Ethereal pink/purple and white shapes—plant-like, organic—swirl up and to the right across the book and against a red background. 'The Knowing Animals' is written in a white sans-serif font in the top left corner, and 'Emily Skov-Nielsen' is written in the same type but red in the bottom right.

The Knowing Animals

Emily Skov-Nielsen

Brick Books

A stylized, illustrated blue tree sits to the left of the words 'Canada Council for the Arts / Counseil des arts du Canada.' A large red A is bisected by an angled blue C, with a green O balanced between the two letters on the left. To the right of the OAC logo are the words 'Ontario Arts Council / Counseil des arts de l'Ontario' over a red line with the words 'An Ontario Government Agency / un organisme du gouvernement de l'Ontario' below the line. The word Canada is written out with a Canadian flag—a red maple leaf flanked by two vertical red stripes—situated above the final A.

Dedication

… and already the knowing animals are aware
that we are not really at home in our interpreted world.

—Rainer Maria Rilke, “The First Elegy”

Contents

Superbloom

Menstromania

Visitation

Waking

Sea Fever

The Morning After

Lying-In

Night Feed

Orbital

Driving Home

Vernal Equinox

Untitled (Oil Paint, House, Peonies, War)

Passage

Rewilding

Naturecultures

Cryptozoology

Photophobic

coded

Mother Earth

Solstice

After Reading a Poem by Rachel Rose

Unblood my instinct, love

Her Sharps

Party

Circus

Teenage

Amanita Muscaria

Teenage, Take Two

Volta

Gutter Punk/Mycologist/Muse

Lucida

New Day of Girls

Dream-Damp

The mind in morning

Portrait of the Poet as a Squirrel

That is the whole

Subcurrent

REM

Emily & Alden

Riddle

Antics

Cross-Country

Homespun

Going Out

Painting Suburbia

Glimpse of the Hook

Deception

Contact

Worms and Fish

Love Poem

Pillow Talk

Epiphany

Home Alone, June

Ouroboros

The Vanishing Point

Wind Shear

Afterlight

A Rabbit as Queen of the Moon

Art!

Thinking in Texture

Anxiety

Distemper

Dementia

Hospital of the Absurd

The Knowing Animals

Evening Drive, November

Considering Physics, Destiny’s Child, BDSM, and Simone Weil at Drag Bingo

Notes

Acknowledgments

Superbloom

Menstromania

 

 

Loose and bloody in the bathwater, a crossbred

sea star/sponge/jellyfish of mucosal tissue,

 

a strand of uterus, a small stringed instrument,

a nest, a tuft of down feather fallen from a bird

 

in the hand of my body (a hedge sparrow)—

or maybe it’s a knot of spider silk. It is time

 

spelled out—f-o-u-r weeks to be exact—a shredded page

from a calendar eaten by the moon whose teeth

 

shine as it bites through my lower abdomen, a pain

lit from the inside like a paper lantern. Yes,

 

this is what my body has become overnight,

a ranting lunatic of clarity and impulse, dysphoria

 

and cravings—a bloated hull, red sky at morning,

an eyelid turned inside out, a dauntless sea-craft

 

crossing waters in an equatorial countercurrent

spurred by monsoon winds, wind spiking

 

the ocean’s surface like a dragon fruit. My body

is the red rind of a tart, hidden pomegranate,

 

the air is appetite, tonguing the pulpy seeds

(of what?) inside me, inciting a slow evisceration,

 

catabolization, breakdown in the bloodstream,

the hemodynamics of the world, its nonstop

 

pulse searching for the aortic semi-lunar valve

in the arterial tree, a big-tooth aspen perhaps,

 

yes, that’s the one. Don’t call me hysteric, call me

wisteric, bearing racemes of blue-lilac papilionaceous

 

flowers and wrist-thick trunks, collapsing latticework.

I’m a head case with an acute associative disorder

 

tending a garden of hypochondria with offshoots

of violet amnesias, long convoluted tendrils climbing

 

a trellis of intersecting stakes. I’m a recovering psycho-

somatic somnambulating between the body and the mind,

 

rebuilding the distance with words until relapsing

into this poem, this unmoored monastery of endometrial

 

cells adrift, this intertidal ragbag tatter of home, no longer

a home but a memory—far and near, loose and bloody.

Visitation

 

 

Roving through flowering megacities,

fields of sea lavender—carrying a zygote

 

nearly invisible inside me, while savouring

the soft pornography of this Disneynature

 

landscape, waiting for Meryl Streep’s voice

to come gliding in, luciferous as always,

 

draping sublimity, narrating every kill.

I haunt the deer who have come to feed

 

at the edge of the coastal wood. I fall in with

the flow of animals closing and opening mirrored

 

doors with a feeling that I’m being followed:

a complicated faith, utopian and disquieting.

Waking

For Ava

1.

 

Night wanes.

 

The arrow-pointed attention of the nocturnals—

their small, violent eyes fixed

on a lengthening red distance. The hunted

 

shed their vulnerability with each eastward step;

the sun smoothing its hand along their slackening backs,

 

the same hand that unswathes the house

from its dark swaddle. Sleep—

 

the rounded edges of a folded cloth, tucked away,

once more, in a pine-scented cupboard,

 

still cool but warming.

2.

 

I wake to the ripple of a full womb,

 

to an early memory of my mother’s veined wrists

plunging into cloud-like dishwater,

swimming in the unseen.

 

She lifts a bowl from the murk

that closes up like flesh and reveals

nothing of the other side.

 

Holds it in both hands, as if it were an infant,

the speechless: one who calls us

back to the wilderness of the unnamed.

3.

 

Your birth is coming.

 

Clouds, steel-coloured with rain, loom

over us like gods—unflinching and expectant.

 

The garden swells with a damp heat, the sky

bends to lick its beaded brow, flexed with lightning.

 

Welcome the downfall. Whose hands pull us now

through the rivulet, through this spill from heaven

 

guttering at the foot of the hill?

 

Herons, down along the marsh, croak with laughter,

catching wind of the histories we tell—

their cousins bearing children in their stout bills.

 

Not even the rain can know of its aerial beginnings.

Still, I look to you, curled like a question mark inside of me:

 

Will you be arriving in the mouth of a bird?

 

From whose throat will you be called forth?