces burnt through to the skull. He shot some of the burns because he knew the government was going to deny using phosphorus and he wanted proof.
He got long shots without a lot of gruesome detail. Then he started on the faces, getting the ones that were relatively intact. He was looking for Carla or Faustino and instead he found Abuelo, the old man. He focused and was about to trip the shutter when the old man opened one eye.
Carmichael lowered the camera. The old man was gut shot. There was blood everywhere. His skin had the same dark, waxy look the corpses had. The rain ran like tears off his face. The two of them stared at each other for about ten years, and then the old man shut his eye again.
Carmichael put the camera away. Somebody started moaning and then the moan turned into a scream. An entire stack of bodies twitched and shook.
I’m in hell, Carmichael thought. One of those bullets hit me and I didn’t even know it, and now I’m dead and in hell.
Something crawled out from under the moving stack of bodies. It was Carla. The bodies on top of her had saved her from the rockets, but she’d been shot up pretty badly. Her left foot was a bloody mess that it hurt Carmichael even to look at. How much of the rest of the blood was actually hers he couldn’t say.
He took her under the arms and pulled her free. It couldn’t do her any more harm than she was already doing by struggling. She went limp in his hands and he stretched her out on some scraps of tent canvas.
“You came back.”
Carmichael stood up too fast and nearly passed out again. Faustino was staring at him, pale and shaking, holding himself up by the barrel of his rifle.
“Yeah,” Carmichael said. “Are you all right?”
“Some scratches,” Faustino said. The right hip of his jeans was charred through and his shirt was in rags. He was losing his hair, Carmichael noticed. It made him look less intimidating, now that his cap was gone. He knelt next to Carla and started doing professional-looking things, rolling back one eyelid, taking the pulse in her neck.
“Did anybody else make it?” Carmichael asked.
“Some ran away in the forest. We have a rendezvous, in case of something like this. I’ll find them tonight.” He sat up on his heels. “We have to get her out of here. There is a doctor in Ocosingo who is with us. You have to help me carry her there.”
“Me?” Carmichael said.
*
The rain trailed off while they improvised a stretcher out of one of the cots. Carmichael wanted to look away while Faustino cut off Carla’s jeans and shirt but he couldn’t seem to do it. She wore stained cotton panties and a heavy duty 1950s-style brassiere. There were bullet holes in her right arm and her left foot and thigh. Faustino rinsed them and squirted in some Betadine and wrapped them in bandages.
There were three others still alive, but none of them could walk. Faustino gave them morphine. “I will call the Red Cross when we get to Ocosingo,” he said. “Maybe they will get here before the guardia.”
Faustino cached most of the undamaged weapons in a tree well away from the clearing. He slung three fals on his back and filled a knapsack with cartridges. Carmichael saw him wince when the butt of one of the rifles touched his hip.
“Unless you want to carry one…?” Faustino offered.
Carmichael shook his head.
*
All the way down the mountain Carmichael asked himself what the hell he was doing. He wanted to believe it was for the story. His nice, spherical, perfect story that had suddenly exploded over the countryside. If he stayed with Carla maybe he could make sense of it again.
The truth, he suspected, was that he really hadn’t had a choice. There was simply no way to walk away from Faustino and still be able to feel like a human being.
By the time the sun went down he was beyond thinking about anything. He couldn’t see and he kept stumbling over rocks and branches in the trail. But none of it bothered Faustino, who kept leading him on by the stretcher handles.
They took a rest break a little after dark. Carmichael got two bags of trail mix out of his pack and gave one to Faustino.
“What is this?”
“Dried fruit and nuts. It’s good.”
In a few seconds the bag came back. “Animal food,” Faustino said.
Animal? Carmichael thought. Who the fuck are you to call me an animal? He felt his face getting hot. He would have shouted at Faustino but he didn’t have the energy.
Carla started to make noises. Her head was right next to where Carmichael sat. “Oil them,” she was saying. “Keep them oiled. You have to…”
Carmichael brushed the hair off her forehead, working by touch in the darkness. He couldn’t see her eyes until she opened them and they glistened faintly.
“Planes…?” she said.
“Gone,” Carmichael told her.
“How many…left…?”
“We don’t know yet. Faustino’s here. Go back to sleep.”
Her breathing changed and her eyes disappeared again. Carmichael said, “Is there any morphine?”
“No,” Faustino said.
“Looked like moonlight,” Carla said. “After the bullets hit.”
“Don’t talk,” Faustino told her.
“Saw men in the jungle. Mayas. Three of them, looking at me. Only the one in the middle wasn’t Maya. He was Northamerican. Kukulkán. It was Kukulkán. They were burning something in a pot, something sour smelling. They had feathers, green feathers, in their hair…”
Right, Carmichael thought. Kukulkán was the Mayan name for Quetzalcoatl, the great white god. He had news for her. There weren’t any more great white gods. They wouldn’t be coming to save her, not this year, not this century.
“I was there,” Faustino said. “There weren’t any Indians. It was a dream. Some kind of vision or something.” Carla didn’t answer. “She’s asleep,” Faustino said finally.
Carmichael said, “I think she’s dying.”
“She’s not dying. She meets with Raul Venceremos next week. She will not die.”
Carmichael nodded, then realized Faustino couldn’t see him. “Okay,” he said. The trail mix had helped the pain in his stomach, but not the ones in his shoulders and neck. His feet were swollen tight against the sides of his boots and his bare legs and arms itched with mosquito bites. Faustino gave him a drink of water and he felt better for a few seconds. Then he remembered the water would probably give him dysentery and he felt very tired.
“Come on,” Faustino said, and he bent to pick up his end of the stretcher.
*
At the bottom of the hill lights came out of nowhere and pinned them where they stood. “Please,” Carmichael said, squinting. He couldn’t cover his face without letting go of the stretcher. “Don’t shoot.” He couldn’t believe he’d come this far, survived so much, only to die this way. “I’m an American.”
“Somos todos Americanos,” a voice said.
“Northamerican,” Carmichael corrected himself. “Journalist.”
“Cálmate,” Faustino said. “They are compas, compañeros, you understand? They are with us.”
“Oh.” Somebody took the end of the stretcher out of his hands and his arms cramped immediately, snapping the lines of pain all the way back to his shoulder blades.
“They will find you a place to sleep,” Faustino said. There was an awkward silence. “We are grateful for your help.”
“It was nothing,” Carmichael said.
“This is true,” Faustino said. “But if you had not helped it would have been less than nothing.”
*
A kid led him to a shack on the edge of town. It could have been El Tigre but he never said anything and it was too dark and Carmichael was too tired to be sure.
They gave him a hammock. He was pretty sure somebody would be sleeping on the floor so he could use it. At the moment he didn’t care.
He woke up once in the middle of the night, sure he’d heard a gunshot. He listened but there was only the sound of a stranger’s snoring from across the room.
Not for you, he told himself. It may have been for somebody, but it wasn’t for you.
*
Gunfire again. Thomas’s office was in the back of the main building, in what had been the laundry room when it was a hotel. He was a good half mile from the street, and the rifles sounded like firecrackers.
It was the third time this week the guardia had opened up on demonstrators, nothing but warning shots so far, but the thought of it still made Thomas a little sick. Two days ago one of the kids, running away, had tried to climb the project fence and gotten hung up in the barbed wire on top.
His concentration was gone. He rolled away from the computer and picked up the letter again. It was on lined notebook paper and it said, “Coming to look for you. Where are you hiding out? Love, Lindsey.” The envelope had been addressed to him care of the Anthro Department at ut Austin, Please Forward. It had come in the morning mail. He put it back in the envelope and put the envelope in his shirt pocket.
The shooting stopped and now there was another noise, a roar that kept climbing and dropping in pitch. Heavy machinery.
Oh Christ, Thomas thought. A tank.
His intercom hummed. “Wake up, Thomas,” Sarah said. “The sixties are over. Big Brother is here. They’re coming in.”
“What the hell are we supposed to do?”
“I don’t know about you, but I’m going to lie down behind my desk and chant some mantras.”
Sarah was overweight and pushing fifty. “That’s really funny,” Thomas said.
“I wasn’t kidding. Look, don’t do anything stupid, okay? It looks like the entire Mexican National Guard out there. They will kill you, okay?”
Thomas kicked the screen out of his window and crawled outside, holding onto his glasses with one hand. Straight ahead was the crumbling orchestra pavilion, its wall of solar cells glistening in the afternoon sunlight. The smell of manure and damp earth drifted off the gardens in front of it. To his left, running for hundreds of yards back along the hillside, were experimental permaculture and agriculture plots, animal compounds, ponds and stables.
To his right were the front gates and the guardia.
Thomas watched the tank come right over the fence. It had been a hell of a fence, eight feet high and topped with barbed wire, cutting them off from the hungry and the poor and the desperate. Now the poles snapped like toothpicks and metal treads ground the chain links into the lawn.
The tank crawled past the ruins of the casino and parked up against the fountain. The casino had been the namesake of the Hotel Casino de la Selva back in the twenties and thirties, when it had been the social center of Cuernavaca. The project had put a geodesic dome over it, an aluminum framework and triangular insulating plastic pillows. Next to it the tank looked like a bloody-jawed Tyrannosaur.
Thomas guessed there were fifty soldiers. They would outnumber the project staff two to one. Thomas sprinted around the back of the main building, toward the swimming pool and the scattered guest cottages. The humidity glued his shirt to his back and bunched up his underwear between his legs. Beyond the dark, algal green of the swimming pool were the jai-alai courts. The perpetually stoned botanists from Texas a&m had lost them to a new gene-spliced kudzu a year ago and been fighting to get them back ever since.
“Thomas!” It was one of the summer kids, out in the middle of the enormous pool on one of the ocean arks. He had his shirt open and was leaning off the boom. “What the hell is going on?”
“We’re busted,” Thomas yelled. “Head for the fucking hills.”
Between the pool and the back guest houses was a stretch of imported sand, with umbrellas and folding beach chairs. Weeds were slowing taking over, but the footing was still bad. Before Thomas could get across it he heard the slap of running feet on concrete and the unmistakable rattle that rifles make when they get lifted to the shoulder and cocked.
“¡Alto!”
Thomas stopped and slowly put up his arms.
*
The soldiers took him into the mural room. Most of the others were already milling around in the middle of the floor, dwarfed by the 50-foot ceilings and the allegorical figures on the walls. The project had been using it for their main dining room. The soldiers had pushed the tables and chairs off to one side so they could herd everyone together. Every so often the doors would open and another two or three people would straggle in from the back woods, soldiers behind them to shove them if they slowed down.
Thomas found Judy Shapiro, the project director. She and Bill Geisler were the center of attention, but they didn’t have any answers either. Geisler was Shapiro’s roommate and lover. He was also the only person on the project who didn’t seem to know about her penchant for graduate students of either sex, the younger the better.
They were both in their early thirties, almost ten years younger than Thomas, both veterans of the New Alchemy Institute on Cape Cod and the Lindisfarne Hamlet in Colorado. They were sunburned, earnest, and wore odd clothes. Geisler was project secretary, which meant he greased palms and got permits and generally tried to maintain Shapiro’s supply lines to reality.
Thomas had his own title. He was project anthropologist. It didn’t mean much, except that Margaret Mead used to hang out at New Alchemy so Shapiro had wanted an anthropologist of her own. He was supposed to provide expertise on native shelters. In practice, when he wasn’t doing the shitwork that was expected of all of them, he had plenty of computer time to work on his own stuff.
That being the application of Ilya Prigogine’s dissipative structures to the Mayan collapse circa 900 ad. He’d run out of funding at ut, the project had made him an offer, and now he’d been here two years and there was a tank in the yard.
“I don’t suppose you know anything,” Shapiro asked Thomas. He shook his head. “Stay close. We have to put up a united front on this thing.”
Thomas wandered off, found a chair and sat down. A guardia officer came in and stood for a while with his hands behind his back. He was bareheaded and his uniform hung loosely off his shoulders. He looked about sixty. His hair was black and his skin reddish brown, a stigma of Indian blood. He was a captain and Thomas suspected he wouldn’t go much further. European ancestry was still the thing. Thomas had seen him out here before, asking questions, pounding his fist into his left hand. His name was Espinosa.
“This is everyone?” he asked. Sarah, out of breath, came to stand next to Thomas’s chair. Everybody else got more or less into a line facing Espinosa.
“I thought you were cowering behind your desk,” Thomas said.
“They dragged me out,” she said. “The fascists.”
Espinosa walked slowly down the line. He pointed to Shapiro and Geisler and finally to Thomas. “You three will stay here.” His English was accented but plain enough. “The rest of you will go back to the United States, to your homes and families. You will be searched and your belongings will be searched but you will not be harmed. We will bring a bus to take you back to Mexico City where you will take an airplane.”
“Why you?” Sarah asked.
“Seniority, I guess.” Shapiro and Geisler had been here three years, since the beginning. Outside of Thomas and the clerical staff, like Sarah, everybody else was pretty recent.
Thomas stood up and Sarah put her arms around him. She was crying. “I don’t want to go,” she said. “There’s going to be concrete everywhere and chlorine in the water. The food’s going to taste wrong and I’ll get cancer.”
“It’s temporary. Got to be. We’ll get this straightened out and send for everybody again.”
“Goddammit, Thomas, don’t patronize me. It’s over. The world’s not ready for us, and so they’re going to destroy us.”
“Sarah…”
“G’bye, Thomas,” she said, backing away. “Peace, love, and all that crap.” She wiggled her fingers at him, and then turned and let one of the soldiers lead her out.
*
It took half an hour to get the room cleared. Thomas was amazed to see how hard some of them fought to stay. Who was going to take care of the compost, who was going to check the pH in the fish tanks? What about aphids, what about nitrogen shortfalls?
One of the grad students, a thin girl from ucla, tried to get loose. Espinosa signaled to one of his men, who slapped her hard across the face, jerked her arms behind her back, and marched her out.
But then, he thought, if they tried to drag me out maybe I’d be fighting too. The place was seductive. He’d gotten comfortable with the idea of being off the power grid, politically and ecologically.
Espinosa kept three soldiers behind with him. They were just kids, Thomas thought. The older ones would be fighting in the eastern jungles or the streets of Juarez and Zihautenejo.
“I want you to show me the weapons,” Espinosa said.
Shapiro let out a theatrical sigh. “Is that all? The weapons business again? We haven’t got any. How many times do we have to tell you?”
“It is known that you are supporting the rebels. We know this, you see. The rebels line up outside the gate. We don’t look for the guns or the mortars. We look for the nerve gas. The virus.”
“For God’s sake,” Shapiro said. “Those kids outside were protesters. They want us out of here as much as you do. In spite of the fact that your government asked us here in the first place.”
“I am not playing with games, here,” Espinosa said. “The rebels must be stopped. They are fighting against legal elected candidates. They are breaking the law.”
It was a bad year for the Institutional Revolution. The pri had been continuously in power now since 1946, and counting a few name changes they went all the way back to 1928. Parties didn’t last that long by losing elections. Sometimes they had to keep recounting the votes until they came out the way they were supposed to.
The pri had tried that in Zihuatenejo and Juarez after the July 6 elections and people had started turning over cars and lighting matches. Half of Zihua had burned to the ground before the guardia shot enough people to quiet things down. There were still crowds of people holding the bridge between Juarez and El Paso.
“Okay, we hear you making all the right noises,” Shapiro said. “What is it you want? ¿La mordida?”
Thomas flinched. There was plenty of corruption in Mexico, but a certain style was expected. One didn’t haggle over bribes in public.
“No lady, I don’t want you money. I want to see the things you have keep hidden from me. Everything, you understand? Everything.”
*
Two dozen soldiers searched the staff cottages. Thomas could hear drawers slamming and furniture being pushed around. They even dragged a couple of mattresses out onto the lawn and ripped them up with bayonets to make their position clear.
Thomas felt sorry for Espinosa. What was the old man supposed to make of windmills that looked like toy rocket ships on top of miniature oil rigs? Five and six foot high columnar fish tanks with giant water lilies floating on top? The glass walls and aquaria on the south sides of all the bungalows?
The worst was the solar wall, troughs of hyacinths inside a long, louvered greenhouse. It ran straight out from the main building to the fountain where the guardia had parked their tank. The project’s sewage ran through troughs to get rid of the organics, then out to the fountain and a series of sand filters to clean and aerate it. But the greenhouse itself stank of shit.
Espinosa hesitated at the door, wrinkling his face.
“I’m with you,” Thomas said. “But these folks don’t seem to mind the smell of their own shit. All part of living in harmony with the planet.”
“Fuck you, Thomas,” Shapiro said.
“‘These people?’” Espinosa said. “Are you not one of them?”
“That’s something Thomas was never good at,” Shapiro said. “Making up his mind. Committing himself.”
“Could we maybe have a little less dissension in the ranks?” Geisler asked.
“I want to see inside,” Espinosa said.
“What in hell for?” Shapiro asked.
“What better place to hide weapons?”
“Oh Christ. Go ahead. Make yourself at home.”
“You,” Espinosa said, looking at Thomas. “You come with.”
They went in. Thomas breathed through his mouth. He felt like he was getting shit on his tongue and gums. Espinosa made out that it didn’t bother him, poking at the rubbery plants, bending over to check the undersides of the bracing under the troughs.
“There aren’t any weapons,” Thomas said. His glasses had misted from the humidity and he wiped them on his shirttail.
“I want to believe you,” Espinosa said. He rolled up one sleeve and felt around in the murky water. “Maybe I do believe you. But I don’t trust you.” There was a certain dry humor in the slant of his eyebrows. “You understand?”
“Los requisitos,” Thomas said. Formalities.
“Claro que sí.” Espinosa dried his arm thoroughly with a handkerchief and then dropped the handkerchief on the floor. It was like they had sealed some kind of bargain, though Thomas wasn’t sure what it involved.
They went back outside. A soldier came running up with a three-foot marijuana plant, dirt still crumbling off its roots. “Mire, capitan! Marijuana!”
“It’s not ours,” Shapiro said. “Goddammit, I told everybody no dope!” Thomas found her histrionics nearly convincing.
Espinosa told the soldier in Spanish, “Go talk to the sergeant. See if he’s found any drugs in the rooms.” Then he looked at Shapiro. “You could go to jail for this, all of you. Smuggling the drugs and helping the rebels.”
“I already told you—”
Geisler put a hand on her arm. “Judy, take it easy….”
Espinosa wasn’t bluffing. The plant was more than enough to get them into jail. And if their paperwork got lost and they spent months or years there, even died there, well, it had happened before.
Thomas’s skin felt clammy. “Look,” he said. “We’re trying to cooperate. We didn’t know about the marijuana.” He was lying, of course. The a&m gang was famous for their killer hybrid pot. If Espinosa tried to burn the plants he would stone all of Cuernavaca.
“Sargento!” Espinosa shouted. The sergeant came running back, knees high, British army style. “Lock them up,” he said in English, then repeated it in Spanish.
The sergeant looked confused. “Where, sir?” he asked in Spanish. “Everything is glass.”
“Think of something,” Espinosa said.
*
The sergeant shut them in the kitchen. One door led into the mural room and the rest of the main building, and the other door led out to the pool. Espinosa put guards on both of them. “It was time for supper anyway,” Thomas said. He made himself an avocado sandwich and sat down at the long, grease-soaked table.
Shapiro ranted for ten or fifteen minutes about how none of this could be happening. Finally she got hungry too and Thomas made some more sandwiches.
Thomas hadn’t worn a watch in over a year, but he’d gotten sensitive to the cycles of daylight. Close to sunset the goats and chickens and parrots got restless and let out more than their usual amount of noise. He made it to be about eight o’clock when they heard the tank start up and drive away. A few minutes later Espinosa came in. He was slumping a bit, looking his age.
“You can sleep in you same places tonight. There will be guards at the doors.”
“You want something to eat?” Thomas said. “We’ll just have to throw it out if you don’t.”
Espinosa looked uncomfortable. “We meet here tomorrow morning. Seven o’clock.” He turned and walked out again.
*
None of the cottages had locks. Thomas waited until dark to open his door and look outside. There were two guards, neither one over 18. They started to raise their guns, then saw the bottles in his hands. He gave them each a beer and asked in Spanish if he could sit by the pool for a couple of minutes. It was only a few yards away.
“If you try to run,” one of them apologized, “we’ll have to shoot you.”
“Claro,” Thomas said.
When they saw he didn’t want any more than to sit by the water they faded into the darkness and left him alone.
The pool was gigantic, the largest Thomas had ever seen. It was the center of the project, not just physically but metaphorically. The project was a model of the world, and the pool was its ocean. It was stocked with mirror carp, who made imitation tides when they thrashed their tails. It had tilapia instead of whales to eat the algae and clean the water. White amurs ate the bigger plants and the project ate the amurs and the talapia.
Thomas was far enough into the metaphor that listening to the patter of the murky water against the tiles had become like listening to real waves. It cleared his head, relaxed him.
Eventually he noticed an orange glow off to his right, on the hotel side of the shallow end. About the same time he smelled the smoke from the cigarette. It had been so long since Thomas had actually seen anybody smoking tobacco that he was a little horrified.
“I think,” Espinosa said at last, “my men have not much discipline.”