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© 2020 Damaris Bromeis
Herstellung und Verlag: BoD – Books on Demand GmbH, Norderstedt
ISBN: 978-3-7494-1830-5
am I lying to myself? when I say I just want everyone to be happy? don't I just want me to be happy? I had everything I wanted, I played with them. now they're gone, and now I see how much I loved them. they promised. I knew they were lying. I believed. and I knew. but I believed. because I wanted to. I thought I couldn't lose them. now they're gone. and I miss them. it's never going to be like it was before. I want to cry. I like them. I really do, I like them way more than they ever liked me. and I knew. I wanted to believe, when they said they liked me. but I knew. and I still believed. but no, I'm not lying to myself. I want every single one of them to be happy. and even if it's not with me, I want them to be happy. with all of my heart. because I will always be here and I will always love them.
10:20PM
you are my happiness. now I feel you going, going away from me, slowly drifting away from me. you were here, and you cared, and I never had someone like you. and maybe I’m overreacting, again. but I just care about you. I want you, like you used to want me when I took you for granted. and now I feel you going, going away from me, slowly drifting away from me. but I don't feel like I'm overreacting, again. because I just care about you. I knew how much you wanted me, as much as I want you now, now you take me for granted. I was your happiness. and I know you loved me. and maybe, just maybe, I love you now.
10:29PM
when did you become a crush? hoping it to be you when my phone rings or when I get a message. hoping to accidentally touch you in the hallways. wanting to spend the rest of my life with you. missing you, even though you’re not even gone. remembering every single conversation we had, because they are so rare. when did I start loving you?
10:17AM
it doesn't matter who you were before you changed
1:03AM
and I've never felt this alone before
7:14PM
it just didn't work out. but you know that it could have.
5:46PM
you'll get him.
you're the kind of girl who likes glitter and the color purple.
you’re the princess kind of girl.
you're the kind of girl who gets the prince.
you'll get him.
1:28AM
your words jump forwards while your actions go backwards
5:44PM
I told you I wanted a break from our friendship because I thought it might not be good for us anymore. so why does this feel like a break up?
11:15AM
I always thought we were meant to be. like, one day we will be together anyway, we just need the time to realize. but now I see each other drifting apart, wondering if it's a test or a sign to let go. is he really the one for me or is he just a good part of my life? I always saw something special in our relation to each other, something that wasn't normal and everyone else saw it too. but now I wonder if we are just stones in each other’s ways. I don't want to let go, I love him. but this time I really don't know what the right thing is. fight or let go? what is the right thing to do? if I only followed my heart I'd forgive him everything. am I only imagining us drifting apart? I don't know what to think but I know what I feel. I feel lots of love, disappointment and fear that this time, it's the end.
1:48PM
you used to say you aren't responsible for my problems but now that you're gone, I must say I don't have problems anymore.
1:59PM